How Much Longer Is This Going To Last

I reach my hands out to the world but the world refuses to embrace me.

I try to imitate what I see.

I try to fit in but I am treated as an outcast.

How long must this last?

My hunger for acceptance is growing.

I try to please people without even knowing.

What is the purpose?

Why do I continue to do this?

Maybe it’s because I don’t love myself.

Maybe it’s because I feel like there is nothing left.

All of this love that I have to give.

Makes me feel like I don’t want to live.

I cannot be any lower than I am right now.

Putting myself beneath everyone is my only vow.

Sadness fills my eyes.

It wouldn’t matter if I had a thousand cries.

I would still be considered an outcast.

And I still would ask myself, how much longer is this going to last?


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sassyk73 5 years ago from Milwaukee, WI Author

Thank you HattieMattieMae. Thank you for sharing. I know I have a long ways to go but God will guide me. I appreciate your encouraging words. I did see the movie you mentioned and you are right, it is a good example. God Bless You :)


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HattieMattieMae 5 years ago from Limburg, Netherlands

It's the same place I once was, and I had to find my self worth, and learn to take care of me, and love myself. It was a long journey, and struggle, but I made it, and so can you, one good movie that shows alot about this is For Colored Girls that some point out of all the struggles in life, we have to make the change as women! Hope God will always guide your steps as he did me, and I know he will! :)

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