I do not look quite like this.....I'm a bit more "subtle"........ha
I do not look quite like this.....I'm a bit more "subtle"........ha
This actress looks similar to me in my 20's....the hair, the face, the pose.........
This actress looks similar to me in my 20's....the hair, the face, the pose.........
Spent many years performing in dance shows and tv specials........
Spent many years performing in dance shows and tv specials........
Never wanted this.......
Never wanted this.......

Here's My story, it's sad but true........

So the one thing I have noticed is that with age comes brutal honesty. After all it is harder for one to run from oneself when you get too tired to run at all. Right? I mean I was thinking at one point of moving and having a very "normal" life somewhere else around normal people with no entertainment industry in my life at all, but what I didn't understand is that I am not really "normal" if you compare me to a teacher or nurse in middle America. I remember the moment that I received an Emmy on television from Bob Hope in Canada for a show I was on in the 80's and I looked up at heaven and asked silently "Is this really my path?!" I'm not sure I really had a choice to do anything else the way things went from my early years. I mean my background is in Hollywood and the music industry and I have been performing since I was four years old. That is not NORMAL now is it? My first major role in a play was Rudolph The Red Nose Reindeer and I was amazing! Atleast I think I was? Too long ago it seems!!! ha

All I remember is that I wore a black leotard with black tights and one big red nose and hopped and skipped around West Hollywood Park auditorium. Alice Cooper performed there the same day......Go figure?!!!! Anyway, lets just take a look at my background and childhood....shall we? This way we can start writing the movie of the week or maybe this should really be a "big screen" blockbuster!" Sounds delightful!!! ha

I was born in New York to a very successful composer who wrote some of the worlds biggest Jazz standards in the 50's. CHECK! My father married my mother when he was 60 years old and my mother was only 24 years old. CHECK! Ummmm.....Normal?!!!! NOT. My mother was in love and dated John Wayne's son before she met my father. There are rumors that she was actually pregnant with Patrick Wayne's child before I came along. I guess you can say I was sort of an experiment. Since my father was so much older, he wanted to make sure my mother could have me before they married. Makes sense doesn't it? After all she was only 24 years old and wanted to be a model, showgirl and painter (which she was). So as you can see, I never really had a chance to BE anyone else!

After watching Jodie Foster's speech on you tube the other night I got quite emotional. Believe me it is not like I am even comparing myself to her achievements in the film industry but what I related to most was that she was doing it her whole life.....by the time she got ultra successful it was too hard to actually "switch gears" or do something else......Whether your famous or not or semi famous or known all over the world for many different things....CHECK! The point is that "she didn't have a choice" and either did I. Being in the entertainment business is all I have ever known. So here I am in mid life looking at it from a different place. Interesting.......

So who would play "me" in my movie of the week? Well I look more Italian then hispanic so not sure who would get the part these days? They would probably have to pick an unknown because not enough people die in this story or get shot or thrown off a bridge in their car. I put a picture of someone above who looked similar to me in my 20's (the middle photo NOT the chick in the hat...that was a sort of JOKE on my part! ha) but I had brown eyes and a bit more exotic looking......Let's just say I wasn't quite as "wholesome."

Reminds me of my parents age difference.
Reminds me of my parents age difference.
Growing up with an older father made me understand life and death at the same time.
Growing up with an older father made me understand life and death at the same time.
I always imagine my sister and I in a very old fashioned way.
I always imagine my sister and I in a very old fashioned way.
This would be the TV version of my real life.....ha
This would be the TV version of my real life.....ha
The sort of part I would have played........ha
The sort of part I would have played........ha

A Quick Summary Of The Hollywood Story...

Young girl is born to Wellknown older composer and young model - showgirl in New York. The family moves to California and settles in Hollywood in the late 60's. Older composer retires and hangs around house writing more songs, making films, writing about 40 scripts that were never made and i still have. I think a few were made but it was way too long ago so can't track anything. Young girl starts performing at the age of 4 and also does commercials and auditions throughout her childhood landing quite a few cool gigs including Christmas Specials on TV, commercials and a few "young kid guest spots" with Morey Amsterdam and the actress Lee Grant. She is also up for big films against Jodie Foster in the film Bugsy Malone, Brooke Shields in Bugsy Malone and a few more. Always down to the last few picks and even got to stay out of school too with a slip from the studio! Coolio No? ha..I think the last BIG JUST MISSED PART for young starlet was Julia Robert's role in Mystic Pizza. Great stories for the kiddies eventually! Yes?!

Oh yea another VERY "Hollywood" tidbit, she was named after her fathers very dear friend and very famous actress at the time when she showed up to visit little baby of composer at hospital.

Young actress daughter of composer and model ends up performing in many shows, plays and also models too for Vidal Sassoon and a few big commercial photographers. Eventually ends up doing indie films and AFI films for film students before she lands part on big show. Voila! Then she ends up marrying son of big comedy star and gets to meet amazing people on top of the amazing people she already met with her father growing up. The list of celebrities she meets and mingles with goes on forever and can be it's own TV movie or book....... ha

Young starlet eventually quits acting and has a semi normal life by moving out of Los Angeles and pursuing the business from a distance. Ex actress pursues music career back in the eighties and signs with labels but gets fed up and releases her own records and still does. Young ex Hollywood toy puppet (that is my joke for how little control "talent" has in the business) now runs her own show and produces projects, music and other stuff too.


Ex Hollywood "in your face" every second actually has enough crap to write about by being forced to endure jerks in the industry for so many years! Ex Hollywood young hopeful is very happy now raising family and doing projects that she loves while she lives a life of "kind of normal." Capiche?!

Ofcourse i am making this a bit silly, but really wouldn't you if you grew up like me?! I mean if I wrote a book about it I would have to write about 3-5 volumes! The great thing is that I feel I have finally found my calling in my poetry writing. I have been writing poetry since I was 7 years old and now I feel that my life's experiences have just added to everything I write about now.

So here is the ending my friends.....This woman writing to you now has endured tremendous LOSS in her life and loss her mother at the age of eight. Will not give away details at this moment since it would really put this article on a downer. Through everything and all of the ups and downs this girl and now woman kept getting up and marching forward with FAITH and still does. Like my father always said "Never forget who you are."

Well daddy, I never have.


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btrbell 4 years ago from Mesa, AZ

This was really interesting, Grace! Thank you so much for sharing this whimsical yet intimate story. I really enjoyed reading your story. Thank you for sharing. Up++

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GPAGE 4 years ago from California Author

Thank you for your lovely comment barbell! I really appreciate it! :)


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales

So very interesting; I vote up,across and share.


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GPAGE 4 years ago from California Author

Thank you Eddy! Hope you have a lovely day! G

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drbj 4 years ago from south Florida

Please accept my deepest sympathies on your loss, GPAGE. Enjoyed reading this synopsis of your fascinating life to date. And you are correct - there seems to be enough material for several books. Perhaps one day you will write them.

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GPAGE 4 years ago from California Author

drbj.....Thank you so much for your kind words......Perhaps one day I will write them.....right now I'm working on releasing a poetry book.....All the best, G

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Ausseye 4 years ago

Hi Gee( just being Aussetic)

You are a tale ( tail) who has but to wag

A black dog full of spirit life and speech

A pooch who covers all in smooches and makes me glad

I met a person, life fit, and always engaged

A life lived in music andfull with song

My hope is the universe will hear your grand tale

A distant glow, a sun full of energy

And respond with and alien smile

A hub inspired poem from an unpoetic sole (soul).

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GPAGE 4 years ago from California Author

LOVE it Ausseye! Thank you for the positive flow! Always love seeing you here. Appreciate your kind and very supportive words! I'm sending you a private message about poetry.....Best, G

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS

Dear GPAGE - I ran across this most interesting mini-memoir as a "Discover More Hubs" listing on a hub I'd visited about Hollywood and Vine from a non-entertainer's viewpoint back in 1962 when he worked in a shoestore near there. So often when one of those "Discover More Hubs" articles or poems catches my eye, it turns out to be a valuable follow-through which I'd never otherwise have discovered. This was such a one!

I very much enjoyed following your 'unlikely' history from birth through so many incredible experiences which most of us have never experienced or been close enough to experience even vicariously! I did have a slight connection or two with the Hollywood mystique: One of my much older sisters' husband was first-cousin to Georgia Carroll, who was first a successful fashion model and then went to Hollywood, where she sang with Kay Kyser's band and married him, along with acting a bit. And our next door neighbor's niece was Ann Miller, the dancer. That's about it for my brush with Hollywood fame. haha.

But I've always loved movies and had the privilege of seeing first-run showings of such as "Gone With The Wind" in 1939, and many others as a kid at our local movie theater. There are some perks to longevity besides being still alive! :-)

Of course, I loved "Your Hit Parade" and musicals all through the years. Your heritage is certainly priceless. No question that your own story would make a great screen play! Hope you're working on it!

I detect a strong individual in you who's always made strong choices rather than being pigeon-holed into a real-life-role, and possibly doing so against all odds. I admire that. Many of us who grew up with movies from their earliest times have wondered how it would have been, had our lives been different or if we'd been miraculously discovered, even in our mediocrity. I've become of the opinion, though, that we were spared many a tribulation, in being passed over. Even so, I can envision my life being a pretty good story, too, - though not at the level of yours!

Am looking forward to reading more of yours in your hubs! Thank you for these enticing glimpses!

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Rachamallu 3 years ago

WOW What an inspiration n what a courageous & determined lady!! Don't think its NOT normal coz U r alway SPECIAL 2 someoe & dats ALL it matters!!! Celebpower


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GPAGE 3 years ago from California Author

Nellieana! So sorry I missed your GREAT comment! Very interesting stuff! I love hearing other's stories.....Life is an adventure....isn't it? Thank you so much for your comment and for taking the time to share part of yourself here......VERY much appreciated!!! All the best, GPAGE

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tomy101 3 years ago from Midland, Texas

I enjoyed your story and you are very correct in saying ,"What is normal for you, is not the normal for everyone" I grew up with a family involved in the oil and gas exploration business. Like an actor or child of an actor, I have lived different roles and enjoyed the riches and the lows of being in such a family. It stays with you because of the family name, your life revolves around the name because of the wealth and good deeds as well as times when oil was a bust. Figuring out who you are in this part of the equation can be a bit confusing. I chose not to go into the family business, yet am associated with it. It is part of me, and acceptance of this is what it is. Good story and I always wondered what it would be like to live in your situation. Possibly not all that different? Keep up the good articles, they are interesting..

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GPAGE 3 years ago from California Author

tomy101! Thank you for stopping by and leaving such a great comment! My closest friend is from a big oil family so I understand what you are saying. Yes, there are similarities in both these types of lives. The ups and downs, the association.....I'm currently making a "life shift" into more writing, working towards getting my Masters at Harvard and eventually want to speak around the world, release books of poetry and stories and also produce documentaries on interesting people! And yes, they do not have to be normal! ha ha Best, GPAGE

Aniruddha Sastikar 3 years ago

Simply Awesome! Wonderful and touching read, Gina.

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Andrew Meek 3 years ago

'Never forget who you are'... I'm still finding that bit out :) Life is a great adventure for those of us lucky and healthy enough to take up the challenge. For all we have suffered in our various and very different lives, we are the lucky ones - we are still here. We have time. :)

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GPAGE 3 years ago from California Author

Well I think it is a good lesson learned and to keep with us.....we can never be something we are not. We may as well except that we are who we are. Life choices is what builds character. Yes we are fortunate to still have time to remember what our soul truly wants......Thank you for stopping in Andrew!! G

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