How Did I Get Here? What Have I Become?

How did I get here? What have I become?

No longer a girl, I am now woman.

My dreams and expectations have shrivelled to none

As I’m swept by the power of circumstance


As I’m thrown in the deep end by no choice of mine

As I realise my smallness, my achievements second to none

As you tell me you’re scared our love hangs on the thinnest of hairs

As it slowly sinks in, the journey is long, and we're not prepared


How did I get here? What have I become?

A questioning mess waiting to be undone

Waiting for this timeline to run out of time

Waiting for some answer, some irreversible truth

To become mine


As I sit still, moving, calm, among hundreds of voices

My hands are tied down

As I see myself swept up by fighting acceptance

I struggle; I’m mute in the muddle


How did I get here? What have I become?

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SimpleGiftsofLove 4 years ago from Colorado

Beautiful expression of truths felt! Up and beautiful...thank you for this work of art!


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iva dragostinova 4 years ago from Brighton, UK Author

Thank you so much :)


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SimpleGiftsofLove 4 years ago from Colorado

Just had to read it again, this is remarkable!


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chrisam01 4 years ago from Los Angeles, California, USA

I voted awesome. This resonates with the feelings of vulnerability and insecurities and so much more. Good job!


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Astra Nomik 4 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space

It is a kind of middle space that is in between loves or love... it is like a waiting room and the ticket machine is out of paper... There is nothing worse than uncertainty. Beautifully written. :)


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iva dragostinova 4 years ago from Brighton, UK Author

SimpleGiftsofLove- Thank you for coming back, I'm touched that you wanted to read my poem again. You have made me smile, thank you for your wonderful comment.

chrisam- Thank you so much for your lovely comment. I feel understood :)

Astra- " it is like a waiting room and the ticket machine is out of paper..." perfectly and beautifully understood! Thank you!


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kenneth avery 4 years ago from Hamilton, Alabama

Dear iva...Happy New Year, first of all. Here on January 6, 2012, just read this AMAZING piece of poetry. LOVED every word. Thought. Idea. Voted All but funny. It was also piercing to my heart; touched places in my heart that I once thought were dead and I just got such a thrill out of this hub. Fact is, Im following you now. With honor. I invite you to also check out some of my hubs--most will make you laugh, but I have three published abstract/prose poems: "Losing Her," "One evening at dusk," and "One final glimpse," if you would like to venture into these hubs. I'd love it if you would become my follower also. That would be so perfect. I will go now. I hope Ive not bored you too much. Much success to you, iva. I will be looking for you. Sincerely, Kenneth Avery, from Hamilton, a small northwest Alabama town that looks like Mayberry from the Andy Griffith Show, but you are too young to remember this iconic TV show.


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iva dragostinova 4 years ago from Brighton, UK Author

Kenneth, thank you for you kind feedback. I'm touched! Love the way you describe my writing. Thank you again :)I bet Hamilton is just lovely, I'm picturing a quiet and peaceful place. :)


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kenneth avery 4 years ago from Hamilton, Alabama

. . .dear iva..."you are very welcome," and very special. Gifted is more accurate. Hamilton is just like Mayberry..small, rural, NO we dont sit around on the sidewalks chewing tobacco, LOL, we all know one another...and our kids kids...etc. We have our share of problems like drugs, and such, but mostly, we are peaceful and strive to be better. I wish that one day YOU would visit me in our hometown. Okay. You have a Standing Invitation, to visit anytime...and I will treat you with a tour, steak, salad, meal, and let you learn, first-hand whats it like to be in Mayberry. Is that cool? Speaking of cool, do that. Be cool. And I will talk to you later, iva.

Your friend,

Kenneth


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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven

Beautiful poem and gorgeous pictures. Voted up!


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Brett Winn 4 years ago from US

Very powerful. Thank you!


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sarcasticool 4 years ago from New Zealand

Very enjoyable to read. If you hadn't commented on my poetry I may never have been able to enjoy the beauty of your own poetry here. Thank you for sharing this.


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Jspot 4 years ago from Flames of water and love

From the sound of it, you got here by being so blessed and you have become the lady in the mirror represented by beauty in a heart divine. Beautiful and voted up. I am touched.


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iva dragostinova 4 years ago from Brighton, UK Author

Thank you Caroline and Brett :) Sarcasticool, I'm a big fan of your work, thanks for stopping by :)

Jspot, huge thanks for your wonderful comment, made me smile.

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