I Met Someone Very Special Today
I Tried To Keep It A Secret But I Can't
This person is someone who lights my fire
Excites me like nobody else can
Loves and hates me both at the same time
Talks back to me in the loudest tone
I try to ignore and act like I'm not listening
But that's not true
This person knows better than me
I can say and do anything this person will always be listening and watching
Critical, judge mental almost for certain
Out of control
Cruel, unkind and unforgiving
I get tired and just want to sleep
Hide me from what I think
Then when I awake
My mind starts to race
I feel my inner strength
So much energy and free spirited
Such a good feeling runs through me
So different than being angry and upset
Hot tempered, self centered and real complicated
Mad at the world and the people we know
This person is so loving and giving
Thoughtful and kind
Then why do I feel cold as ice
Ready to chew off somebody's head
When they look at me the wrong way
I can't keep this person out of my business
It is as if
We are one
That's not what I want or need
To much for me to handle
Have you ever felt this way ?
Like it or not
It is what it is
So instead of fighting and bringing up all the conflict
I decided to make amends
I forgive myself for what I have done or not done
I have become my own best friend
Not so fast
You are going to let all those years just erase like that
I can remember what I want to
Forget what I need to
Change my outcome
Forgive and learn to give and live again
Yes I can and so will you
Because I am in control
I have always been
Maybe just asleep at the wheel
Now we can work together
Sharing the good
Listening to the bad
It can no longer hurt me like it has
I don't have to look for help
I am now taking my time
Getting to know me
My feelings and my thoughts
There is nothing for me to cover up
I am me and I am so proud of it
No matter how I feel or think
I give myself the right to feel awful or sad
Even mad
Then I can and will make it work
Feeling better when I want to and when I am ready
Because the first time in my life
I am in control
If you say something you think I should do or not do
I say thank you for your help
Then I decide what I choose to do
On my own
Because from the beginning to the end of this story
I have learned
I know now what I have to do
My life is all mine
I have every right
To love myself
Morning, noon and night