How do I Heal my Heart? A Poem for my Son

Todd Edward Hunt - Capitola, California
Todd Edward Hunt - Capitola, California | Source

 

How do I heal my heart

How can I let you go

You were my first born

My baby boy

You filled my days with

Love and joy –

 

 

How do I heal my heart

When will the pain be gone

You were my reason for living

Now that reason is gone –

 

Todd - Surfing at Capitola Beach, Ca.
Todd - Surfing at Capitola Beach, Ca. | Source

How do I stop from wanting

To see you one more time

To gaze into those beautiful eyes

And know they’re just like mine

 

How can I stop forgetting

The pictures in my mind

The little boy who grew to be

The man, so humble and kind

 

Each day I long to hear your voice

and get a hug from you

I hope you're surfing on a cloud

That's what you love to do

 

Until the angels come for me

I'll miss you every day

Stay close by and feel my love

for you, my son, I pray.

 

 

To Where You Are - Josh Groban

© 2010 Audrey Hunt

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sofs 5 years ago

It is hard indeed to heal your heart when a part of you is gone, so poignant and full of pain. To a mother her son will always be her baby, her heart is always with her babies whether they are grown men or yet children..(((hugs))) hugs to you and lots of love. May this season bring you peace, peace beyond all understanding.


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FloBe 5 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

Thank you for sharing with us your heart. Our love is with you as you remember.


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Karen Wodke 5 years ago from Midwest

This is heart wrenching. I lost my brother and it is a hard grief, but I know it's not nearly as deep as a mother's loss. My heart goes out to you. I keep reminding myself that to be absent from the body means being present with the Lord. That helps some. I am sorry for your loss, and I hope you find comfort and peace.


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Scarlett My Dear 5 years ago from Missouri

Your writings here reach out from the very center of a tender, loving heart. Thank you!

Thank you for sharing, Thank you for teaching.

~ Scarlett


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mruptrend 5 years ago

heartwarming hub, thanks


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richtwf 5 years ago

So beautiful yet so very sad. Words can never fully express how we feel about the loss of a loved one especially one who comes from us. Time does help to heal but still we naturally yearn to see our loved and departed ones again.

God bless and may peace be with you.


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epigramman 5 years ago

.....although the words are so extremely beautiful and heartfelt I am sorry that I have to read them in this context - I wish I could come through this screen and give you a great big hug .......


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

epigramman - I have felt many hugs from you through your generous and beautiful comments. From the first weeks I began writing for hubpages, you have given me support and more encouragement than I deserve. Thank you dear and loyal friend and wishing you a very happy and fun time of year! Hugs


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

richtwf - You have become a special friend and I thank you for the gift of friendship.I had hoped that sharing my pain with my HP friends would be therapeutic - and it is. Thank you for your uplifting blessings and peace.


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Amber Allen 5 years ago

Dear Audrey

It is with much sadness in my heart that I write this comment. Your poem truly touched my heart.

Todd was a very handsome man and I see great warmth in his eyes in the surfing photograph that you have chosen but I see very something different in the first. Of course I have no idea if what I think I see is real or just a figment of my own imagination but in the first photograph I see a quiet sadness and a resignation to fate.

I don't think that your heart will ever truly heal but I do believe that your loss will become a little easier to bear as time passes.

In your profile you mention that Todd had four children that he was both mother and father to. Do you mind me asking who looks after them now.

Warmest wishes

Amber:)


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

Oh vocalcoach! This tears at the heart. This hurts and it hasn't happened to me. God bless you Dear!


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acaetnna 5 years ago from Guildford

Simply beautiful I have demolished almost a box of tissues. I can't imagine what it must be like to lose a child. Words are never enough so I just send you a huge hug and all my love.


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cwarden 5 years ago from USA

What a beautiful poem. I really feel for you and I wish I could give you a big hug. I can't imagine your pain, I am so sorry. Thank you for sharing this beautiful poem.


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ReggieD06 5 years ago

Vocalcoach,

Your poem is so very beautiful! I'm sure your son is loving it too.

Reggie D.


Macteacher 5 years ago

Your poem touched me deeply. I can tell that you are a beatiful person not only from the cute picture of you and your dog but also through your hub writing and so many other ways that I won't go into now.I hope you and your loved ones have a great holiday season. Your poem has given me more reasons to appreciate my son who is visiting me for a month. It is the first time he has visited me here in California for 10 years.I get to visit him in Arkansas yearly but this lenghthy visit is so special. This is supposed to be about your beautiful poem and not my reminiscencesabout my son. Sorry about that. Merry Christmas Vocalcoach


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Dim Flaxenwick 5 years ago from Great Britain

Oh man, that was hard to read. It gave me that emotional pain in my chest that l´ve only ever known other mothers to feel. My heart goes out to you. Every line l read, l could see my own son in my mind. My pain is nothing (just see very little of him. 3000 miles between us)But you, you brave lady are a credit to motherhood and a poet to be admired. Thank you for sharing. Love, Dim xx


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lisadpreston 5 years ago from Columbus, Ohio

This has my heart aching with pain. You are in my thoughts and prayers everyday. Todds pictures are so handsome and he does look like a very kind and wonderful man. Your loss is the worse kind of loss and I feel so horrible for this situation. You are a brave woman I admire your strength. God will see you through this. Love, and I'm sending you a warm hug.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

lisa- God Bless you! Your words have given me comfort. You have a loving and compassionate heart. I am so grateful and blessed to have met you. I accept your love and warm hug. Thank you, precious Lisa.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Dear Dim,

Once again, you touch me with your words and my heart begins to feel lighter. This is just a tough time of year for me as Todd loved Christmas and I spent every one with He and his little family. Thanks you Dim. Love and hugs and joy beyond measure to you.


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Uriel 5 years ago from Lebanon

our hearts are always with you~ sometimes just a shoulder is more than enough ~ remember we are always with you


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

sofs - Thank you deeply for your understanding. It means so much to me. And thank you for your hugs which I felt even through my computer. Peace will come and after reading your beautiful comments I am already beginning to feel more peaceful. I am surely blessed to have found you, sofs, and will always remember your kindness to me.

Love and Joy -


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SomewayOuttaHere 5 years ago from TheGreatGigInTheSky

...i don't think our heart/soul really heals...how could it...i'm sure he's in your mind most moments of the day....he was your beautiful son...a part of you gone forever and a part of him left with you forever....beautiful tribute to him and your thoughts about him...he was beautiful wasn't he......until you meet again.......peace....


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

Oh my dearest Audrey, your pain is unbearable! And not a single word from me can still it. Complete powerlessness is what one experience while witnessing another one’s grief. And it is this time of the year! You probably feel like loosing your mind.

My dearest, dearest friend, I pray that God bless you with all the strength you need to deal with this enormous sorrow of yours, and I pray that you will get the needed strength to manage [suppress] it successfully while you are in the presence of those who feel as powerless as I, but who are so in need of your attention and love. Grieve can so easily become an unbridgeable ravine between loved-ones, and I know you love those who are still with you just as much as you loved and still love Edward, and you don’t want them to feel not loved by you.

When I imagine myself in your shoes, and I remembered the time after my father’s death, I realize that it is almost impossible to breath, not to talk about smile and talking to others, with so much sorrow in one’s heart.

I’m sending you tons of hugs, Audrey. Take three to four at a time, just as much as you need. My wish, out of my heart, for you is peace and resignation.

PS.: My son’s Christian name – one of two - is also Edward, meaning ‘wealthy guard’. And yes, that son of yours was in fact dangerously attractive. I have no doubts, I would have fall for him like a rock in a pit :)))


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Hello, hello, 5 years ago from London, UK

Words fail me to express my full sympathy. This must, indeed, the worst loss. Christmas is the worst time of the year to bear with it. May God give you the strength to do so. We'll never be able to get over it but only can learn to live with. Hopefully you find peace in thinking about the time your son was with you and the all the memories. Also that this was given to you which others never had at all.

You have a rare gift of poetry to express in full the heartache and in such wonderful and beautiful words. Thank you for sharing it with us.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Hello Hello - My lovely friend. You will never know how much your tender and truthful words mean to me. I hesitated to write this poem not knowing how to even start. But the words sprang from my heart. I wanted this to be a gift to Todd as well as support for myself. Thank God for you and for Hubpages!


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Denise Handlon 5 years ago from North Carolina

My dear friend, I am stunned. It's amazing how we are each so 'busy' with our individual lives and have no clue as to what is happening with each other behind the scenes of the hubpage. I am so grateful you shared this piece of intimate poetry. My heart goes out to you. It is an unimaginable loss, and one only a mother can know...please, take good care of yourself during these tender times.

It was 6 months before I could venture back out to the work world, following the death of my husband. And, I cried continuously day and night even when I was finally involved back to work. I don't know that I would have had the strength or courage to do so if it had been my child. Please accept my deepest condolences for your great loss. Many blessings to you, and to your grandchildren this holiday season. Big hugs sent your way.


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katiem2 5 years ago from I'm outta here

Oh my heart breaks with you, so true until the angels come to get you the pain and longing will be there, here, everywhere. I still long to see my sister, know what she's doing and why I can't hear from her. It never seems real and for good reason for one day you and I know we will hear them, see them and know again. Love, Peace and Joy dear one! :) Katie


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Hello, hello, 5 years ago from London, UK

I am glad my words did hurt you which is so easily done in a terrible situation. I am glad I could help just a little. With tragedies like people feel so helpless and also in reality one can't help which so sad. All our hearts going out and jet what you really long for we can't do for you. I am thinking of you continuesly and hope this helps just a little. You won't feel so left alone.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Katie - Your empathy and compassion means the world to me. I just knew you would understand and relate to my poem. Your beautiful sister is also missing you - of this I am certain. And like you said, it doesn't seem real - our beloved family members gone. One day, we will be togther again and joined with those who have gone on before us. May your heart heal a little more each day as you feel the love for you that exists here from all your friends. You are our Queen. Much love Katie. :-)


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

My Dear Denise - How compassionate and kind you are. I am so very sorry about the loss of your dear husband. The emptiness that accompanies such a loss is undescribeable. You are left with a huge hole in your heart that can never be filled. It is also unnatural for a child to go before the mother of that child. Your beautiful comments help me so much. And thank you for mentioning the grandchildren. They really are having a rough time. They were abandoned by their mother many years ago. As bad as all of this is, I am very blessed to have another son who has opened up his home and his heart to me. He is single, caring and takes good care of me.

Thank you, my friend for your support. Stay close by and thankyou for the hugs. :-)


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carrie450 5 years ago from Winnipeg, Canada

A heart wrenching poem Denise. I have one son and can't begin to realize what it would be like not having him around. My heart goes out to you.


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katiem2 5 years ago from I'm outta here

Thank you for your healing words. I know they will come back to you in many forms of healing for your own heart. Love, Peace and JOY! :) Katie


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Carrie - Thank you for your caring heart. Only a mother can feel the pain of such a loss. Appreciate your words.

Blessings.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Somewayouttahere - You completely understand. I am so grateful for that. Every word is exactly what I feel. What wisdom...what insight you have. I look forward to reading your hubs. Thank you and bless you!


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Macteacher - Your words are exceptionally meaningful to me. Thank you. I am very happy to hear that you will be spending time with your son. I know how much you treasure your children. May this Holiday season be filled with great joy, good health and peace. Love and blessings. :-)


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

ReggieD06 - Hello my friend - Thank you for the beautiful comment. I had not thought about Todd knowing about my poem. You have given me a gift and something more lovely to think about. Blessings to you Reggie!


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

cwarden - Thank you for your love and support - it helps fill in the empty hole in my heart. Blessings to you.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Dearest acaetnna - I am holding on to your hug and it feels so good! Thank you for your sweet compassion and love. Have a wonderful Holiday Season!


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Micky, you dear man. You have such empathy and love inside of you. It came through your words and touched me so. Blessings to you, dear friend.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Amber - How can I thank you for your warm and compassionate words to me? You have interpreted Todd's photos accurately. His wife deserted he and the four children, putting them each through their own private hell, promising them she would stop the drugs, alcohol and lies. The children were passed around to relatives after Todd's death, finally ending up with a step-aunt in N.C. The aunt has never been married or has children. It is not the best situation, but at least they are together. Thank you for asking and being interested. I guess you can tell by my response that I can't stand the mother. I new from the start that she was bad news, but wanting to be a good mother to Todd, I supported him in his choice and kept my mouth shut. :-)


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Amber Allen 5 years ago

Dear Audrey

Letting any child make their own decisions and mistakes is never easy but a parent can not live their child's life for them. Seeing Todd and your grandchildren suffer at the hands of a woman you knew to be bad news must have been very difficult for you to bear.

I hope that you can take comfort from the fact that you were a good mother to Todd and are a good mother to your other son. Your shared love and grief for Todd will give you a deeper connection than many parent and child ever experience.

I'm glad that your grandchildren are together but as you say living with an unmarried aunt who has no experience of raising children is not ideal.

With warmest wishes you and your family for Christmas and the New Year.

Amber:)x


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Scarlett My Dear - You are so kind to leave me such beautiful and caring comments. Thank you and Happy Holidays.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Karen Wodke - Your response to my hub really touched me. I love your " to be absent from the body means being present with the Lord ". That brings me a level of peace.

Thank you and many glorious blessings to you and yours.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

FloBe - I needed to express my feelings by writing this poem. Thank you for reading and commenting. It means alot to me.


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Cheri Schultz 5 years ago from Midwest

Audrey: Oh my gosh... A beautiful tribute to your son. I am so very sorry for your loss, your true feelings were elegantly expressed in this poem. My prayers will be with your during this holiday season. Love and grace to you my wonderful friend. Cheri


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prasetio30 5 years ago from malang-indonesia

I so sorry to hear this, dear friend. But I believe you are good mother who always pray for your son. You touch my heart with this poem. I can't stop my tears. I'll pray for Todd. Thank you very much.

Prasetio:)


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James A Watkins 5 years ago from Chicago

I cannot imagine the pain of losing your son. Thank you for your lovely poem for Todd. God Bless You.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

James - Thank you for sending me God's blessings. You are very kind and a compassionate person. This means so much to me!


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Cheri - Your kind and compassionate comments mean so much to me. It's friends like you that give me strength and courage when I need it the most. Thank you, dear Cheri. Much love to you.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

prasetio = You possess such a tender heart. I try to live every moment as if it may be my last. I say what is in my heart and speak the truth, but I have learned that the last words we say to someone else, may be our last. It is some comfort to me to know that "I love you" were the last words I said to my son. Thank you, dear friend.


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Truckstop Sally 5 years ago

Your poem is such a tribute to Todd, and the comments above are such a tribute to you. I hope you can be a presence in the lives of the four children. It could continue to be a healing experience for all of you.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Truckstop Sally - I am thrilled that you stopped by to read my poem. I appreciate your support and wise counsel. Thank you!


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Scribenet 5 years ago from Ontario, Canada

This is so beautiful and poignant! Your poetry speaks from the heart and I had tears in my eyes reading. I hope Todd is nearby and he is for certain, in your heart! Peace and love to you and your family!


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Scribenet - I am very touched by your kind and compassionate words. Thank you so very much for reading this poem. Yes, Todd is forever in my heart. I am blessed to have a younger son who has taken me into his home and heart. We are both healing, but the wound is deep and it takes time. Thank you, dear Scribenet.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Amber Allen - You could not have said anything else that touched me as this did. Such truth, such wisdom in your words. I thank you so very much for your kindess. You have such compassion. I send to you my love.


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Fossillady 5 years ago from Saugatuck Michigan

I felt your pain reading that beautiful tribute! Your son is so darn handsome! I picture him surfing on that cloud. Maybe my husband is up there with him taking a lesson! May your heart heal a little each day.

I have two sons too and am blessed to have my oldest live with me. I think he wants to stay here for now cause he worries about his mom after his father passed with cancer little over a year ago! I'm happy your're following me and I'm ready to click "follow vocalcoach", gladly!


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

fossillady - Welcome to my heart, my new friend. I have no doubt that your beloved husband and my son are surfing together. I know they "hover" around us and continually watch over us. I want to thank you for your lovely comments. So very touching! I am fortunate to live with my younger son and aren't these young men absolute treasures! You, with your older son and me with my younger son. I send you a huge heart filled with love, peace and tenderness on this day, "Valentine's Day".

I shall take a few minutes...meditate...fill my heart with pure love and share it with you. Thank you so much, my new and blessed friend.


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Dolores Monet 5 years ago from East Coast, United States

Vocal - I am sorry for your loss. I lost a very close friend recently and the pain is so terrible, I can't imagine losing a son. Your poem was a touching tribute. He'll be waiting for you at the gate when your time comes. Til then, appreciate what you have. God Bless you, dear.


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b. Malin 5 years ago

What a Beautiful, heartfelt Tribute to your first born...I too have two sons, both grown with woman of their own and families...Vocal, I am so sorry for your loss. My friend in Baltimore, just lost her first born son to Cancer, I wrote a Hub for her. I look forward to following you and thank you for following me now.


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duffsmom 5 years ago from Pacific Northwest, USA

What a heartbreak for you, yet you write it so beautifully.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

duffsmom - This is yet one more reason for my loving little "Clancey" so much...he brought me a much needed source for love and emptiness during the most difficult time of my life. Writing about my pain, also helps with the healing process. Thank you, my new and dear friend.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

b. Malin - Your kind, gentle and empathetic words have truly touched me. Losing my son...it still doesn't seem real and is so difficult. So, your understanding and support just mean the world to me. My eyes are full of tears for the appreciation I have for you, dear one. Mahalo!


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ahorseback 5 years ago

Vocalcoach, There are times , so many years later , that I still ask how a loving God can ask so much of some and not all , and yet I would not want all of those around us to know what we know either, and such are the questions that are always there. I can give you nothing that hasen't already been shown by these wonderful people following you. I look at the names of those above me here and know you are in good company. Reach out to them in your words and always they will come to you! God Bless.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

ahorseback - God has indeed blessed me, for I have found you. You are aman filled with wisdom and compassion. I can't thank you enough for your beautiful words. Through Hubpages, my life has been enriched and blessed with more good friends than I could imagine. All of my Hubpage Family has helped me to heal a little bit more each day. Now, I have the support of you, ahorseback!


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Dolores - Your lovely and comforting words are "he'll be waiting at the gate". How I love to visualize that time.

You have helped, very much and I thank you deeply.


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theseus 5 years ago from philippines

Oh my, this is such a touching piece of art. He is now in the loving arms of our Creator and I'm sure that he is looking at you fondly and with love. Keep the faith,be strong,you are an inspiration. God bless.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

theseus - You have filled my heart with a warm and peaceful feeling and I just can't thank you enough. What a magnificent and caring person you are. I am so very blessed to have found you!


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Vocalcoach - beautiful :-)


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

RealHousewife - Thank you my sweet friend. I so appreciate your support. :)

mruptrend - So very nice to have you visit. Thank you for your comments.


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

You surely have it:-) sweet dreams!


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Katiem - Hello, my dear, sweet, heart. Each time I treat myself to one of your magnificent hubs, my heart lightens and joy and peace are present. You are a treasure!

Uriel - I have read your lovely comments several times since you first wrote them to me. You are so kind and compassionate and I just want you to know how much it means to me and that you have helped me. Thank you!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Your son certainly got your extraordinary looks! I am so very sorry for your loss. I have one adult daughter who had a car accident years ago that left her with a broken T-12 vertebrae. She wore a backbrace for a year. She never lost the ability to walk, for which I thank God everyday. However, she still suffers pain and has become addicted to opiates. It greatly affects her general health. It is heartbreaking to not be able to help her leave her pain behind. It creates my own gnawing pain. Your piece is a beautiful gift to your beloved son. Thank you for sharing it with all of us, vocalcoach.


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Dear Amy ~ I am so very sorry to hear about your beautiful daughters car accident and the terrible injury caused to her back. To be a loving, compassionate mother, like you...and watch your daughter live with such horrible pain is horrible. You want to relieve her of her suffering and would switch places with her if you could. You would do anything to take away her pain. Her pain is your pain - twofold.

As I sat helplessly by, watching my first-born go through his chemo treatments, with every tear that rolled down my cheeks, I asked God to let his pain be mine. I begged God to let me "wake-up from this nightmare" and find it all a bad dream. But God had other plans - he not only refused to answer my prayers, He ended up taking Todd completely and forever, away from me. Never-the-less, I praise him, thanking him for the 42 years I was allowed to have such a great man in my life. I thank God every day for choosing me to be Todd's Mother.

I would give anything to take your pain, myself, and release your burden. Remember, Amy, that you were chosen to give life to your lovely girl, and to be her mother. Your strenght will become her strenght, just as her pain has become yours. Her addiction is a side-effect, and 'tho not a good thing, it is all she knows at this time. Any one of us can become addicted to getting us through very painful times. I hope that for the sake of her general health, a way will be open to help her with this addiction. Patience is a very difficult lesson for us all to learn. I always thought of myself as a very patient person - now, I wonder. I am sending you a loving, assuring and warm hug from across the miles, which in no way interfers with it's sincerity and love.


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PegCole17 5 years ago from Dallas, Texas

Audrey, I'm so sorry for your loss. Though words can't ever be enough, they're all I have to send you love and compassion and healing energy from my heart to yours. I can't even imagine how difficult this is for you and will hope that you receive comfort from Above and from knowing that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

With love

Peg


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Martie ~ It has been 7 months since you wrote your kind, tender and compassionate comment to me about my son's passing. I want you to know that I have read this every single day. Your words have given me courage, strength and so much comfort.

You are a blessing to me and I will never ever forget you.

Thank you, precious friend for helping through the real hard times. I am so thank ful for you. Audrey


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Peg, my dear friend ~

Your sweet and tender comments mean everything to me. It is when I have moments of such "emptiness and want" for my son, that I turn to the comments on this hub. They help me so much.

Now, I feel your heart sending love and healing to my very own and it does lift me, adding to my strenght.

I know now, that I will see him again. Thank you Peg.


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Fennelseed 5 years ago from Australia

Though you wrote this poem some time ago, I know the longing is still there, it will always be there, until you reunite with your beautiful son. Your words are filled with love and pride for your gentle and compassionate boy. Audrey, it takes a very special person to produce a man with these treasured qualities. Sending you a knowing and heartfelt hug – Annie.


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Dday50627 5 years ago from Iowa

Never does a day go by that I do not miss and love my beautiful Sheila, in heaven 5 years now. As I read this poem, I knew every word, felt every emotion and know that though we will never forget, we can find a way to breathe and to take each day and remember the beauty and not just the sorrow. Time does not erase, nor do i believe it heals... but I do believe that it offers us an extension of the love we shared with our loved one. It gives us a window in to heaven that allows us to feel our loved ones as if they were right beside us. And truly, the fact is, in my heart, they are.

God bless you and the sweetness of your soul. Your son knows how much you love and miss him and he is always just a thought away. Remember this... as it became my words after Sheila went to heaven... "It is never goodbye, it is only See You Later."


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ronalina 5 years ago

Wow what a beautiful tribute to your son and I personally felt every word. I am so sorry for your loss but I believe you will be together again someday. Thanks for sharing your heart with us.


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SheliaKay 5 years ago from Marietta, Ohio..... but born and raised in Northern Ohio on Lake Erie

Your Poem is absolutely beautiful just like your Son. Just as Ronalina said about feeling every word. I did as well and it is a wonderful tribute. I feel as long as I have breath in me, my deceased loved ones continue on through me. He will always be there with you in spiritual form. Voted up and awesome. I love reading your hubs. They are all so full of passion.


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vocalcoach 4 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Fennelseed - Some of the comments on this hub didn't get to me and this is one of them. I am so sorry about the delay. I can't begin to thank you enough for these beautiful, compassionate words. With Christmas only 3 days away, I am having a tough time. It will pass, but will return again and again. You always understand and how precious that is to me. May you and yours have a Christmas filled with love and much joy!


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Sunflower-reads 4 years ago from San Diego, California

I am beyond moved by your words. I just tried to blow my nose with the nearest napkin and it smelled like chicken grease. So now my nose is weepy and greasy. I was born with kidney disease and I'm the oldest in my family. Moms and their eldest sons have a very special relationship. Next time I give my mom a hug I'll think of you and your son and the special relationship that you always will have. Take good care. -- Matt


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Denise Handlon 4 years ago from North Carolina

I had to revisit this tender poem of grief, Audrey, and listen once more to the beautiful song that you've included here. Thank you for sharing what is so precious to you. Hugs to you my friend.


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vocalcoach 3 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Dday50627 - Oh, you sweet and precious angel! What glorious words of truth and comfort. And both your Sheila and my Todd passed 5 yrs ago. I am so grateful to you for being here and sharing with me. I will indeed remember..."It is never goodbye, it is only See You Later." My very best wishes and blessings go with you. Thank you so much.


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vocalcoach 3 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

ronalina - Thank you for the support and the kindness you have shown me. I do believe that I will again behold the beautiful face of my son someday. Thank you for confirming this.


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vocalcoach 3 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Dear SheliaKay - I can't thank you enough for your beautiful and inspiring words. It helps so much. And I so appreciate your vote up and awesome. Thank you , too, for enjoying my hubs and for feeling the passion which I share in y writing.

Sending you a hug!


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vocalcoach 3 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Oh Matt! (Sunflower reads) - I am so very touched as I sit here and read your beautiful words. (I even managed a chuckle about the chicken grease.) Thank you for thinking of me and my son when you hug your mom. My eyes are filled with tears of gratitude for having found you here. I send blessings to you with your kidney disease and will remember you in my daily prayers. Thank you just isn't enough.


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vocalcoach 3 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Dearest Denise - I'm pleased to see you here again and remember the big source of comfort you were to me almost 3 years ago when this poem was first published. As you have said, this particular song is so beautiful and expresses all that I feel so much better than I could. You are a treasure and I am blessed to know you and to call you "friend." Thank you for the hugs and right back at'cha.


marion licari 2 years ago

I share your grief my son was born 10/6/67 and died 2/18/12. It isn't easy always easy to express myself especially on the computer. thank you for your beautiful poem


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vocalcoach 2 years ago from Nashville Tn. Author

Dear marion licari - Oh, I'm so very sorry about your loss. My heart aches for you marion. We share the very worst experience a mother can ever live through. Your tragedy has been more recent than mine. Still, time means very little when a mother's heart cries out for her child. I wish I could give you a great big hug. Please visit me soon marion. I will think of you tomorrow as we both share a difficult time but still celebrate Mothers Day. Sending you a virtual hug and thank you so much! ~ Audrey (vocalcoach)

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    Audrey writes poetry to fulfill a need and release confined feelings. She won her first poetry contest at age 7. We all have a poem to write



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