Had to Take a Fall

Guilty thinkin' I was special, nothin' less than all

Played a game of life, didn't see the curve ball

Never sang the blues, M.I.A. the day of that roll call

My mistake, life it seems, I had to take a fall

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Stupid thinkin' I could hide, a dressed up paper doll

Emulate the fashion spread, a gangsta and his moll

Golden glitter fairytale ends when real hits the wall

My mistake, life it seems, I had to take a fall

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No princess dreams await, God, he isn't even tall

And all the kingdoms booze heads for a brawl

Foul mood holds a cocktail laced with bitter gall

My mistake, life it seems, I had to take a fall

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Wallow, wail and whine, grow up, get up and haul

Me, myself and mine leads to lonely, dark and small

Where courage hides beneath an old lady's shawl

No mistake, life it seems, I had to take a fall

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Hardship gave me eyes that see around and down the hall

Light through the window that forecasts the coming squall

My open heart holds promise now, no time left to stall

No mistake, life it seems, I had to take a fall

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billybuc 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

I'll tell you for a fact, Amy, that the greatest lessons I have learned were a result of some serious falls. I seem to learn best as a result of pain. Hope I've grown wiser now but I'm not betting the farm on it. :)

Great job on this hub; glad I stopped by.


Sunnie Day 4 years ago

OH Amykins! That dreadful fall hurts like no other..but the trick is recognizing the fall, getting up, and never to make the same mistakes again. Like Billy said we hopefully become wiser. Great hub..it was real and from the heart..sending a big hug,

Sunnie


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I'm so glad you stopped by, too, billybuc. Your comment is right on. The ONLY way this bull-headed one learns is the via the school of hard knocks. I think disappointment and pain are lessons one doesn't forget. Hope you and Bev are enjoying the holiday weekend.


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WillStarr 4 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

The best way to avoid a fall is to refrain from getting back up and trying again.

That's not our Amy's way at all!

Excellent!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Sunnie, I'm so glad to see you! One thing I know for sure is I'm not alone in being knocked down by life. When I regained my bearings, I was stronger for the kick. When I lost my job, although it was due to the economy and not my work ethic, I felt like less than zero. Honestly, my friends at hubpages made me feel like I mattered and with their encouragement and support, I like myself now, as I feel I have something to give. Thank you so much, Sunnie.


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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Beautiful, Awesome, UP Amy..you have such a beautfiful way with words as you paint a picture of loss, grief, pain, suffering and the inevitability of some of life's greatest situations...grestest 'falls.' Again, I can read several things into these words...on an individual basis as well as a soldier's experiences..we (collective / proverbial 'we') cannot hide behind the many means w/which we may have utilized / turned to in the past, when faced with the bitter and undeniable truth...facing - front on - a difficult, excrutiating fact(s) of life as is exemplified by : " Golden glitter fairytale ends when real hits the wall.." Amazing! "No princes.....had to take a fall.." You say SO much with such creative flair..and each stanza oozes realization, regret, ruing, ruin...life in it's most bitter detail. Results, not one wishes for but, sadly; what we face...again, on a personal as well as another level.

Those dreams that some may have when entering into a new and unknown (and expectant) but so promising endeavor...and, then..the bold, no holds barred, reality strikes...and dreams fly out the window as the cold blanket of "right here, right now" hits. And, there's no way out.

Anyway, Amy...this is how I read your beautiful poem...

Kathy


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Will, I honestly don't know another way. It's all good. I'm so much more for struggling. It's one thing to think you know...it's another altogether to experience firsthand. Thank you, Will


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Jeez, Kathy, you are even more brilliant than I originally thought...and it doesn't get much higher than what I thought. I am giving your comment a standing ovation. You are a blend of, not only great outer beauty, but intellect, intuitive powers and heart. You are at the top of the list of friends that have gotten me through one of my most devastatingly humiliating and leveling experiences, the loss of my job. There are not very many people in the world that understand without judgement, but you are the greatest I've known. Thank you, Kathy, for all the care you give me. I am and will forever remain grateful.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Oh, and Sunny, I love the "Amykins"!


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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

I'm hitting "like" on this comment...!!!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I mean every word, Lucky Cats. Anything else would be a waste of time.


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A.A. Zavala 4 years ago from Texas

"Foul mood holds a cocktail laced with bitter gall." I can taste the foulness of the bile. "Me, myself and mine leads to lonely, dark and small where courage hides beneath an old lady's shawl." My dear, courage doesn't hide under your shawl, it radiates...


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Oh, Augustine, your words are so sweet, I think I'll savor them with a wine cooler (which will be the first I've had since I've been on my own). Actually, I ran into the store today and although I went for doggie din- din, I found a strawberry margarita in a pouch that is made to be frozen in the freezer. Just open and pour and on sale, too. Love your comment, A.A. It makes my heart sing!


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A.A. Zavala 4 years ago from Texas

Bartle and James Sangria and Fuzzy Navel wine coolers are the best. I rarely drink. I will only have a Hefe Weissen beer on the rare occasion it's available. I do like Lazarroni Amaretto, it is made with a dissolved cookie in the bottle. I've had the same bottle for a year and a half now.

I had a mojito with a friend before she left the country, and I like it. Once you have the opportunity, you must have an Italian margarita from Johnny Carrino's. It has amaretto in it also. IT IS DIVINE...


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

It's so funny you mention amaretto. I rarely drink myself. On special occasions, I love an amaretto sour. I also like Kahlua and I have an unopened bottle given to me by a friend since I moved in 2 years ago. Kahlua has an ungodly amount of calories! I'll keep the Italian margarita from Johnny Carrino's in mind. It's hard to beat "DIVINE".


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A.A. Zavala 4 years ago from Texas

YOU MUST TRY IT. YOU MUST...

Amaretto sours are not complete without the maraschino cherry. I think I'll write a hub about it. That's all I have on my mind now...


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and awesome. Many a time we stumble and fall then the best thing we can do is pull our selves up, realize our mistakes and keep on going.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Yeah, Augustine, one little cherry is well...like the icing on a cupcake. It's fundamental. And I do NOT like orange juice in place of sweet and sour mix. I can't drink an amaretto "orange". To me, it's a whole different ballgame. Hey, A.A., I bet waiting for Christmas day drove you crazy as a kid!!!!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Yes, for sure, Gypsy. I think falling gets our attention in the biggest way and teaches lessons we never forget. In my life, taking a fall is impossible to ignore, will not be denied or minimized and will not sit on the side and wait for a response. It carries the heaviest impact for real change. All human beings take notice when it's personal. Thank you, Gypsy. I appreciate you.


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shea duane 4 years ago from new jersey

Very nice.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you kindly, shea duane. Appreciate your time and comment.


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drbj 4 years ago from south Florida

What's that old refrain, Amy, dear? "Pick myself up, dust myself off, and start all over again." But this time, m'dear, wiser in the bargain. You do have so much to give, and that part of your life is just beginning. Promise! :)


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, drbj, I believe you 100%, although not long ago, I'd have said "yeah, right". I now believe "It's darkest right before the dawn". Hugs


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BobbiRant 4 years ago from New York

Unfortunately, thanks to the internal people in D.C. and many states who are ruining our country, two thirds of America struggles. But ya know, those idiots destroying the middle class don't get it. The Middle Class Are the job creators, Not the wealthy. Know why? Well no middle class, no demand for goods, no purchasing powers and I'm sure the rich can only buy so much, so no middle class, no selling of their inferior products. The rich plan to support each other? LOL Just isn't going to happen. Short sightedness seems to be American government's big suit! Love this poem. And NO I'm not talking the liberals and Dems either. Both sides bear the burden of guilt!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Exactly right, Bobbi. I saw Brian Williams on the national news yesterday evening reporting this years "Freedom award" recepients. Bob Dylan, among other visionaries, got one and I went onto the website to tell him congrats. There were over 700 comments, but I stopped reading after the first page. No congrats, only democrats and republicans in a bitter battle over Obama vs Romney. I was so disgusted, I left without leaving a comment. Everyone one of them, regardless of party, spew the same tripe over the same issues, like a broken record. If they only had ears, a heart...or a brain. The ones that think they know it all don't know their ass from a hole in the ground. They keep spinning in a tight little circle taking us all down the drain. The only sure thing any of their hate speech tells me is that human beings will always be at war. Thank you, Bobbi, for always saying it like it is.


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Micky Dee 4 years ago

Thank you Amy for your heart. God bless dear.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

God bless your beautiful heart, Micky.


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cruelkindness 4 years ago from an angle view.

So flippin awesome, this is life, and yea it gots mistakes for us, and here are mine. Love how you are so confident with "you". Your style is what everyone is afraid to say about ones own self probably cause they can't do it like you can.

Cruelkindness (Subliminally Thoughtless)


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, cruelkindness! I love your comment, as "so flippin awesome" can't be beat! I appreciate your kind, generous words.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up.

we learn and gain important lessons everytime we fall. but the thing is, you have to take your stand again..stronger than the last.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I agree with your comment 100%. Thank you, unknown spy, for stopping by to read. I appreciate your support.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up.

Thanks Amy.. i love your works.


KDuBarry03 4 years ago

This is very full with expression, meaning, fluid flowing of words, and truth. This is a great indication that life is hard and we must fall, get back up, and realize that nothing is a mistake, only something to make us stronger than who we were. Great Job, Amy!

-KD


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, KD, I value your words.


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Docmo 4 years ago from UK

'hardship gave me eyes that see around and down the hall' those words say it all. Many take a fall, many get up and try to walk tall, few lie down in the squall but you, Amykins( to borrow Sunnie's sweet phrasing) are always spot on with your astute, acute and acidic observations, if done badly the can come across bitter, but you always use the acid to etch everlasting images on metal. You, my dear, are an encaustic artist, painting images for us to ponder. Voted up and awesome, of course.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Oh, thank you, Docmo. Yes, yes, yes, your words do my heart good. I think the most difficult choice for me in writing about my acrid observations is trying to make it clear than I am not bitter for the experience. Learning a lesson is always good, and often, the more hard to swallow, the more lasting the experience and the more beneficial the medicine. I am always better off for knowing. Thank you, Mohan, for letting me know my words matter, for without eyes that see and ears that hear, writing, passion, heart and soul would have no purpose. You are the best!


Vincent Moore 4 years ago

My life is a story of falls and hard knocks, however instilled in my soul was survivor mode and I guess a lot of luck. Amy it's people like us who persevere and fight the fight and won't stay down. We can be kicked, torn and bled, but we get right back up and join the thrall.

You have always expressed yourself in ways of a pure survivor and although you've been to hell and back, you've had your guardian angel by your side for the ride. Keep doing what your doing, even though we will all have forks in our roads, your ship you will steer to the morning sun. Peace and blessings my beautiful Amy a gifted soul indeed.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I still spend more time than I want to admit, like a floundering fish out of water, but we live, we learn. It's a process with, for me, there are no other options than to keep trying. I adore the image of a ship steering to the morning sun and will think of your words the next iceberg I encounter. Hugs to you, Vincent.


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epigramman 4 years ago

I often sing along with your words because they are so lyrical in their rhythmic approach - you have a unique style like no other I know and you always put so much meaning behind your well chosen words ...... lake erie time 1:39pm

so I've had the immense pleasure in the last little while to review your last 6 new beauties - and come and see what the humble epi-man has been up to - he misses you sincerely.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Awww, thank you Colin. Yes, I've been remiss. I think the Mac Man wonders why I'm not at the computer as much these days. He misses you, too.

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