H.O.W. Humanity One World And My Val.


I am dedicating this hub to my dear friend Bill Holland who writes under the name billybuc.


and also to one sweet angel;my beautiful sister Val.

Well here I am at 6am on New Years Eve enjoying my very first cuppa of the morning.Dai has work today but will have a day off tomorrow ;which will be a great start to our brand New Year.

What will this New Year hold?? I am sure that most of us are asking ourselves this question!!!

I have already published a hub on my New Year plans.


I feel good times ahead;my heart eager and spirit ready!!!

Bill is a very important and dear member of my hubfamily plus a great friend.

He has recently formed the wonderful group H.OW. Humanity One World.

Check out here:-


Tomorrow January 1st I have undertaken to begin a great challenge ; follow the link below to find out how you can also take part.


It is so worthwhile and will eventually become a daily part of our lives.

Val and all her prizes for her beautiful singing voice.
Val and all her prizes for her beautiful singing voice. | Source

I will now share with you one beautiful angel who sings so sweetly up in heaven;my sister Val.Some of you will already know all about Val from previous hubs.

Before I go any further I want to stress that while this story is sad and tragic it is not a bleak story of failure and sadness ; oh no it is a story of care,love and triumph!! After reading you will realise why I have also dedicated this hub to my Val.

A story of how even though my sister may not be here in person she is more than ever right here by my side and in my heart .Always guiding me on and now also at peace herself!

Let me tell you a little about our early life.

We both grew up in a small seaside town in Wales (only 20 miles from where I now live).

However she was brought up by a grandmother and therefore escaped most of the abuse that I suffered.

She sang at Eisteddfodau (Welsh talent competitions) all over Wales and won so many prizes as you can see in the photo below.

She was my big sister by three years and I grew up in her shadow;usually called Valerie's sister instead of Eiddwen.

This I can honestly say I never did mind as she was the one person in my life who made me proud to be me!!!

I can remember at our school Eisteddfodau there was not a sound to be heard as her beautiful voice filled the hall and I sat there beaming because this was my sister!!!

I also remember how she would always find out whenever I got up to mischief and would scold away!!Ha ha!!

So fixed in my memory will always be her happy smile;her laughter and her bubbly personality which made everyone fall in love with her!!

In later years Val graduated from the London Royal College of Music and was then married to Colin whom she had met at the college.

Sadly her marriage broke down and then her music was not enough !!!

So many thoughts of our childhood came back to haunt her and even though she had not suffered much abuse; the whole situation she could not cope with.

She subsequently suffered two nervous breakdowns and our roles were now reversed!!

I was the main one looking after her ; she remained in the London area throughout all this with only the two of us keeping in touch;we had both disowned all other members of our family.

We stayed in contact through phone calls and letters.

However it was often difficult to keep in touch as she would sometimes disappear and I was hundreds of miles away bringing up my six children.

So sadly in 1999 she took her own life!! Oh how my heart grieved!!

In the last ten years of her life she had spent most of her time at 'The Roselands Resource Centre' in 'New Malden', Surrey;a drop in centre connected with The Mental Health Association.

They spoke highly of her kindness and care for others; even through her own suffering she would never tire of sitting with others;talking to them and helping them in their quest to find and live their dreams.

I remember a time when she was so sad as a friend had passed away and she felt she should have done more to help him.

She was taking violin lessons as she had only ever played the piano; and also spent time busking on the streets with her recorder.

Again she was loved by all who knew her!!

I know without a doubt that she is with me today as she has been since that day back in 1999.

She gave me strength after her death to leave my abusive marriage of 26 years.

I feel her presence daily and know she is guiding me towards the path which I am now taking.

She may be gone from this world but is always by my side and in my heart.

I can feel her enthusiasm about Bill's H.O.W. and now she is telling me to carry on with the support, care and kindness she had so unconditionally given at The Roselands Resource Centre.

My one wish since joining HPs has been to share my story in order to help others and the support I have received from you all has been priceless.

It is with great positiveness and good vibes that I will travel into this New Year of 2013.

A journey of lessons learnt and new beginnings; a new era!!!

As one door close another opens.

Here's to you Bill and may H.O.W. be a great success and will help worldwide !!

Will help to teach and show that even through all this cruelty and sadness in today's world there is still beauty,care,and unconditional love.

Share this wonderful venture with all around you.

God bless you Billy.


Val's Legacy.

Another great read which left my heart full of warmth and led me to compose the poem below:


My Val.

I know you are with me

each and everyday

helping me on my way............................

H.O.W. would have warmed your heart

in Billy's heart you would have found

a kindred spirit

sharing love all around.............................

With your legacy in mind

and your warmth in my heart

great times ahead

we are never apart................................

May this wonderful path

flourish and blossom

and fill the world with a beauty

so rich so awesome..................................


Thank you so much Bill for H.O.W. and I will share all around including at a local Mental Health group which I plan to visit in the New Year and hopefully will be able carry on with Val's good work also.

Val was and is one of my guardian angels indeed and always will be.
I was really torn in two about publishing this one today on New Years Eve;part of me just wanted to share a funny story to make everyone laugh going into the new year but then my other half took over and I knew I had to as this is what my life is all about. I haven't shared it with sadness;I have shared with pride and honesty from my soul.
I travel into the New year a stronger person and my path ahead so right and so accessible!!!

God Bless you Billy my very dear friend and here's to bigger ,brighter and greater times ahead!!!



Here I end this hub with Auld Lang Syne to bring the New Year in.

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Comments 42 comments

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Janine Huldie 4 years ago from New York, New York

Thanks for sharing Val's story and more of Bill's great work with HOW. I am truly sorry for the loss of your beautiful and wonderful sister, but sounds like she was your guardian angel. Have a very Happy and wonderful New Year!!! Love and hugs sending your way!!

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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so much as always Janine and here's to a great 2013 for us both.

Lots of love.


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craiglyn 4 years ago from Ontario, Canada

Eddy, thank you so much for sharing your story about Val. Life can be so hard sometimes; we go through hardships, love and loss, but I believe through it all we learn lessons. Your Val is still with you - you know that and I know that - and this is a beautiful thing. "Love Never Dies". Thank you for sharing your heart. And I am going to look up H.O.W. A beautiful tribute you have given to two people important to you.

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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so very much craiglyn and your words mean so very much. My message to all is that even though loved ones are not with us in person they are still here with us without a single doubt!!!

I today go with the flow of life and where it takes me;as long as I am happy in that direction!!!

There are new roads around every corner and if my heart tells me this is the right choice then this is where I go.

Thank you for looking up H.O.W. ;I am sure you will not be disappointed and then if you could share the word further well what more can we ask for.

I wish you a wonderful 2013 and may it bring you much happiness.

Lots of love


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bravewarrior 4 years ago from Central Florida

Eddy, this is beautiful tribute to your dear sister. I myself have seen you grow stronger in the year I've been with HP. You are a beautiful person. I am so very proud to call you my friend.

Happy New Year and may it be the best year yet!

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rajan jolly 4 years ago from From Mumbai, presently in Jalandhar,INDIA.

Eddy, this is such a beautiful tribute to your sister who I can feel had a heart full of love and care. Though it is sad she had to go the way she did i'm glad you have such a happy treasure of her memories. This is a beautiful poem as well.

Hope your new year resolutions bring much cheer and happiness to you. Wish you the best. Voting this up and beautiful.

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billybuc 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

Goosebumps and tears....thank you for the beauty you have brought into the world, and thank you for this special gift. I have visions of a better world, Eddy, but they are only visions and stupid dreams if I do not become the instrument of change.

You are helping with that change. God bless you my dear friend.



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Pollyannalana 4 years ago from US

Thank you for sharing the story of your sister. It is so hard to understand suicide I suppose unless we ourselves have tried it and failed. I am sure your life was harder than your sisters and maybe that is what kept you strong. I would never be thankful for what you have been through but God does work in mysterious ways. I think this is His year. God bless you. A very Happy New Year.

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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so very much Shauna ;I really was in two minds about this one but now know I was right to share it today. A message to all who have lost that they are still with us and want us to be happy.

I am so touched by your words and value our friendship too;today and into the new year ahead.

I hope it brings you much happiness and contentment too.

Lots of love


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so very much too rajan ;your words I shall remember and treasure.

Val today is looking down with her sweet and tender smile at you all and I know will be guiding me throughout the next year and beyond.

I wish you a wonderful New year my friend.

Lots of love


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lrc7815 4 years ago from Central Virginia

Eddy, you are amazing. The tribute to your Val and Bill are wonderful and makes the concept of H.O.W. even more important. You know all too well about the issues and stigma around mental health and can and have given voice to those who need the help. I am so sorry that you lost your sister in such a tragic manner but you are her voice now and the light is shining brightly. I wish you a joyful New Year. Keep singing for those that can't.

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eHealer 4 years ago from Las Vegas

Eddy, thank you for sharing your personal journey with us, it is a beautiful story and restores hope in all who read it. Thank you my friend, and I wish you well in the new year.

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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

You are so welcome Billy and here's to great times in this new year ahead..Lots of love to you and Bev from my little corner of Wales.


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Pollyannalana thank you so very much for these beautiful words and I wish you all your dreams come true in this coming New Year.

Lots of love to you and yours.


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so very much eHealer your words are so greatly appreciated. Here's to great things to come for us both in this brand New year.

Lots of love to you and yours.


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Deborah Brooks 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

Eddy HOW beautiful.. I would have loved to meet your sister. I hope one day I can meet you.. to me you are the most awesome sweetest and caring person. no one can compare to you. Your hubs always leaves me full of love and hope and caring.. I pray this new year for you to have the Most wonderful one and that God will bless you immensely..

bill Holland is wonderful.. I am so glad he has started this movement.

Happy new year and like you said to me here's to many more


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Rosemay50 4 years ago from Hawkes Bay - NewZealand

A beautiful tribute to your sister Val. I am so sorry for the tragic way in which you lost her but she now lives on in you and she would be so proud that your are taking up where she left off in caring for others. She is your inspiration and guardian angel.

Thank you for sharing your journey.

May 2013 be a year full of change and wonder, peace and hope. All the best Eddy

Hugs Rosemary

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btrbell 4 years ago from Mesa, AZ

Beautiful, Eddy! Great hub, wonderful memories. What an awesome sister you had and what an awesome sister you are! Have a very happy and healthy New Year!

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Sueswan 4 years ago


What a beautiful tribute to you sister Val and to Bill. Val is an angel in heaven and you and Bill are angels on earth.

Voted up and away and sharing

God Bless and Happy New Year!

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always exploring 4 years ago from Southern Illinois

Eddy, I feel like i know Val through your writings. I know what it is like to lose a sister. there's nothing more devastating, yet, she has been an inspiration for much of your beautiful work. Wishing you a wonderful new year. Thank you for sharing..

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btrbell 4 years ago from Mesa, AZ

This is beautiful, Eddy! What a lovely tribute! How lucky you were to havew such an amazing sister and how lucky she was to have you! Thank you for sharing! Happy new Year!

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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you from the bottom of my heart Debbie ;your talent,warm and caring heart and our unconditional friendship are all flowing into January and will continue to blossom throughout this year and beyond. It would indeed be so nice to meet up and another of my mottos is 'Never say never!!!'

Here's a loads of love and hugs all for you my special friend.


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so vey much Rosemay and your kind and caring words will stay with me.

Here's to a year full of great and bright days.

Lots of love to you and your family.


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so very much btrbell and here's to a wonderful year ahead for you too. All my love from my little corner of Wales.


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Hi Sue, so nice to see you on here and I wish you a wondeful year ahead for you and your family too!!!

All my love and good wishes .


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

It is now a long time since we first became friends on here and so nice to know that our friendship is life-long.

So many of us on here know hard times and this is what makes us the wonderful HubFamily that we have become.

Here's to loads of happy days ahead for us bothand lots of hubs to share and read of course.

Have a wonderful day and here's lots of love for you all the way from my little coner of Wales.


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Janhorner 4 years ago

Sad hub Eddie but in a way that explains why there was such sadness and hope for the future. I'm sure you Val will walk with you every day and you remember her with sadness yet joy. Voted up,


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Sadly this is life but one of my favourite quotes is 'They may be gone from our homes but never from our hearts.'

Lots of love from my little corner of Wales for you Jan and I wish you a wonderful year ahead.


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and beautiful. God bless Bill indeed. Most wonderful and creative hubber and fantastic that he began HOW. Eddy such beautiful words for your sister Val. She is with you and in your heart. Singing with angels among the stars. If you listen carefully some quiet night perhaps you will be able to hear her. Thanks for the video. I love listening to that song every New Year. Hugs and much love in the New Year from my corner of Europe. Passing this on.

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aviannovice 4 years ago from Stillwater, OK

Eddy, Val sounds like a kindred spirit with so many things living on around her. I am so pleased that you did this story, so that I might learn a little more about your life.

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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so very much aviannovice and here's to a great year ahead.


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so very much Rasma for your friendship,loyal following and also for the beautiful hubs that you create.

Here's to so many more to come.

Lots of love


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shiningirisheyes 4 years ago from Upstate, New York

I have learned of your beautiful sister Val through your other writings but must send a sincere "Thank You" for lifting me up this morning. Sometimes someone who goes through your same pain brings comfort in their knowledge. May your dear sister Val and my brother Tim be enjoying each others company and ours as well.

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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so much Beckie for these sweet words.You are so right to learn from the experience of others travelling on the same road does bring comfort and I am glad you found this I my hub because this is just what I want to achieve.

Here's to Val and Tim who are constantly watching over us. I wish you great times in this coming New Year and here's lots of love from my little corner of Wales for you Beckie.


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ImKarn23 4 years ago

omg..Eddy..i was just talking with Deborah TODAY telling her how i loved your poetry but didn't know much about you personally! Well, now i have tears running down my face and i know...enough! I feel sick that such a loving, intelligent, sensitive soul felt hopeless enough to take her own life - just sick! For her and for you, my dear friend! I can't imagine your suffering - and i am in AWE of your strength! Bill has a wonderful ally in you - and HOW! I believe we will make a difference because we've ALL been there - done that - and come out still fighting!

Thank you for this hub, Eddy - it is terribly sad and terribly inspirational - both at the same time!


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old albion 4 years ago from Lancashire. England.

Hi Eddy. I knew of Val from your hubs but not in the detail here. Again you bring a tear to my eye with this wonderful tribute. Well done also for mentioning Bill, a man I admire greatly, a man who has fought his own battles and like you has come through to help others.

Voted up and all and sharing.


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Oh Leslie how rich I feel today and no wonder I do !!!

I have found my dream and at the same time have made so many wonderful life-long friends.

So often in the past I used to regularly suffer the 'Shall I ? ' 'Shan't I ?' syndrome before pressing that 'Publish' button!!!I felt it again before publishing this one. However my heart told me to go ahead strongly and loudly and here and here we are.

I am so touched by your sincerely caring and kind comment. You are a true star Leslie who inspires me no end. Here's to lots of laughter and bright day in 2013.

Lots of love for you all the way from my little corner of Wales.


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

As always Graham so nice to see that you have stopped by.

Your sincerity will travel with me and your wonderful hubs will inspire me.

Here's to great times ahead for us both. Lots of love for you from my little corner of Wales.


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Made 4 years ago from Finland

What a beautiful hub filled with so much love. I got a warm feeling inside by reading it. You are an amazing person, Eddy. I'm glad to have met you here on HubPages. I'm wishing you wondeful year filled with love and laughter!

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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Hi Made and thank you so very much again for leaving such a wonderful comment; and here's to so many more hubs for us both to share on here in this brand New Year ahead.


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pstraubie48 4 years ago from sunny Florida

How lovely this is, Eddy. Out of the pain and sorrow you find the connection to your precious sister. She must revel in your strength and no doubt is cheering you on. I feel much like this about my sister, Mary Jane, who died when I was a wee bit of a girl. She herself was only 9 but she was wise wise well beyond those years. She left a mark on my life that is with me even today as she was a kind and gentle soul. I feel her presence as I go about my living each day.

I have two sisters who are very precious to me. One I am very close to and we have been close all of our lives. We finish each other's sentences. I am so blessed. The other sister is 20 years older than I am and not in good healthy but we visit and I love her as well becasue she is my precious sister, you know?

This moving peace sharing your sister's journey can offer hope to others who experience pain and sadness...it can be turned around for the good. And your salute to Bill is well deserved. H.O.W. is a beginning. Sending you Angels to lift your spirits each day :) ps

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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so much PS for this wonderful comment and yes you have stated exactly what i wish to do .That is to turn my whole story around so that it can help others;this is my firmest wish and will continue to do so. It was so nice to hear of your sisters too and that very special bond is priceless isn't it.

Here's to a great 2013 for us both with bigger and better times to come . Have a wonderful day my dear friend.


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