Holding my head up
This is just how I feel sometimes
You wouldn’t believe me if I told you all the things I’ve been through
The heartbreaks and betrayal couldn’t all possibly be true
The let downs and set-backs, disappointments that keep coming everyday
Well not everyday, I have some good days I guess it only seems that way
But even the good days when I think everything is so wonderful and awesome to behold
Later I find it was all just a fantasy promising an end to the trials but really just another lie I was told
But I hold my head up cause I know I’ve got to be strong!
I can’t fall again! I was down last time for way too long!
That time that I slipped, that time I was found wanting will never happen again
I lost focus on the promise I forgot about the Son and just gave in to my sin
It took me years to recover from that mistake I thought I would never find my way back
Had to lose everything and go to prison three times before I even thought about getting back on track
But now I’m different, now I want to change, I wanna get back my life by doing things right
So I stopped giving in, I stopped getting high, I work a program and I try to follow the light
So everything is supposed to get better now I shouldn’t have to worry about any more heart break
I’m a good man again, at least I try to be but I still slam into walls how much more of this can I take?
Whatever happens I have to be a man and face whatever comes my way
Accept the things I can’t change and just get through one more day
I wanna say I’ll always stand strong but I know not to make myself a liar
Been holding my head up for so long not gonna lie homie my neck is getting tired
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