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I Met Someone Very Special Today

Updated on January 19, 2017

I Tried To Keep It A Secret But I Can't

This person is someone who lights my fire

Excites me like nobody else can

Loves and hates me both at the same time

Talks back to me in the loudest tone

I try to ignore and act like I'm not listening

But that's not true

This person knows better than me

I can say and do anything this person will always be listening and watching

Critical, judge mental almost for certain

Out of control

Cruel, unkind and unforgiving

I get tired and just want to sleep

Hide me from what I think

Then when I awake

My mind starts to race

I feel my inner strength

So much energy and free spirited

Such a good feeling runs through me

So different than being angry and upset

Hot tempered, self centered and real complicated

Mad at the world and the people we know

This person is so loving and giving

Thoughtful and kind

Then why do I feel cold as ice

Ready to chew off somebody's head

When they look at me the wrong way

I can't keep this person out of my business

It is as if

We are one

That's not what I want or need

To much for me to handle

Have you ever felt this way ?

Like it or not

It is what it is

So instead of fighting and bringing up all the conflict

I decided to make amends

I forgive myself for what I have done or not done

I have become my own best friend

Not so fast

You are going to let all those years just erase like that

I can remember what I want to

Forget what I need to

Change my outcome

Forgive and learn to give and live again

Yes I can and so will you

Because I am in control

I have always been

Maybe just asleep at the wheel

Now we can work together

Sharing the good

Listening to the bad

It can no longer hurt me like it has

I don't have to look for help

I am now taking my time

Getting to know me

My feelings and my thoughts

There is nothing for me to cover up

I am me and I am so proud of it

No matter how I feel or think

I give myself the right to feel awful or sad

Even mad

Then I can and will make it work

Feeling better when I want to and when I am ready

Because the first time in my life

I am in control

If you say something you think I should do or not do

I say thank you for your help

Then I decide what I choose to do

On my own

Because from the beginning to the end of this story

I have learned

I know now what I have to do

My life is all mine

I have every right

To love myself

Morning, noon and night











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