Heart Murmurings

XIII.

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Venturing beginner

Into realms of

Giants sounds,

I am.

Would that you

Could take my hand,

At least at first

Until my ears,

And fears

Adjust.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay



If I knew

You wandered sad, alone

Beyond my reach,

I’d cry,

But try

To wait for you

In peace and joy.

If you knew

I waited,

That you

Are not alone,

You’d know

You always have a friend –

‘Tis I!

______© Nellieanna H. Hay



Let me be
Your banner.
Raise me up
Each morning.
Lower me
Each night.
And hide me safe
Inside
Your heart

Till needed.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay



The robin

Knows

As much

As I

And more.

I know not

How to fly

Or

I would fly to you.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay



You can’t lose

It

If you’ve got

It;

You can’t hold

It,

If you’ve not.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay

Murmurings

Once I told someone that

To love - is

To behold,

To perceive,

To - cherish.

This, I believe.

       I behold you now.

         I perceive you

         I - cherish you

      You're like no other

          Gone before.

                              You’re more.

                              More to behold

                              More to perceive

                              More to cherish -

                                   To love.

                   ______© Nellieanna H. Hay

 

A moment

Would be

Long enough

In Timelessness.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

 

The sweet -- the bittersweet of life,
with all its challenges,
its glories and its let-downs,
the uncertainty.
Ah! The wisdom of understanding
uncertainty...
(yes, even...insecurity...)
is really what it's "about".

HOW one deals with these,
the crashing let-downs
~ those futile disappointments ~
far surpasses any other
talent or skill we may have or acquire.

For it is out of real experience
That one grows.
And experience must include
both sides of any coin,
for that coin to be "spendable tender" - in life.

So garner it ... and spend it wisely!

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

 

I think I know
The path, each time -
Into your heart,
Until I round the curve
And hear the song.

The notes sounds so familiar -
Till they start.

 

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

 

See – oh sea –

The space around,

Surrounding all

You thought you knew.

Here – oh hear –

The sound

Resounds,

Lacing space

Together

Timelessly.

Know – oh no!

Its life

Astounds,

Abounding

Everywhere

At once!

______© Nellieanna H. Hay


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SilverGenes 6 years ago

There is something in your musings that is so intrinsically joyful it makes the heart ache. Oh, the sounds! The giant sounds... the familiar notes... until "The sound-Resounds, Lacing space-Together". Nellianna, this is a symphony of color and verse, a song of the heart that takes my breath away with its beauty.


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Mentalist acer 6 years ago from A Voice in your Mind!

I agree that a moment can be timeless;)


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Alexandra! I guess they're joyous because somehow that's how I am, partly by nature and partly by choice. ;-)

Your responsiveness is contagious. It's like a lyre picking up on and responding to a tuning fork's vibrations. You are so much appreciated!! I'm delighted that you like this!! Thank you!!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Mentalist - yes! Moments are the only time there is; - therefore, - timeless. - And when that timelessness is also momentous - it's - WOW and now.


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saddlerider1 6 years ago

Not only does it make the heart ache but it also makes it sing. To be taken from highs to lows in poetry is beauty at it's best.

"A moment would be long enough in timelessness"

I am speechless and then to verse this as well

"Everything in me Responds to Everything in you"

Brilliant, beautiful, marvelous, breath taking, exquisite. You are all that and more, what more can I say. Hugs


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miss_jkim 6 years ago

Let me be your banner - I truly love this one. Don't we all want to be the banner of someone we love? This is just spot on.


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ek ellis 6 years ago

I simply adore the way you displayed your lovely poems and what joy it was to read them


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suny51 6 years ago

I laughed and said, life is easy. what I meant was, life is easy with you here, and when you leave, it will be hard again.I can see this here.Thank you Nellieanna mam


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hi, Ken and thank you for those beautiful compliments. I enjoyed writinig these and I enjoyed assemblingn them into a hub. So it's lovely for them to be enjoyed and appreciated. Thank you!

I'm semi-watching a movie in which people in some sort of performing troup - possibly operatic - are off-duty and members have been singing or playing instruments spontaneously among themselves. - One girl began singing in a rather fragile little voice & soon the instrumental musicians began to draw near and accompany her, making her efforts sound much better and stronger.

That's how it feels to write here & then my admired friends who write so well speak kindly of my efforts! Thank you!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Miss_jkim - Yes, I think it is a wish to be the banner of our beloved, to mean something to him - or her.

Thank you for mentioning that one. I'm very fond of it, too. It expresses that feeling well - as you say - spot on. Thanks!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

ek ellis - Thank you. How good to meet you. I see that you are a poet - a powerful poet, so I'm pleased to appreciate your praise and hear that my poems gave you joy.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Suny, my friend! I've been missing you! You are so kind and your words are pleasant and soothing. Thank you. Now I suppose I'll just have to stick around awhile! (smile!)

:-)


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christopheranton 6 years ago from Gillingham Kent. United Kingdom

As always Nellieanna reading your poems set me up for the day. Thankyou.


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Hello, hello, 6 years ago from London, UK

Hello, Nellieanna, and thank you for your heartwarming poems. You have such a wonderful heart and so gifted to put such feeling into perfect words. Thank you for giving so much pleasure.


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Micky Dee 6 years ago

Pretty, pretty, pretty! Thanks again!


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Merlin Fraser 6 years ago from Cotswold Hills

Nellieanna,

You bring so much joy to us here on Hub Pages, with Ner' and angry word or thought. It makes me ashamed as I sit here cursing the poor weather outside and a computer that refuses to learn how to spell on the inside !


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Christopheranton - Why, thank you, kind sir! You know what? I went to sleep with my hands on the keyboard replying to your sweet comment. I don't know what happened to what I'd typed (all that remained was something like "vrbgh" on here)- but I'd written that I was aware that it was a decent hour of the day where you were but it was around 4AM here at the moment and I hadn't been to bed. I believe it's 6 hours later there.

Well it's 4 hours later now and I'm awake; - at least unless I doze off again! Hopefully this coffee will allow me to finish a sentence! haha.

I've been getting the water sprinklers going on the poor dry grass and it's already close to 90F out there & expected to be in the 3-digits later with a heat index of 105. But in the far Southwest part of the country, they're to have 110 to 115 ACTUAL temperature. So I can't complain. Anyway - it IS a lovely day inside here with the A/C set @ 80F, which isn't as cool as some folks require but adequate and saves on utilities.

Thank you for enjoying the poems!! That makes my day very nice, Christopher! :->


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

hello, hello! (feels good to type your nickname!) Such a heartwarming comment, too! I really enjoy sharing the poems. Most have waited a long time to see the light of day or meet a typewriter, much less a computer. Some are more currently written but just now being typed. Feels good for them to give pleasure when they make a debut! Thank you!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Micky - hehe. That's really quite nice. Joyous!

I'm multitasking and treating myself to "Camelot" on DVD. It's one of my favorite musicals. I used to be a musical freak. This one hasn't become too "dated". In fact, it has many lessons for today's world, I think. Recently watched "South Pacific" - it really has lessons for today. Lots of human nature shows through, too. Maybe songwriters have pre-sight. The music in both is good, too.

Glad you came by and left such cheery comments!- Thank you.


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breakfastpop 6 years ago

Your poetry stirs something deep inside me. You are incredibly talented.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Merlin - Ahem! - Little do you know what I sometimes mutter to recalcitrant computers or about bad weather, though during the summer in Texas it can be more toward HOT temperatures and having to water the grass. (though we did have some good rain last week sometime) But at least I'm more apt to "take it out" on inanimate things than on living entities. Not that they couldn't be irritating but I really am philosophical about their peccadillos. And it's not TOO often I 'lose it' because I'm selfish. ;-> See, it just feels more awful than the value to be gotten out of it. Time and energy are too precious!

Watching this "Camelot" musical (with Richard Harris, Vanessa Redgrave & Franco Nero). The King just explained to Gwenivere upon first meeting that Merlin's time is runs backwards so that he doesn't age, he "youthens". hehe. Sounds like a good trick to me!

You're a Prince to say such sweet things, my own Merlin! Thanks! I know you're a student of the Merlin mystery - you should write a hub about it! I'd love it! Hugs. . .


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Breakfastpop - Thank you so much! Well - I'd have to say that YOU are incredibly responsive and I think poetry is created only when it's heard and responded to (even if it's by the writer's own sense of responding - like an "Aha!" moment!) It's MOST good when it's shared and felt by someone else, though! :0> Thank you, thank you!


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Petra Vlah 6 years ago from Los Angeles

Turning your verse around, I have to agree that "the timelessness of a moment/ is long enough". This one certainly belongs into the collection of pearls


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

(smiling!) - Ah - Petra! It truly is reversible!! And I'm pleased you liked that thought and that several others did too. I wondered if it would be fully felt. It's gratifying that it is and especially so, since I rather think it means that the person has experienced it and if so, it's among those peak experiences which one yearns for & is most expanded by having experienced, being never the same again!! Thank you, dear friend!!


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always exploring 6 years ago from Southern Illinois

So very beautiful

Thank you


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

(curtsy) - so good of you to visit and leave an encouraging comment! Thank you, Always Exploring!


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MartieCoetser 6 years ago from South Africa

Dear nellieanne, your poetic thoughts is (for me) like a pansy (flower), but a brand new hybrid; fascinating, intriguing, and beautiful. I just love the murmurings of your heart.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hello Martie! Pansies are very vivid flowers, actually! So many combinations of colors - and so hardy in cold weather! Quite great flowers and among my favorites.

Thank you!

I never got it done but was going to make all the cloth decor in my little ranch cabin out of pansy print fabrics. Now I have bolts of those and may never use them there! lol Maybe I'll do a room here in it.

I'm pleased you like the murmurings. :->


inkwell780 6 years ago

I love the colors and your colorful words! They are brief but not lacking in their profundity. You have a great style one that I wish I had. There is beauty in your briefness! Matt.


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kaltopsyd 6 years ago from Trinidad originally, but now in the USA

I love that last piece. It was so clever. How do you come up with all these poems? They're so beautiful. Keep writing!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Matt - brevity is what separates my poems from my prose - ;-) I tend to overdo it in prose. Thank you!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

kaltopsyd - I confess I'm not sitting here turning out poetry that quickly. These are from many years of writing and not sharing most of it ever before. All hand-written in notebooks and blank books and on scraps of paper stuffed into envelopes and books. For almost all of them, the first time typed, much less word-processed. So they're new to readers but have been around longer. I still write but when I wrote most of these I was writing many every day for several years. I was very inspired and had a strong reason for keeping my thoughts safely tucked into poetry. I'm glad to share them now (decided not to wait till they'd be found and published posthumously!) I'm very pleased that you enjoy them. Thank you.


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McHamlet 6 years ago

These are uplifting and a joy to read. I particularly like the sentiment in this one:

Let me be

Your banner.

Raise me up

Each morning.

Lower me

Each night.

And hide me safe

Inside

Your heart

Till needed.

This really defines for me the trust and faith inherent in genuine love. Thank you once more for sharing Nellieanna')


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anglnwu 6 years ago

Beautiful--they creat stirrings in my heart. thanks.


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Nikkij504gurl 6 years ago from Louisiana

my new favorite set of poems, and what a coincidence i can relate so much to these, how they correspond with what im going through right now, and how i feel. about, and yet another coincidence or not, a boy named Robin. in one of your poems you spoke of a robin lol.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

McHamlet - Thank you! That's one of my favorites, actually. It does express a total kind of love and trust, for sure. Glad you enjoyed!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

anglnwu - thank you so much for the sweet comment! It made me feel good!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Nikki - that's really a coincidence about the robin. Hope it develops happily for you, dear If not, he doesn't deserve you! ;->


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SteveoMc 6 years ago from Pacific NorthWest

Oh my gosh....you know how I struggle to read this stuff. Thank goodness it isn't rubbish. I do like poetry that is short. I like the ones that have only two or three words per line. Tell me, how come everyone else sees only beauty, and I see drudgery? What do you think it is? I read your stuff because I think you might be the one to get through to me. Not yet. But I did read every word.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

haha! Well, darlin' I can only say I'm very flattered that you're trying and that I understand your feeling or block about poetry somehow.

Maybe if you thought of it as a George Carlin "line" or two it might help you step over the block. But, if not, it's ok.

Some people don't like music - or only certain kinds. Really I guess that rap isn't even really music to me but if it appeals to people and "speaks to" them - ok.

I love music but not tiresome, monotonous music - even if it's melodic or considered classic. So I certainly can't get too excited about unending same-tone "talking" with a repititious rhyme and a beat called rap-music. It's not that I hate it - it just doesn't do anything for me, although I've picked up on a few frames of it with messages I thought were worthwhile. And if I remembered who did them (maybe it was Will Smith's young son) - I might try to hear others he did. So maybe that's how it is with you and poetry.

Trust me -I don't want it to be drudgery!! And I do know what you mean about some poetry. It's all I can do to drudge through it, thinking to myself, "oh no - will it ever END??" lol

I appreciate that you see that mine isn't rubbish. That's a good start! LOL Some of the stuff I don't especially like isn't exactly rubbish, either - I know it's from the writers' hearts but it comes across as trite and tiresome. It seems to have been rehashed a jillion times and it's not being presented with anything shining or special to make it ring a chime. Of all writing, poetry must bring something special to the reader or it's just so many words, even if to the writer it meant a lot.

Some of my stuff is like that. I have literally volumes I wrote almost as a diary. Every one of them is NOT worth sharing and I'm picky about what I do share - in fact - up till recently I just didn't venture to share hardly any!

If I sat down right now and wrote one, it might be worthwhile and it might not. In fact, without inspiration I know it wouldn't be! So it could have meaning for me (like a journal of my thought or feeling) but still be too ordinary or prosaic to actually share unless I was trying to be boring.

And most of my stuff is short. That's how it comes to me. When I ramble in poetry - it loses. A few are good and a little longer, but to be at all good, they still must have that truth in all of their words. By the way - the one above starting "the sweet - the bittersweet" - wasn't even written as poetry. It was prose and sort of seemed "prose-poetry". I wrote it as prose on one of my websites, but it's been noticed by others as if it were poetry. I included it here because it sort of fit the theme.

Poetry is about capturing a thought or feeling like a crystal is formed out of a LOT of rock from which its materials are gathered and crystalized. If too much of the ordinary rock gets in it - it's flawed. It's no wonder that a flawless diamond the size of the Hope Diamond is so rare!

I hope maybe I've given you a little insight into your problem with poetry. I'm glad you think mine has hope of ringing a bell - and it might. I suspect that there is probably a long-standing antipathy to the idea of "poetry" in you and that might give way a little. But it's never going to mean that everything presented as poetry will appeal to you. It won't, not if your appreciation of poetry includes taste or real appreciation for what is good in it. And I'll expect to be given the 'test' then too!

Thanks,


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Nikkij504gurl 6 years ago from Louisiana

thanx nelli :)


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Truth is truth, Nikki!


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Freya Cesare 6 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

Ah wow! So many poems in one Hub! They all lovely!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, Freya. Well, you see, I wanted to give a choice. Glad you like them!!


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KoffeeKlatch Gals 6 years ago from Sunny Florida

I don't think I have read anything so beautiful...I love your style and your presentation. Thank you for sharing.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

KoffeeKlatch Gals - what a lovely thing to say! Thank you!!! So pleased you dropped by!


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billyaustindillon 6 years ago

What a lovely smile and sense of warmth I get from this delightful collection of poems Nellieanna. Just what I needed thanks.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Wow - Billy! That's wonderful. Glad they gave you those good feelings!


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equealla 6 years ago from Pretoria, South Africa

One thing about your poetry hubs, is the distraction. You see, I start by reading the words, slowly absorbing them. Each one has a different meaning.

Then I start reading the comments, and your response to them. In the end, I have to go to the top and re-read the poems, to be able to stay in relevance.

So many of your comments are equally valuable. Your hubs will always be a maze of wonder, from the top right down to the endless bottom.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

haha, Equealla - what lovely and fitting descriptions -"distraction" and "endless bottom". I guess that literally sizes up my typical hub & comments thread. Thank you for appreciating it. I'm delighted by the way you appreciated it, too. I could feel it as you feel about it as it happens. Very nice. Thanks!

(I have involved responses to many hubs, as well, by the way.)


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lalesu 6 years ago from south of the Mason-Dixon

Nellieanna, your lyrical beauty shines and shines, from the thoughts you gather into verse and compose into lovely poetry to the way you arrange them onto the page with the accompanying images...you are a joy to me, dear lady. ~ Laura


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Laura - only such a beautiful person as you could extend such lovely praise. Thank you, sweet Laura!


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jez_jay33 6 years ago from Los Banos Laguna

that was a very heart warming...makes me want to make poems like these... hehehe

this one is for you...

frigid lines in the dark may lie

but through the mist your smile will die

if something as beautiful as this

shall go unseen, shall go amiss

if my mind may forever hold something

something that i may not forget

hear my voice oh sweet nellienna

your poems will remain a sweet enigma

hope you like it...

you really inspire me...

thanks


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mwatkins 6 years ago from Portland, Oregon & Vancouver BC

OM Gosh, these are so beautiful - A moment would be long enough in timelessness. nellieanna, you are such an inspiration! Thank you for your beautiful words and thoughts! Thank you HUGE!


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Jez_Jay. Thank you! I'm most honored that you wrote a poem for me! And quite pleased that you like mine. I've visited your hub site and was duly impressed by your first hub and want to encourage you to write more! Many more!

Thanks again.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Mischelle, dear heart - how kind of you! I'm gratified. (Just returned from a busy 4-day trip to the ranch and lots of catching up to do).


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prettydarkhorse 6 years ago from US

Hi Mam Nellieanna,

These lines are just so touching

You walked with me,

A path that wound

Around my soul

And found

My soul,

And left it free

That is the most beautiful thing I have ever read and I feel heartfelt joy. Thanks so much, this is so inspiring, Maita


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, dear Maita! I'm so pleased that it spoke to you!!


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msorensson 6 years ago

Oh, I cannot believe I did not leave you a comment..It must have been because I went to find Kleenex and promptly flopped myself on the bed.

I love your poetry, Nellieanna


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Awwwwwww - Melinda - you're such a delight! Thank you for such a heart-felt reply! I'm glad they touched your heart, dear friend.


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Wayne Brown 6 years ago from Texas

This, to me, is such an endearing statement about all that is life in terms of following the paths, the friendships, the learning, the caring, the helping, the knowing and yet not knowing but unafraid because we know the other is there for us when those feelings abound. Faith that someone else is with us and knows more than we do; whether they do or not, faith is enough. I love the line, "The robin Knows As much As I And more. I know not How to fly Or I would fly to you." Could there be a better representation of knowledge possessed? This is a wonderful and so complete work...Excellent! WB


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Wayne - wow - thank you, kind sir! I respect your opinion highly so I'm quite pleased you found in my writing, things to approve. I quite agree that it is the knowledge which abides from sensitivity and trust which is the best. Thank you so much!


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Nell Rose 6 years ago from England

HI, Ooh! You write such lovely words then I come over to read some more and you do it again! fantastic, I loved the robin and all the rest of course, cheers nell


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Nell - you're so sweet! That robin is a good one. I like it too. I'm in process of transcribing MANY of my hand-written poems to the computer where they can be sorted alphabetically, so I've published more of them than I ever dreamed of!! I've hand-copied a few over the years for special people in small blank books but this is the first to type any of them except the few on my website.

I've transcribed over 330 of them so far & that's just a tiny fraction of the many, from the handwritten originals in many notebooks, mostly started in the late 1960s & into the 70s, with a few salvaged from my earlier ones which weren't destroyed viciously. And there are blank books filled with hand-written ones & bunches on scraps of paper stuffed into envelopes.

I promise not to load up too many of them on HP! LOL! No - I'm just publishing some as the spirit moves me.

Thanks so much for your appreciation.


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agaglia 6 years ago

Nellianna,

So wonderful. I liked so many of them. Thanks.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Agaglia - so kind of you to visit - I appreciate it as well as your nice comments!


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Loveslove 6 years ago from England

Youare such a telented lady ..so inspirational,lovely poems Thank you X


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS Author

Loveslove - thank you, dear lady. I visited your site and left a lengthy comment on one of your hubs. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and heart. Hugs.

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