I Sit Here And Stare

The weather outside looks still

I can't tell how cold it is as for I am inside where it is warm

What the hay ?

What about today ?

My wife left about an hour ago

The phone rang twice

I didn't pick up

All I can think about is sex

I open a book to read

My mind travels to every destination

As if I was sent there by a guided missle

Oh no

Not sure where I will land

I am off today

Rest I will not

My wife has a list longer than both arms

Because one arm would never do

I bought eight books yesterday

My wife shrugged her shoulders and gave me that loving look

Really more books ?

I did not spend too much and there were only a few

As I contemplate my day

How wonderful it would be

To go to bed

To lay there enjoying all the love two bodies can give

Whist away in all directions at once

My head spinning like a pin wheel on the lawn

Watching the wind blow faster and faster

My life gets harder and harder

I take a deep breath

One of billions I have aleady taken

I am a billionaire and I didn't even know it

How could that of slipped my mind so quickly ?

When some thoughts never leave

They resurface again in many different areas of our life automatically

Like numbers being pulled from the deli

Willingly

We actively participate

Subconsciously

Is there more to a number ?

45, 69. 3

Oh that's me

As I jump for joy

Silently

As the older woman next to me

Realizes she has to wait

Even longer than she wanted

Should I take my time

Ask the deli guy all kinds of meat questions

That I have heard other people ask

When I had to wait

Can I taste a piece ?

How thick is that ?

Can I have it sliced thin ?

Can you go any thinner ?

How many slices would a quarter of a pound be ?

Could I have a little more ?

Can you layer it so it doesn't all stick together ?

Then I hear the magic words to my ears

One deli clerk says to the other

I am going on break

I think

In the middle of a rush

You have to be mad

Yes out of your mind

The tension is so thick

The sharpest knife couldn't cut through

Who would do that with a clear conscious ?

What's this the post office ?

Now from three deli people to two

The other deli person is new

It's my turn now

You have to be patient and understanding

Instead of biting your tongue

Then cursing under your breath

I can hear you

Now I am going to go slower

Is that meat fresh ?

Do you have rarer roast beef ?

How are you suppose to say that ?

Do you have any roast beef more rare ?

I have been in every situation

Now you know why

I just want to let my emotions soar

Some how things always come up

We have a wake to go to

Someone with an illness

Expected to go

Bad timing

Now today of all days

I have to check the wash

I seen a leaky pipe

That is not good

I wish I could ignore it but I can't

My cat Charlotte has the right idea

Curled up on the chair next to me

In a cute little ball

With my soggy cereal laying in a bowl

With a mouthful and a half left

In bed I feel like a king

Where everything else doesn't seem to matter

As I beat my chest

The greatest feeling ever

Now with the wind charms ringing

A plane over head soaring

A car buzzing on our street

Things aren't always what they seem

The meaning is a lot deeper

So we have to dig deeper

The shadow of my railing on the deck

Is it just a secret ladder to climb

To a land that nobody can find