Golden Moments Golden Days.

Good day one and all ;uncannily I was very indecisive of whther to add an intrduction on here but decided against it. Then Marie one of my commentators said that at the start she couldn't quite work out what this hub was about and suggested an introduction.; so here we are. I do not want to carry on and on but with new readers I think it is important at times to share the whole story again.

A time of contemplation rises its head every so often and today I look back at my earlier life and right up to the present day.

From the depth of terrible childhood abuse from as far back as I can remember (my father was finally imprisoned) onto the young age of seventeen when I married an abusive alcoholic twice my age. I stayed in the marriage for 26 years and had six children.

Back in 1999 my only sibling Val a talented musician and wonderful person took her own life then in 2009 my youngest daughter Erin also passed away.

Somehow or other I have travelled my road and through my writing I can say with utmost honesty that I finally know who I am!! .Of course sadness washes over me at days; I wouldn't want to pretend otherwise but I have three words that have become a coping plan for want of a better phrase .

I accept what happened in my past years; I also expect to feel sadness at times ;however I also appreciate all that is good in my life today .

I have lived my life being surrounded by Mother nature and her beauty; oh how I love the surrounding countryside here in my Welsh home.

Also after leaving my ex I made a vow never to enter into another relationship but never is a long time and today I am with a wonderful person and we have been together for eight years ;we both share so much and love nothing more that to explore out welsh countryside sometime son foot; in the car or on our Honda 1100.

Today I appreciate all this and also to having 13 grandchildren.

Here I share some poetry which describes a little of how I have travelled over the years and also to share so others may be helped on their journey also.


A journey

beginning

with gaping pot holes

with sharp thorns

exposing and tormenting

causing those wheals of pain.

Discontented

regimented

to live a million lies

to feel the pains of life.

To see the things

Never should have seen

never felt

that deep void

where beauty and truth should have lain

empowered..

Sightless eyes

listless ways

To push away your words

ears never listening

a heart never allowing.

To live a life of fantasy

an instinct in

survival mode;

A heart non trusting

of the ways of others.

People playing mind games

loving leering

in dark sadistic modes

to see such tears;

Never trusting

never sharing.

Darkness and tears prevail !!!

A journey so vile !!!

Where are

golden moments

golden days?



Then in survival mode

sunshine shone;

the rose's sweetness

overcome the pain

in each lingering

gripping

and

scarring thorn;

learning the love in a mother's heart;

sweet birds adoring their baby chicks

maternal instincts raging through

tenderly but surely.

Flowers opening

tenderly bewitching

Tall tress

holding nests of a home so sure;

Each meadow

each silver threaded streams

Sunrises enchanting

sunsets heartwarming.

Each green meadow a playground

in a child's magical world.

Struggles in life

that tender look

soon awakening

each weary being

laden with worry.

To find those

golden moments

golden days ?





Take my hand

follow my steps;

Each cloud has a silver lining;

I awaken to a refreshed world

shining through

the sun's golden wonders.

The sweetness of life

linger dreamily

in tender moments

and

now from a heart so sure.

Spirits arousing;

feelings surmising;

a brand new era

fresh scented aromas.

Pains gone by

as my battles won

making me complete

making me a

person whole.

True heart so sweetened

and I am

blessed with

a faith so strong.

I cast aside the dark

and

devilish fantasy;

lingering in cold and

dark

chambers ;

once reeking of sour mustiness;

rotting

nightmares

now

self-strangled by Satan's own

vile and evil power.

Today with a miraculous force

awakened from a sleep

with a soul

so strong

I have finally overpowered each fiend

arising

evolving

into a victorious

realm of freshness;

a symbolic reality

of true worth..

I made the journey

I share each stumble;

my faith

now rising

to heights anew;

each lesson I have learnt

tasted

and

shared;

a wondrous

over powering self worth;

so close

to the realisation that

I am so near

to those

golden moments

golden days.



Oh Mother Nature

I owe you eternally;

such wonders you share;

you give but do not take;

my sweet angel of true love

your treasures

to flow so freely.

Your tears are now a dew drop's potion

dripping in a magical gleam

enhancing the fields of green.

Bitterness chased into a sharp oblivion

sunshine shining where gloom once reigned.

Painful shadows flee

each decaying mound

of the stagnant stench of trash

today a caressing paradise

created by the loving hands

of a warm and wholesome heart.

Devoid of a single doubt

a single distrust

but filled with a strong belief!!

I today know for sure

from deep into my inner being

that today's paths has lead me

into the hypnotic realms of

golden moments

golden days.





Source

A few words to end; I just want to say that no-one has the right to take away our happiness and no-one has the right to stop us from finding ourselves. I have learnt to listen to my inner being by today and Know for sure whether I am on the right path or not .Losing my sister and daughter were of course so very painful and still is on days .

A year or so after my sister's passing I found the strength to leave my marriage and have also set up a trust fund in my daughter 's memory ( Erin Jones friend of Ty hafan.) our only children hospice here in Wales.

We raise money though various functions and so far have raised over £4,000 .

I wish you all a wonderful day and remember you have the right to live your life fully ;just move forward with your head held high.

Lot of love from Wales to you all.

Eddy.

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bravewarrior 3 years ago from Central Florida

I love following your journey from darkness to light, Eddy. You've come such a long way in your journey of life.

Enjoy your day, my friend!


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Janine Huldie 3 years ago from New York, New York

Wonderful as always Eddy and truly loved how you found your way to the Golden Moments and Days here. Thank you for sharing and wishing you a wonderful day now, as always!


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Marie Flint 3 years ago from Jacksonville, FL

I enjoyed the graphics and classical music. At first, I was a little confused by what this hub was about with the music directly following the first picture. Perhaps a little text as to what inspired you to write this piece would be helpful.

The "gaping potholes with sharp thorns" is the most vivid example of imagery in this poem. And, I like the repetition of "golden moments, golden days," which acts as a framework in bringing the lines together.

Best of all is the resolution coming out of darkness into contentment and happiness. Thank you for sharing your pearls.


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ImKarn23 3 years ago

i started reading this and thought to myself "hmmmm....Eddy's having a dark moment.."

as i continued on this journey - which is what it is - the sun came out and hope bloomed!

life can be a painful journey, don't we all know it. Your words are nothing short of uplifting, my friend..

sharing/caringxx


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so much Marie and your constructive criticism is taken aboard and I agree so will edit that now before I go on any further. Thank you again Marie and here's to so many more hubs for us both to share on here.

Eddy.


Vincent Moore 3 years ago

Eddy I know that you like many of us had struggles from our early beginnings throughout youth and teen years and also into our adult years. We suffered, we wept, we fought, we shared. Look at us now dear poet, we are survivors, we came from the darkness through into the light. Many did not make the journey, some of us did, we now go forward sharing our darkest moments with the hope that we may help those who still live in that place. The light is there, we need to seek it and it will let us in. I am so happy that you produced this wonderful piece showing how your struggles were never in vain. Peace and blessings I send to you this day. Hugs


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so very much Shauna and here's to so many more hubs foir us both to share on here.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you as always Janine and here's to so many more hubs for us both to share on here.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you Leslie and as always your words mean so very much indeed . Have a wonderful day my dear friend.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so much Vincent for this wonderful comment and here's to so many m0ore hubs for us both to share on here. Here's wishing you a great day and lots of love from Wales.

Eddy.


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Jodah 3 years ago from Queensland Australia

Life is certainly a rocky road, with twists and turns Eddy, thank you for giving us some insight into yours. I'm glad you can now experience those golden moments, and golden days, and enjoy what you have. Another touching poem from you once again.


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old albion 3 years ago from Lancashire. England.

This is wonderful Eddy. It has taken great inner strength to relate again the terrible difficulties of your younger years. Keep going Eddy you are indeed a stronger person now. You and Dai are heading for peaceful years together along with your family. Being in Wales can only enhance the future. Well done.

voted up.

Graham.


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billybuc 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

I do believe you and I wrote about the same thing today, Eddy. Yours is much more beautiful than mine. I should be jealous but instead I am applauding you.

love,

billy


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ashelladyhawke 3 years ago from California

Very well done. You have made it further on the journey than I have. Seeing how so parallel in ways to my life, I cried. I couldn't finish it as I'm still going through the pain. I know there is a silver lining somewhere~~sometime, and I know I will eventually find it. Thank you for one heck of a reading. Voted up. and Beautiful


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Ericdierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

What a wonderful piece. My boy just loved the pictures. He wants to go for a hike right now!!!

Whatever path, I am glad that right here right now you are.


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always exploring 3 years ago from Southern Illinois

Your words are amazing and touched me deeply. I remember when we first started following each other, we wrote of our childhood hurts and disappointments and how we both grew after putting our feelings on paper. I know when i first read your story, it gave me the courage to open up a closed door. I know that you've helped countless women overcome. I am happy to call you my special friend. Have a wonderful day. God bless you Eddy.


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janetwrites 3 years ago from Georgia country

I admire you for being so strong after what had happened in your past. I enjoyed reading your words from the darkness till the golden moments and golden days.


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Phyllis Doyle 3 years ago from High desert of Nevada.

Eddy, you have journeyed a path of struggles, with pain so deep and -- yet you came through with faith in and love for yourself, which is why you give so much love to others. Through it all, you somehow remained steadfast and true to yourself, whether you were always aware of it or not. You have a fire in your soul that will not be extinguished, a love in your heart that grows ever more abundant -- and this comes out in your poetry. Hugs and blessings to you.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

You are so welcome Jodah; your comment so greatly appreciated and here's to wishing you a great day.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Graham thank you so much for your loyal following and friendship. It is all so greatly appreciated. and here's to so many more hubs for us both to share on here.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Oh Billy yes we have travelled along the same road even if the story a little different. I shall be visiting yours shortly and as always our friendship is so greatly appreciated.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so much ashelladayhawke and sorry you are also going through the pain but also heartening to feel your strength of character.Don't ever lose it and I have always said that the only way to beat these vile scum is to be happy in our own lives. it doesn't matter if some have now passed away I still have that determination. A determination that today is stronger than ever. I shall call over your shortly and remember if needed I am only a couple of clicks away.

Take care my friend and lots of love and hugs from Wales.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so much as always Eric. Enjoy your day.

Eddy.


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ocfireflies 3 years ago from North Carolina

Eddy,

Your willingness to be open about who you are, where you have been and positive about where you are going serve as a beacon of light for me. I appreciate you and am always in awe of the beauty in which you share with me and others.

Many Blessings to a Wonderful Lady,

Kim


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Yes Ruby what we have is precious and I will always treasure our friendship. We have indeed grown thanks to getting to know each other in the midst of this wonderful and warm community. Lots of love to you my dear friend from my little corner of Wales.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so much janetwrites your words as always so greatly appreciated.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Oh Phyllis what a wonderfully warm and caring community this is and I treasure each and every friendship I have made. Your words appreciated more than I can say. Lots of love to you my friend all the way from Wales.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Your comment is so touching and I owe so much to you all my cherished friends; life long friend I must add. Here's wishing you a great day Kim and thank you so many time over...Here's sending you hugs from my little corner of Wales.

Eddy.

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BlossomSB 3 years ago from Victoria, Australia

Dear Eddy, it takes so much courage to write as you have. You have been through so many experiences that you would rather forget, but instead you have shared a little of them and this strength of character shows in your writing and your obvious zest for life and your joy and delight in God's wonderful creation in the nature around you in beautiful Wales. God bless you!


DJ Anderson 3 years ago

Well done, Eddy.

With your story, you give hope to the hopeless.

With your story, you give encouragement to those who walk in darkness.

With your story, you show the way to a heart filled with gladness.

God bless,

DJ.


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CraftytotheCore 3 years ago

Your story is amazing! Bless you for being such a positive influence here on HP. Every time I read your Hubs, I get such a feeling of peace and I know everything is going to be ok. You are a fabulous writer and so talented!


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jhamann 3 years ago from Reno NV

Eddy I feel priviliged to witness your growth here on Hubpages, every poem brings a new piece of the puzzle. I enjoy your poetry so much it contains the ingredients to pull the heart strings and to create a moment of silent contemplation. Thank you Eddy and may there be many more. jamie


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AliciaC 3 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

I am so sorry about your sad past, which you describe so effectively in the imagery used in your poem. It's truly wonderful to see that you have found the "golden moments, golden days" in the present, though. Best wishes, Eddie.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

BLOSSOM

DJ

CRAFTYTOTHECORE

JAMIE

ALICIA

.Thank you over and over again for all your comments; I am still a little nervous of repeating my story on here but my heart tells me to do so and I have now learnt to trust these feelings.

My legacy will be to help others and to repeat myself also helps those who have only recently become one of my followers/friends.

I cannot stress enough on how precious each one of you my hubfamily members are .

I have shared with you all more than I have with most people over the years.

Today I also have my partner my soulmate my all and my wonderful family of six children their partners and families.

The knowledge that my beautiful sister Val and sweet daughter Erin are also with me daily.

My faith is stronger than ever. Thank you all once again ;I mean this more than words can ever say.

Lots of love from Wales.

Eddy.


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loveofnight 3 years ago from Baltimore, Maryland

you take my breathe away, your journey lets people like me know that we are not alone in our struggles. there was a time when i thought that life was a cruel trick that God played on me, fortunately i know better now and enjoy the beauty of each day. thanks for a heart touching share.


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mathira 3 years ago from chennai

Eddie, you are right when you say that when we listen to our inner being we can never go wrong.


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D.A.L. 3 years ago from Lancashire north west England

Eddie, what can I add to the accolades bestowed above,- you deserve them all, I found the verses about nature very apt for nature has seen me through some of my darkest days. Beautifully done . Voted up my friend.


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kidscrafts 3 years ago from Ottawa, Canada

Eddie, I think your writing allows you to share the dark moments and the bright ones. And you share your beautiful writing with all of us on hubpages... what a privilege to read you! Thank you!


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epbooks 3 years ago from Las Vegas, NV

I'm so sorry for what you have been through and very glad to hear that you have found happiness. Beautiful and inspiring hub.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

LOVE OF NIGHT

MATHIRA

JOELLE

DAL

EPBOOKS

Thank you so much for each wonderful comment and here's to so many more for us all to share on here.

Have a great day and lots of love from Wales..

Eddy.


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Gypsy Rose Lee 3 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and awesome. A delightful, colorful and inspiring poetic and picturesque journey. Enjoyed. Passing this on.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so much as always Rasma.

Have a great day.

Eddy.


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teaches12345 3 years ago

Although you have experienced so much hardship early in life, you have decided to build a stronger character over the years. I admire your strength and attitude.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you Dianna.

Eddy.


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aviannovice 3 years ago from Stillwater, OK

Your are so inspirational to many. Be proud of who you are, as many look up to you, as they star that you are.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Oh your kind words so greatly appreciated Deb.

Eddy.

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