I Didn't Eat A Thing Today, But I Can See Now!

I didn't eat a thing today.

                I have no idea why.

                          I could tell you anything.

                                         I could tell you a lie.


                            But, I wrote,

              And I wrote.


I hardly strayed,

                I hardly drank,

                               As thoughts of suffering stayed,

                                             And further into compassion I sank.


                              Scenes of brutality filled my day.

                I see crimes for which people will pay.


Some crimes are thought

                To be hidden from view.

                              I hope you can pay the tab,

                When your bill is due.

JOAN BAEZ ~ A Stranger In My Place ~

I can see now!

I Just Can't See A Stranger In My Place


I see the town where we were born,

I see the place we were raised

I see all the things you wanted,

That I never gave


I see sadness, I see sorrow,

I see pain on your face,

But I just can't,

See a stranger in my place.


I can see now where we quarreled.

I can see now I was wrong.

I can see where you might weaken

When I wasn't strong!


I see mem'ries of a love gone bad,

That time can't erase.

But I just can't,

See a stranger in my place.


No one seems to know you,

Quite like I do.

No one knows the things,

That make you cry.

Looking back it seems,

I never showed you.

And now I lie alone,

And wonder why.


I can see now where you might grow tired,

Of dreams that don't come true.

I can see where I have fallen short,

Of the things I promised you.


I can see now through my tear filled eyes,

No love on your face,

But I just can't see a stranger in my place...


by Kenny Rogers, Kin Vassey

"Stranger In My Place" is one of my favorite songs.

The words paint a picture of me and inadequacies.


I haven't eaten in almost two days but for a small bowl of fruit last night.

This is not imposed.

I didn't set out to accomplish anything.

I have no agenda of my own (he says).

It just is what it is.

I suppose it has a lot to do with my last hub, Calling All Bullies!

That creation was very sapping.

The topic, the research, my own experience were motivating.

The research required searching through video after video of atrocious acts!

It has made me "high" or numb or beyond explanation.

"High"? I can't say it's a good high.


Maybe this is a cleansing that the entire "system" needs.


I see comments for the hub.

I love the people who comment.

I want to acknowledge their input.

Is it necessary?

I think I'd rather watch all the other comments.

I think I'm drained.


But the song!

It spells out a partner's failing as that partner sees it.

It's rueful!

Missed chances?

You only get to live life once!?

I'm sorry that I haven't been the partner a love has needed.

I am.

For whatever reason, I am.

There's hardly anything for me to do.

I can't set things right to anyone.


I care.

My care is split into the four winds.


I want to care.

Now I recall my resources.

I will focus on what I can change.


I believe that -about all I can change- is a flat tire.




I think I'll get a bite to eat!



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alexandriaruthk 6 years ago from US

beautiful, at times after it happened you realized, but the realization comes and we are not perfect, I hope you're ok Mick, and please eat ok,


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

You bet Maita. God bless!


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vlind 6 years ago

Wonderful! :)


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Thank you vlind! I'll come check you out.


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prettydarkhorse 6 years ago from US

I forgot to put awesome!


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Sa`ge 6 years ago from Barefoot Island

it was all that research Micky, it wore you out and more then that it brought out all the mess we are all in. Can't blame you for the way you feel, I got all drained reading that last hub myself just thinking about all that work you had to do to get it out. You really need to not do so much, a little goes a long way my dear, your little is a lot for the visuals you bring to the front. Pull back sweet one, Don't let yourself run away with it all, I know did not eat because you were hour on end working on that hub. You need a nice hot tub and and massage and some strawberries and cream with some good nectar to sip. You deserve the best of the best, not may would pass that test. Love you Micky, please take care of yourself as much as you take care of us all.

*passes you an espresso with a daulp of almond whipped cream ~aloha nui loa~


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Thank you Sa'ge. I get really hung up on the insane inhumanity that is rampant. Thank you Dear. I just finished fruit smoothie and raw spinach. I might stretch the stomach back out! ooh! Espresso is what I need too!


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Sa`ge 6 years ago from Barefoot Island

yummy! sounds so good! D


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myownworld 6 years ago from uk

So much depth... sensitivity and yearning in this. Beautifully written and moving! Remember to rest, eat and keep pouring your heart into your words. It's cathartic, yes, but your soul shines through... take care friend, always x


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS

Yes, Micky - sometimes one is totally drained by writing - or by any creative effort in which one invests so much of self. You can take the day off from answering comments and just read and enjoy how it's being received. If anyone asks - tell 'm I gave you leave to! LOL (for anyone to whom that idiom is unfamiliar, it means I gave permission but it doesn't sound quite as presumptious somehow! LOL)

Anyway - I came to read the hub about bullies but must have clicked your name instead of the hub's name in the announcement and so landed on your profile page, where I noticed you'd written this hub too and decided to check it first. Kind of glad I did. It will make me appreciate your Bullies hub more.

Thumbs up!!

ps - the fruit and spinach sound very nourishing! And the espresso sounds good too!


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BobbiRant 6 years ago from New York

I love this, and you say it so politely too. I'm more of a sledge hammer between the eyes person I guess. Great write.


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Petra Vlah 6 years ago from Los Angeles

You don't even need to eat, my friend; it is your passion that keeps you alive. Have some spinach however and coffee sounds good as well


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Rossimobis 6 years ago from Biafra

"I can see now through my tear filled eyes"...

I am learning bro


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always exploring 6 years ago from Southern Illinois

This song is eating at my soul, i.m ready for some happy times. The stranger who took my place was a good friend, just older and much wiser than me. Did you read my story

about my husband,s suicide? i didn,t mention that she was my best friend.

God,s Speed


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katiem2 6 years ago from I'm outta here

Oh can I relate, I often go without eating or drinking or the desire to do either. Setting writing burns little and the need for it just not there. May you be hit by a burst of positive energy today that smoothers you with joy! :)


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valeriebelew 6 years ago from Metro Atlanta, GA, USA

Get a bite to eat, and be glad you can at least change a flat tire. Some of us can't even do that much. (:v


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

I have so many friends.

They come by all the time.

They're the great friends that think like I do-

well - if I had a brain anyway!

And just look up there at all those pretty girls!

I see a bunch of nice ladies - but pretty girls!


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tonymac04 6 years ago from South Africa

Micky - you got to look after yourself, bro! We need you here. Have another espresso and write another poem for us all to enjoy.

The portrait of Joni at the topo - who did that? I like it. Of course I've been a fan of Joni since ever so long!

Thanks again and keep the strength up, man. Lots of spinach and fresh-squoze juices!

Love and peace

Tony


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Yo Bro Tony! That was an album cover and I can't remember which one. I was in love with her of course but she went with Dylan instead!


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saddlerider1 6 years ago

Hey Mick, I am with your brother. Some days are worse than others, ups and downs and we just feel totally spent. I have been there and sometimes go back there, it's a black day when it comes, fortunately I don't have many, but I would be lying if I didn't tell you I have them to.

Eating fruit and greens will replenish your energy, but the mind is a tricky device if left to roam and mess us up. Just keep doing and moving and the world moves with you. I have a great deal of respect for you Mick and am pleased to read what you share on here. Chin up and remember there is someone else out there who is worst off than us. Peace and hugs.


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

You know that's right. This was interesting. It wasn't self imposed.

It, the "surprise" fast, wasn't uncomfortable.

If anything I'm better for it.

I just kept going in one direction so far there was an opposite reaction, I suppose. Thanks Bud!


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Darlene Sabella 6 years ago from Hello, my name is Toast and Jam, I live in the forest with my dog named Sam ...

Hello my dear Mic, you are a great writer and very unique and I enjoyed the read, and I rode further and further today. Love you and your hubs, thumbs up


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billyaustindillon 6 years ago

Micky you certainly throw yourself full on into what ever you do writing and riding in particular - you have true passion for your life and those around it. Sometimes you gotta extend that passion to food brother :)


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Thank you Darski. You are too kind. I love that you rode today! And you rode further! God bless you my Dear! Keep turning those legs around, pumping more blood around, building new capillaries, and confidence. I love you my Dear! You know I love your hubs!

You're right Billy Brother! Sometimes we diet, sometimes we fast, sometimes we don't know.

I was hurt on the ride a little from the un-imposed fast, but I'm hurt on most of the rides anyway. God bless B!


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain

Oh Micky..! You´ve made me cry. Will you please stop being so hard on yourself.

Beautifully written. Full of feeling as always, Dim x


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Peggy W 6 years ago from Houston, Texas

I landed on this hub of yours first so do not yet know all the effort put into your bullies hub. This song so nicely sung expresses feelings that so many people who have lost former loves must feel. No matter what...keep eating and know that you have a bunch of people who care about you!


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Oh Dim! Don't cry! If someone isn't beating me up I'll do it myself! Thank you Dear!

Hey Peggy! I wish my hubs were as pretty as yours! You are so good with your camera! Thank you Ma'am!


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prasetio30 6 years ago from malang-indonesia

Nice poem and beautiful. But my suggestion, you have to eat today...hahaha. So you don't get sick, because I still waiting your next hub. I hope you always healthy, my friend. Thumbs up!

Prasetio


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Thank you Brother Prasetio! You stay well too. Your Indonesia hub is wonderful!


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akirchner 6 years ago from Central Oregon

Ah yes, the ups and downs of life - I sometimes think you can sink so far you think there is no way back but then marvel that the very next day hope springs eternal as they say and all is new and lively. Hope you are on an upswing today - don't life get you down for too long though these are troubling times we live in. Hope you are back 'in the groove'.


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Yes Ma'am! I'm bad to my usual groove! Thank you Dear!


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Freya Cesare 6 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

Big hug for you! :(


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Thank you Freya Dear! God bless you!


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MFB III 6 years ago from United States

Food is a placebo for the absence of filling the soul with more tangible values. It is a way to sustain ourselves amidst the chaos, until we rediscover a better path to understanding. drink too in moderation can lighten our heavy spirtis with spirits that soften the daily blows. But writing, righting the wrongs in the world as we know it is the utmost fulfillmet we can find. To commiserate and find words that others can devour, granted by the gods, this then is the closet step to healing.~~~MFB III


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

MFB- I grapple at definitions for you, your heart, your wisdom, your leadership, your understanding...and I add, etc. You can say more in a paragraph and a poem- than I can say all day! One Love Brother and Semper Fi!


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Nell Rose 6 years ago from England

Hi, you may be older than me, but you got more energy! don't wear yourself out, just keep on making us laugh! I love it when you do the funnies! ha ha I will send you a coffee, a jam doughnut and a big hug down the line! cheers nell


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

God bless you Sweet Nell! Espresso please? Cheers Nell!


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Deborah Demander 6 years ago from First Wyoming, then THE WORLD

Hey friend, what you need is a good massage. It will release all that emotional and physical tension. If you ever make it to wyoming, look me up!

Namaste.


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Thank you Deborah! I will. That's on the other side of the moon I think but if I get close- guess who's coming to dinner? God bless!


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TINA V 6 years ago

I visited your profile page and I got curious with the title of your hub. This is a nice and beautiful poem. You have expressed your emotions so well. The song is great, too. But I agree with the other comments that you really have to eat. So give yourself a break. Enjoy your week!


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Thank you TINA V! I will. Thanks for coming by!


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Pollyannalana 6 years ago from US

You love being depressed so I won't go there but wow I have never heard Joan sound like that, it's like pure country and I loved how she was and I love this. Never heard the song before and love it too. I could live on songs and music, can there ever really be a favorite?


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Hey Polly. Actually- nobody chooses to be depressed. I'm not sure you can like it. Joan's voice is clear as a bell. She's at least bi-lingual. But her heart is gold. That makes a big difference. I guess we'll always have a hundred or more favorites! Thank you Dear!

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