I AM A HOLLYWOOD MOVIE IN THE MAKING - Let Me Entertain You
Here's My story, it's sad but true........
So the one thing I have noticed is that with age comes brutal honesty. After all it is harder for one to run from oneself when you get too tired to run at all. Right? I mean I was thinking at one point of moving and having a very "normal" life somewhere else around normal people with no entertainment industry in my life at all, but what I didn't understand is that I am not really "normal" if you compare me to a teacher or nurse in middle America. I remember the moment that I received an Emmy on television from Bob Hope in Canada for a show I was on in the 80's and I looked up at heaven and asked silently "Is this really my path?!" I'm not sure I really had a choice to do anything else the way things went from my early years. I mean my background is in Hollywood and the music industry and I have been performing since I was four years old. That is not NORMAL now is it? My first major role in a play was Rudolph The Red Nose Reindeer and I was amazing! Atleast I think I was? Too long ago it seems!!! ha
All I remember is that I wore a black leotard with black tights and one big red nose and hopped and skipped around West Hollywood Park auditorium. Alice Cooper performed there the same day......Go figure?!!!! Anyway, lets just take a look at my background and childhood....shall we? This way we can start writing the movie of the week or maybe this should really be a "big screen" blockbuster!" Sounds delightful!!! ha
I was born in New York to a very successful composer who wrote some of the worlds biggest Jazz standards in the 50's. CHECK! My father married my mother when he was 60 years old and my mother was only 24 years old. CHECK! Ummmm.....Normal?!!!! NOT. My mother was in love and dated John Wayne's son before she met my father. There are rumors that she was actually pregnant with Patrick Wayne's child before I came along. I guess you can say I was sort of an experiment. Since my father was so much older, he wanted to make sure my mother could have me before they married. Makes sense doesn't it? After all she was only 24 years old and wanted to be a model, showgirl and painter (which she was). So as you can see, I never really had a chance to BE anyone else!
After watching Jodie Foster's speech on you tube the other night I got quite emotional. Believe me it is not like I am even comparing myself to her achievements in the film industry but what I related to most was that she was doing it her whole life.....by the time she got ultra successful it was too hard to actually "switch gears" or do something else......Whether your famous or not or semi famous or known all over the world for many different things....CHECK! The point is that "she didn't have a choice" and either did I. Being in the entertainment business is all I have ever known. So here I am in mid life looking at it from a different place. Interesting.......
So who would play "me" in my movie of the week? Well I look more Italian then hispanic so not sure who would get the part these days? They would probably have to pick an unknown because not enough people die in this story or get shot or thrown off a bridge in their car. I put a picture of someone above who looked similar to me in my 20's (the middle photo NOT the chick in the hat...that was a sort of JOKE on my part! ha) but I had brown eyes and a bit more exotic looking......Let's just say I wasn't quite as "wholesome."
A Quick Summary Of The Hollywood Story...
Young girl is born to Wellknown older composer and young model - showgirl in New York. The family moves to California and settles in Hollywood in the late 60's. Older composer retires and hangs around house writing more songs, making films, writing about 40 scripts that were never made and i still have. I think a few were made but it was way too long ago so can't track anything. Young girl starts performing at the age of 4 and also does commercials and auditions throughout her childhood landing quite a few cool gigs including Christmas Specials on TV, commercials and a few "young kid guest spots" with Morey Amsterdam and the actress Lee Grant. She is also up for big films against Jodie Foster in the film Bugsy Malone, Brooke Shields in Bugsy Malone and a few more. Always down to the last few picks and even got to stay out of school too with a slip from the studio! Coolio No? ha..I think the last BIG JUST MISSED PART for young starlet was Julia Robert's role in Mystic Pizza. Great stories for the kiddies eventually! Yes?!
Oh yea another VERY "Hollywood" tidbit, she was named after her fathers very dear friend and very famous actress at the time when she showed up to visit little baby of composer at hospital.
Young actress daughter of composer and model ends up performing in many shows, plays and also models too for Vidal Sassoon and a few big commercial photographers. Eventually ends up doing indie films and AFI films for film students before she lands part on big show. Voila! Then she ends up marrying son of big comedy star and gets to meet amazing people on top of the amazing people she already met with her father growing up. The list of celebrities she meets and mingles with goes on forever and can be it's own TV movie or book....... ha
Young starlet eventually quits acting and has a semi normal life by moving out of Los Angeles and pursuing the business from a distance. Ex actress pursues music career back in the eighties and signs with labels but gets fed up and releases her own records and still does. Young ex Hollywood toy puppet (that is my joke for how little control "talent" has in the business) now runs her own show and produces projects, music and other stuff too.
AND GUESS WHAT EX TOY PUPPET FOR LAME PRODUCERS ACTUALLY LOVES HER LIFE!!! AND NOW IS CALLING HER OWN SHOTS!!!! YEA!!!
Ex Hollywood "in your face" every second actually has enough crap to write about by being forced to endure jerks in the industry for so many years! Ex Hollywood young hopeful is very happy now raising family and doing projects that she loves while she lives a life of "kind of normal." Capiche?!
Ofcourse i am making this a bit silly, but really wouldn't you if you grew up like me?! I mean if I wrote a book about it I would have to write about 3-5 volumes! The great thing is that I feel I have finally found my calling in my poetry writing. I have been writing poetry since I was 7 years old and now I feel that my life's experiences have just added to everything I write about now.
So here is the ending my friends.....This woman writing to you now has endured tremendous LOSS in her life and loss her mother at the age of eight. Will not give away details at this moment since it would really put this article on a downer. Through everything and all of the ups and downs this girl and now woman kept getting up and marching forward with FAITH and still does. Like my father always said "Never forget who you are."
Well daddy, I never have.
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