I am...a poem

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I am

By Tony DeLorger © 2012


I am appalled, dumbfounded,

angered, disillusioned,

and yet my focus

is on what I too can become.

In judgement

I fail myself,

create barriers,

live in denial,

and yet I perfect blame,

to bolster my illusion of worth.

I am driven,

to succeed, to gain wealth,

status and security,

yet in my wildest dreams,

I cannot quantify any of it,

not gain a single smile of value,

having leaned heavily on motivation,

and what I think gives purpose.

Yet I find an empty vessel,

void of all the happiness I expected,

the security I demanded

and the acquisitions I believed

would make me whole.

In the serenity of truth,

I am whole in the beginning,

and what I do is devalue

what I already know,

becoming lost inside,

connection with reality

an oversight.

How lost one can become in the herd,

following the hapless minds of the devout,

ever-justifying paths of plenty,

when plenty was the beginning,

not the end.

How does one find peace within the herd,

when one is cast aside,

irrelevant and scorned,

as the beast drives itself mindlessly,

and whoever follows rejoices in their ignorance,

giving thanks to the illusion.

When the shroud falls,

and one stands naked in the light,

there is no need to follow,

simply walk alone,

and in singularity there is multitude.



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Tony DeLorger 3 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

Thanks Girish, glad you enjoyed my words. Do drop in again.


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girishpuri 3 years ago from NCR , INDIA

Brilliant,

In the serenity of truth,

i am whole in the beginning......

very pure....God bless..


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Tony DeLorger 3 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

Thanks Rolly and welcome aboard. Hope I continue to impress with my thoughts and words.


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Rolly A Chabot 3 years ago from Alberta Canada

Hi Tony... well done and appreciate the way your words makes us think. Great work here.

Rolly in Canada


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dghbrh 3 years ago from ...... a place beyond now and beyond here !!!

Its my pleasure indeed ! God bless you.


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Tony DeLorger 3 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

You are kind Deegha, and again I'm glad you relate to my thoughts and work.


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dghbrh 3 years ago from ...... a place beyond now and beyond here !!!

Woowwwww this is another master stroke let me tell you. Just amazingly beautiful. I will sure follow my friend ImKarn ( Leslie )here......

"I am whole in the beginning..and what i do is devalue..and whoever follows rejoices in their ignorance...".....Its profoundly deep and moving. Thanks for sharing and I am sharing with up votes too.


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Tony DeLorger 3 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

All is fodder for the writer, Cre8tivOne. Thanks for your comment.


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cre8ivOne 3 years ago from Midwest, USA

Very good. I like to write about dark emotions too. We all have them somewhere and it's okay to talk about them.


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Tony DeLorger 3 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

Glad you approve Helen. Take care.


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brightforyou 3 years ago from Florida

Yes. Exactly. Lovely poem again about the truth. Thanks for sharing your insights so beautifully, Helen:-)


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Tony DeLorger 3 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

Glad you enjoyed Robin, thanks for dropping by.


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RobinGrosswirth23 3 years ago from New York

A very interesting meditation of the mind, a self reflection. At the end, yes, we come into this world alone, and alone we go. However, many have walked this path. BRAVO!


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Tony DeLorger 4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

Nice to meet you Epigramman, and as you say we are tarred with the same brush- and abject love for written expression and prose poetry.

I look forward to exploring your mind.


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epigramman 4 years ago

Tony I have found you ... at last ....another prolific poet with quantity and quality - actually you were born to write - I can tell and I've only read this one - nice balance here of soul searching, emotion and intellect - sending you warm wishes and good energy from lake erie time ontario canada 11:30pm and listening to Jonathan Richman and the Modern Lovers


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Tony DeLorger 4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

Thanks Leslie; a profound affect, so it seems. It is very rewarding when one gets this kind of response. Much appreciated. Have a great day.


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ImKarn23 4 years ago

this is brilliant - period! my mouth is hanging open! i will share it wherever possible - fb, hp, twitter..! "I am whole in the beginning..and what i do is devalue..and whoever follows rejoices in their ignorance..."

I 'walk alone' with you, my friend - cast aside and proud of it!

Thanks for this Tony..


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Tony DeLorger 4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

Thanks Cat, I'm glad you connect. Not so much self-judgement, but a statement about the human condition. That to me, is my task as a poet; to reveal, to inspire and to perhaps add to the understanding of this wonderful opportunity of life.


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cat on a soapbox 4 years ago from Los Angeles

Tony,

You're not alone. Here in L.A. you have a kindred spirit who gets the gist of your poem.

Don't judge yourself too harshly, my friend.

Cat :)

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Tony DeLorger 4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

Much appreciated SkeetyD. Thanks for dropping by.


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SkeetyD 4 years ago from Barbados

The duplicity of individuality and life. A daunting subject to put into prose but you did a great job with this poem.


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Tony DeLorger 4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia Author

Glad you connected whonunuwho. Thanks for your insightful comment.


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whonunuwho 4 years ago from United States

Our work reflects who we are and how we think... a well written piece and well received. There is multiplicity in being and an within individuals...that of the inner being and strong in spirit, that accepts no barriers as a final answer to our lives.

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