Have You Seen My Emotions ?

They Have Run Away

I woke up and I am was ready to begin another normal day

But soon I was shocked by a surprise that would change my life forever

I could not show any emotions no matter how hard I tried

I felt different than any day that I have lived before

But how do I show the littlest emotion if my eyes and lips don't widen and reveal every thought I think

I can not show it with a wild starey eyed look of shock and concern

I am at a loss

I am now very angry as I move to the mirror to see

My face is motionless and no matter what I try

The same look looks back at me unchanged

I have lost all my emotions

I am surely mistaken

I have never heard of such a case as this

This is bad

A nightmare but I am not asleep

An impossilbe day dream

I will let out a big scream

What is this only sound has come out

My mouth moves ever so slowly with little signs of life

Other than an open and closing

No words to blurt out

No swears to expel

I am now outraged what kind of trick is this

A early Halloween gag that has me in stitches

This is the best one yet

O.k. enough is enough you tricked me

Now I don't know what you did

But I will find out

You stole my emotions from me in my sleep

I will show you how excited I am to get my smile back

Each time I look in the mirror a blank face looks back at me

Not one of sadness or of concern

I have tried to smile and grin

But nothing

I will now laugh certainly I can do that

I go to let out a big hearty belly laugh

But only a burp came out

How could this be ?

Why is this happening to me ?

I have had my bad days like anyone else

Sure I have cried me a river and cursed others with my evil eye

That is it I have been cursed

My mother told me becareful what faces you make

Your face might freeze like that

Mine is frozen in the middle

I will get a blow dryer and defrost it real quick

As I turn the blow dryer on high to get a quick effect

The gush of air blows against my face and my hair goes straight up

My eyes don't even change

I will run in the shower and cover my face with water that has to wash the blues away

My head quickly goes under the shower faucet water splashing everywhere

No change just puddles of water all over the floor and mirror

I can't explain it

No matter what I do

I have no expression

I have turned to drastic measures

I will pick up something red hot

I will scream in pain and my emotions will come back

As I pick up this red hot pot my hand turns red as a cherry tomato

I wait I feel the pain as I drop the pan and look at my hand

What have I done

My face motionless as I tried to let out a long yell

Only a little voice came out

Tricked again

Emotionless and it turned loud with no pitch

I wrapped my hand in ice to cool off the burn once again the chill should make my eyes bulge

Not even the slightest sign

I looked closer for a quick change

My eyes looking back at me as if what have I done

My body is feeling all kinds of pain

It stays in the brain and my face hasn't changed

What do I do now ?

Cry since I have tried everything I know

Not even a glipse of a tear could be found

As I waited with anticipaiton

I can never show how happy I am to be human and experience every emotion good or bad

The world will never know

I am puzzled and confused but you won't see it here

Bewildered from the start and angrier by the minute

I have lost my connection to everything that means the world to me

I sit here and think,think and think of a way to change my face

I turn to you for help and how can I let my emotions fly

When all I am left with why? why? why?

Comments 18 comments

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ek ellis 4 years ago

You really put your emotion into this piece, great job


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DREAM ON 4 years ago Author

I try.Thank you so much.


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michelleernst 4 years ago

Numbness...limbo...liminality...loss of self...

Nice job. :)


september girl 4 years ago

Wow, what happened? I like your poem, but you left me asking you, with questions of my own... 'why? why? why'? : ) Voted up and interesting!


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DREAM ON 4 years ago Author

Michelleernst I diasappear often and when I reappear this is what happened.September girl Just one of those days no energy to show any emotion.But now so much better and off to a great start thanks to you two.Very much appreciated and hope you use all your emotions so they don't get forgotten and left out.At least all the good ones.


DoorMattnomore 4 years ago

I have had these days. Its bad when your world is ending and you know your supposed to cry but you feel like a hollow piece of wood. Or someone has told you beautiful news and nothing seems to sink in. Then I have days were every little thing reminds of some awful past hurt and it seems the tears will never stop and I wish I could be wooden again. In any case, I reccomend avoiding the mirror. :)


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DREAM ON 4 years ago Author

DoorMattnomore How about buying a different mirror.Then the view of life is different.If it still doesn't help maybe it is time to get one of those trick mirrors that will make you laugh every time.Then find people who will keep the laughter flowing like bubbles from a bubble maker.You will soon find yourself again.Thanx for sharing and we can find so much more.


DoorMattnomore 4 years ago

I like to look at myself in the reflection of the tv when its turned off. :)


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Dim Flaxenwick 4 years ago from Great Britain

This was a bit scary. Please find your emotions soon.

Hugs,

Dim x


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DREAM ON 4 years ago Author

DoorMattnomore What a great idea.That could be a hub.Go with it.Your life is so much more interesting than any program someone else could write.Taking the time to see the real you.I am going to try it.Dim Flaxenwick Just a passing thought.My emotions are lined up like knives,forks and spoons all ready to go.I just have to pick and choose.My favorite emotions are the spoons they are smooth and so much fun to use.I think I love them the most because I love to eat cereal alot.So I know a spoon will always bring joy to my stomach.I love ice cream and apple sauce too.Another time you only use a spoon.Then there are the forks who are used often enough.Usually for meat.They are bolder than the spoons and have their place.They are more skilled than the spoon but show clear signs of their destinctive personality.Each prong of a fork works well only with the other prongs.So teamwork is essential.Then there are the knives that are for special chores.Cutting things a spoon and a fork could not do.No matter how hard they tried.Each doing their own job working together in harmony.Put away in a draw cleaned and stacked neatly side by side.I could go on and on.There are the big soup spoons and the butter knives.The Large forks used for salads.But each have their own good purpose like good emotions waiting to be used as we use one and are soon ready for another.Just a fun and crazy thought that makes my day a little more enjoyable than the day before.As always take care and see life as wheel of light.Each color brings in only good thoughts that we can change and make better.Having so much fun experiencing endless combinations and therefore endless love.


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Dim Flaxenwick 4 years ago from Great Britain

You really are a gem.. Your brain should have exploded before now with all the brilliant ideas thrashing around inside it.

Love EVERYTHING you write.

Thank you.


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DREAM ON 4 years ago Author

Dim Flaxenwick I think I have a slow leak and my ideas come out the bottom or the side of my head.All I know is when I wake up in the morning I am covered with new ideas from head to toe.Thanx for enjoying some of the lovely crazy ideas I have.Hope today you have more ideas than me so I can laugh twice as hard and give a smile twice as wide.


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Dim Flaxenwick 4 years ago from Great Britain

LOve you to pieces, Dream On. You always help me smile when l´m feeling ´down´,.

Dream On for President???


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DREAM ON 4 years ago Author

Dim Flaxenwick It is so much fun to make life fun again.I would be honored to be president of Your Happy Club.You set the long list of rules for me to follow.How I have to stay happy or else I become x-president.I don't want that so I end up being happy and making other people happy for life.What a life that will be.See you when the sun comes up and another new day begins.


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Joy56 4 years ago

This was an amazing piece of writing...... Only those that know you well know you commented about burning your hand..... becos of course that is your job.... and i see doormat no more there commenting..... we go back so far....... Keep writing like this, In the box but out of the box. Without emotion, thus showing so much emotion.


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DREAM ON 4 years ago Author

Joy56 The past rolled in a ball ready to be bounced at any moment.The present a new ball ready to bounce higher than ever before.Both the past and the present together a larger ball that shines in the mist of darkness and bounces forever from friend to friend.You have touched my heart once again.Thanx and have a sweet,sweet day.


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Joy56 4 years ago

keep on bouncing, friendship never dies, it only gets stronger.....


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DREAM ON 4 years ago Author

Joy 56 Friends do something I never expect.They bring peace on a drairy night.They make us feel whole when we feel broken and torn.Just a hello can cheer us up.Thanx for the old memories and the new fun that I continue to explore and adore.What can I say God works in mysterious ways.May your day continue to be filed with love and never ending surprises.

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