I Am Abuse- A Poem
I Am Abuse
I cannot admit my true feelings, feel like I am weak
Can't you see how it's like to be me?
Lingering here in a time
Where I don't belong coming up with stupid rhymes?
You won't understand unless you're in my mind
The pain I feel constantly all the time.
The scars that form a time line on my pale skin
The lack of confidence, I'll never win.
Can't you ever understand where I am?
No, you'll never understand.
Unless you read my thoughts and know what I've been through
Then you'll know that it's not you.
It's this illness that makes me insane
Lost in this disdain.
This agony, this misery, this pain.
Can't you hear my cries?
Cries of help that I need inside?
I've attempted suicide
I've harmed my own self inside and outside.
And all you think of are lies.
That I am just using it as an excuse
That according to you
I can control
But deep inside my gruesome soul
I have no where to go
And I fall to my knees
Wanting you to just see
That there is no control here
There is only fear.
In my life fear is all I know, abuse is my life.
You say it's the past to get over it and stop the cries.
How dare you say that? You've been here yourself haven't you?
Now I can't go on in life feeling this sad, this blue.
Wish you would have listened to my cries.
Otherwise I wouldn't have tried to commit suicide.
Thankfully there are those that actually do care about me
And placed their caring arms around me
Telling me don't I see
There are other things in life for me?
Other people there to save my life from this agony.
Friends and other family besides you.
My own mother. Wish you could have been there to see
My own agony.
Because of you.
I am abuse.
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