Heart In Armor

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By: Wayne Brown

(Writer’s Note: It was some 18 years ago that my wife Barbara built a bridge of friendship between our two hearts and taught me to love and trust again. For that I have never had the words to express how I feel about it. Today I think I found those words. The accompanying song and video suggest the regret I might have experienced had I not walked over that bridge.)



I was afraid you might return to try just once again

When my heart was still broken but on the mend

A broken heart heals ever so slow before it trusts

I hide from any more hurt driven only by my lust




Time has eased the hurt but for trust I could only pray

Maybe now is not the time, maybe just one more day?

One more day before I drop this shield and love again

One more day might just allow love to come in




How will I know who to trust with my heart? Is it you?

How will I know the time is right? What to do?

Might I be dropping my armor in haste; A bit too soon?

Time will wait only so long; oh how high the moon




Love hides in the darkest caves when a heart does shatter

Trust is lost; the pain is constant; nothing will really matter

Is it time to drop this guard; expose my tender heart again?

Is this the place I regain my trust and let our love begin?




One more day with my heart in armor, its safety such a must

One more day; heart in armor, knowing again that I must trust

Yet you return once again to gently lower my guard shields

To coax my heart to trust again and see the love it feels




One more day, it would seem, things could be a little better

One more day and I would be willing to let go this tether

But in your eyes I see your heart reach out to mine once again

And in that moment I drop the line and reach to take your hand



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DannyMaio 5 years ago from New York

Very nice! great job. really enjoyed it. you always amaze me. voted up.


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breakfastpop 5 years ago

You are truly a most evolved man, so talented and so in touch with your feelings. Beautiful poem. Up awesome and oh so beautiful.


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@DannyMaio...Thanks much, Dan. I really appreciate those good words! WB

@breakfastpop...It's the drinkin' that does it, Poppy. I read your posts, go drink, come back and write...just that simple! LOL! WB


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland

"heart in armour", I call this wearing my heart on my sleeve. Wayne my dear friend, I so admire your truth and honesty here. I have been hurt in every relationship in my life, let down by every single person I can think of one way or another, but I wouldn't have it any other way. Pain builds character, and you have tonnes of that. The trouble starts when you will not, not can not, allow anyone in to your life. This makes you bitter and resentful, which you are not. It is good to look after your emotions, not rely on anyone else, but only if a lonely, sad life is what you crave. A compassionate heart learns to cope with the pain, it is our brain that will not let us escape the pain and hold on to failure. God bless you, and much love.


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@thebluestar...As a writer, one of the lessons I learned early on was that allowing my true emotions to flow out on the page helped me to heal and it offered the reader a sense of satisfaction and enjoyment that I could not otherwise have created. It also lifted a load off of my shoulders and gained me some good advice for others. Love does not come without risk and there are really no guarantees that it will last...we can only hope and do the things that will nurture it in the present, for the present is all we really have. We cannot fix the hurt of the past and we cannot allow the possibility of hurt in our future to shut out our potential joy in life...it's that simple. Thanks for your great comments! WB


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland

Wayne we have so much in common. Website Examiner via Novelty Reviews helped to put my life in a new prospective, when he wrote a review of my hubs recently. I was shocked and appalled at his review on first read, but he was right, and in many ways has given me to confidence to carry on with my writing. Some people drink or take drugs to hide the pain, like you I write. You know I have the greatest of respect for you, and I have been told I am a good listener lol


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@thebluestar...Right on both counts! LOL! WB


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Poohgranma 5 years ago from On the edge

So many people have their hearts broken by a failed love. The rest of your life truly is determined in how you meet what comes to you. You chose the right path and a good woman. You found a healthy way to get rid of the pain and the sharp slap across the face and by doing so, you give the gift of healing balm for your readers, knowing you survived in glory and the hope that they can follow in your footsteps.


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Pamela N Red 5 years ago from Oklahoma

Wonderful tribute to your wife.


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drbj 5 years ago from south Florida

What a perfect image that heart in armor is, Wayne, to express the vivid and loving feelings in your beautiful poetry.


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WillStarr 5 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

A fine tribute to your wife Wayne. Well done!


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@Poohgranma...Very true. I was lucky enough to meet the right person who understood the importance of friendship in the process of love. Thanks much. WB

@Pamela N Red...I should probably share it with her, huh? LOL! Thank you. WB

@drbj...Thank you. The song was quite an inspiration as it suggest the regret of missing that last chance for love. WB

@WillStarr...Thank you! It's been a good decision for a long time now...very good! WB


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Rhonda Waits 5 years ago from The Emerald Coast

You truly are amazing and gifted as a writer. Voted up and awesome always. Keep up the good work.

Sweet wishes Rhonda


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@Rhonda Waits...Looks like it will never make me the price of a cup of coffee, Rhonda. With my luck, I will become famous long after my death! LOL! As Mark Twain observed, "The rumors of my death are greatly exaggerated!" Thanks much! WB


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Truckstop Sally 5 years ago

WB - What a love story! And because it is true -- even more meaningful. Love the last line: I drop the line and reach to take your hand

That leap of faith is so hard, but it can be so rewarding. Glad you landed on the sweet side of it all! Enjoyed the video and song. Powerful stuff! Amy


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Docmo 5 years ago from UK

Wonderfully done WB, there is so much emotion and love in these words- and they are well complimented by Trisha Yearwood's song. voted up!


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@Truckstop Sally...Well, ya see, that's they way you write...just put those true emotions on the page...it works everytime! LOL! Thank you! WB

@Docmo...Thank you! The truth is easy to write when the right words come. Thanks much! WB


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sofs 5 years ago

This is so beautiful, the slow change of the heart from its place of hiding to felling the warmth once again and taking the hand in complete trust. One more day with my heart in armor, its safety such a must

One more day; heart in armor, knowing again that I must trust

Yet you return once again to gently lower my guard shields

To coax my heart to trust again and see the love it feels

I love this part where questions arise and answers appear!

Wayne Brown, the emotions just flow so naturally through your words.. your love is almost tangible to the reader!! Wow!! love it !!


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@Sofs...Thank you for those kind words. As I told a friend last night, verses such as this come more easily when we truly release our emotion and let the emotion shape the word choice. I don't really consider myself much of a poet but I am blessed to be able to release my inner self and that helps greatly. Thanks for the great comments. WB


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Genna East 5 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

A beautiful and touching tribute to your lovely wife, Wayne. If we close our hearts due to a painful experience, we miss out on love that is often more tangible, fulfilling and rewarding. Your wife sounds like a wonderful woman, and you are both indeed blessed.


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The Frog Prince 5 years ago from Arlington, TX

Wayne - You're good my man. Just yesterday I had a very deep conversation with another person about "guarding my soul." The heart and soul are very fragile and have a tendency to collect scars over time. After many such scars, it becomes difficult to take another risk my friend.

I've been there many times unfortunately. I'm grateful to you for sharing this with us. You, my friend, are a good man. Love, live and let yourself step on out there.

That is a truly beautiful song.

Up, awesome and beautiful.

The Frog


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@Genna East...Thanks so much. Life teaches us many lessons and hurt is one of them. Sometimes we have to come out of the tunnel on the other side before the lesson is apparent. Some folks don't make it out of the tunnel. Life is too short to live in fear and too enjoyable to live without love and companionship. WB

@The Frog Prince...Friendship bridges many fears. It is also the foundation of a strong and lasting love. What we won't sustain us in love, friendship will carry and that is the wonderful combination that so few find. Thanks so much for your kind words, Frog! WB


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

A www WB - we are the lucky ones aren't we? I'm so darn glad you have got a good woman - I tell you they are hard to come by:)

Sometimes the stars all line up just right. And I bet she loves this and I wish both of you the best:)!

I love your ability to write poetry! Its crazy good;)


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@RealHousewife...We are the lucky ones...so true. That fog is hard to get out of but if you make it to the other side, the rewards are worth it. Barbara and I are going to dinner tonight so I will probably let her see this for the first time. Thanks for the good words on my verses! WB


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kathryn1000 5 years ago from London

That is very moving,Wayne,and beautifully written.i am sure it will be helpdul to others going through sad traumatic loss of love.And it's a good poem!!!!


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@kathryn1000...Thank you. I tried to let the song set the mood for the words to come forth and it seemed to work for me on this one. WB


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kathryn1000 5 years ago from London

i really liked it.Sorry I've not been around much...alll the wotld disasters seemd to knock me back lately.


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

kathryn1000...Thanks so much. Glad to see you back again...hope it wasn't too bad. WB


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Cardisa 5 years ago from Jamaica

Hi Wayne, I am glad you decided to let in Barbara because when you let some in you also let yourself go. It's very freeing to finally trust and love again.

Beautiful hub!

Cardisa


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chspublish 5 years ago from Ireland

Reaching out again can be a challenge, but reach you did and now you're glad. Beautiful heartfelt words.


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@Cardisa...Yes, some things fall in place like pieces of a puzzle. This was one of them for me although I could have easily found a basis to just run and hide. Luckily I did not. WB

@chspublish...Thanks so much. I appreciate the comments. WB


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kathryn1000 5 years ago from London

Good for you!


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saddlerider1 5 years ago

What a fitting tribute to your wife and a tender video to go with it, this write could easily with a few tweeks be turned into a heart wrenching tune. Wayne I am so happy for you both, when hearts collide and stick, there is no greater feeling on this earth.

I can associate with thebluestar...I to have had many failed relationships, many were of my own doing. I found out late in life that this saddle was made to ride life alone, so be it. I have friendships, but love is fleeting and for the most part gone.

I envy lovers, I was told I was a great one at one time. Well done, I applaud this scribe and I ask you to take a bow with applause.


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@saddlerider1...As Kenny Rogers sang, you got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em....I took the plunge and it was the right one for me, thank goodness. WB


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DTroth 5 years ago from My Little Hole In The Wall, HubPages, USA

Hi Wayne,

Loved the poem. Loved the video and song. Brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for making me "feel."

You have an amazing talent, Wayne. I can't wait to read the rest of your Hubs.

I'm gonna go give my hubby a great big ol' hug and kiss now.

Be blessed and stay safe,

Diana


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@DTroth...Thank and thanks so much for the fan mail. I hope you will find some others here that you enjoy as much. Thanks again! WB


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attemptedhumour 5 years ago from Australia

Sometimes at work people will say to me, "you'll never get that tree stump out." Twenty minutes later, ok maybe twenty five, it will on the back of my truck.

When a guy tells a gal his heart is irreparable the same process occurs.

Maybe you were a tiny bit wiser second time around too, but hey, good luck to you both.

Cheers Wayne.


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@attemptedhumor...Hmmm, that's the first time that I have heard love equated to stump-pullin' but I reckon you do have point. Thanks for the good comment! WB


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deedeelaw 5 years ago from Deborah's Musings

Your wife is just as lucky as your heart. It is indeed very hard to learn to trust again.I am so happy for you both life is much sweeter with someone by your side,and in your heart.~


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@deedeelaw...Thank you DeeDee...based on those things you write of, I feel certain that your words are accurate. WB


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ChristineVianello 5 years ago from Philadelphia

I loved the poem!


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas Author

@ChristineVianello...Thanks so much Christine, glad to hear that you liked it! WB

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