Its like this undeniable little piece of irony...
It just sits on the tongue,
in the back of my mind...
and I just don't understand it.
Are you lying to yourself?
Are you lying to her?
like you did to me.
When I see you say "Ditto"
instead of "I love you too."
You gave her a second chance,
and I guess she was better than me,
at least better for you.
When my second chance didn't amount to anything.
And I get it.
No matter what feelings I had for you,
You just could not feel the same.
I understand that part.
and I understand why.
But you lied about her,
and told me not to worry,
and you pushed me away for being too jealous,
when I had every right to be.
I guess she doesn't get jealous, does she?
Its just so Ironic,
how someone with "no heart"
can love all of a sudden.
and I hope she is good to you
because I would have been good to you.
I hope you can trust her
because you could have trusted me.
and I hope she is everything you were looking for,
everything you want,
because apparently I wasn't.
And her prize...you.
But I don't regret any of our time together,
no matter how forced.
I don't even regret the heartache I endured.
We had some good times,
I could have handled things a lot better,
but I guess I scared you off,
got too close too fast,
and you weren't ready for that.
Well, I guess you are ready now,
and see you lied to me again.
You said that when you were ready,
I'd be the first one to know.
But that's ok,
our second chance had come and gone,
and I believe everything happens for a reason...
See, I don't regret any of it
because through you, I met your brother.
And he is the best thing that has every happened to me.
Its just so Ironic,
that he happened to be the one who saved me
from my own entrapment over you.
I wonder if things would have ended up the same,
had I met him first,
but if I had never been with you,
I don't think I would have ever met him.
Do you see the Irony here?
Because once upon a time,
I loved you, so much.
I really did,
it wasn't just infatuation.
and for so long I couldn't get over you.
I watched you fall for girls who would only hurt and use you.
Well, I hope she's not one of them.
I hope she's just like me and more.
Truth is, I don't think you could have handled me.
He has stuck by me and put up with my shit,
as I have stuck by him and put up with his.
You and I, it wouldn't have lasted,
no matter how much I would have wanted it to.
I know that now.
You were just a brief part of my life,
memories in passing,
meant to bring me to something better.
You see, I have won too.
My prize...something greater than you.
I just hope that your prize will be just as good.
© Copyright NMJ 2011
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