I believe its time for me to fly

Yes, I've borrowed the title from an REO Speedwagon song because it keeps going through my head over and over again. I need a vacation so badly. Just to get away, no stress, to enjoy some new scenery, to be anonymous, to write, and just not worry about being the consistent responsible ME for a while - I know that where ever you go you take you with you....but there is also a feeling of being able to transcend your stressful, responsible, uptight self.

I want to start this hub with a song...this one was a favorite of mine back in the 90's. My little sister and I went on a roadtrip across the country and we'd sing this at the top of our lungs whenever it came on the radio...

Heads Carolina, Tails California

It's Time

I believe its time

To set a new course for the wild frontier

Listen to the winds of change and set my sail

Usher out the old worn ways

The rose colored glasses I’ve hidden behind

And look life in the face and see it for what it is.

It’s time, past time

I’m much too old to be starting anew

But this is the hand I’ve played and

Now is the time to leave the table and get back to the daylight

Life is waiting, time to reengage.

There’s a road out there waiting for my wheels

Leading to the next place where I’ll make my home

I hear it in the North Wind – this time, it’s the last time

“You need to put down roots and hold on tight

Settle down and build a life

watch what blossoms all around

Let it all find you this time,

life doesn’t have to be so hard.”

And I shudder with an unfamiliar feeling

This gypsy wants to dance and follow the moon

But there’s nothing there for me now.

It would be my undoing.

Perhaps one day the Earth shall loosen its grip and the Moon will cry out

But those are just dreams and remnants of a time that I lived in a while ago

I’m not sad, I’m not longing for something else

I’m looking forward to a new adventure which will challenge me in a whole new way

Staying in one place may be the hardest thing I’ve ever done

No, it will be the hardest thing I’ve ever done.

And the responsibilities that accompany it will at times feel claustrophobic.

For a child of the mountains and oceans,

Who danced through valleys and soared in the clouds,

There is grace and beauty in a new mantra – Be Still.


I thought I would explain why I've published another highly personal piece when normally I don't...it's because I feel so much better after writing it. Freedom, if you will, and if it helps another person to read it, then it was worth it to share.

I wrote this piece after I made my summer vacation plans. I felt much better knowing I'd have a place to go to relax and just get everything together before moving forward into my next adventure. I'm calling the next phase "Be Still" - in everything I've studied about spirituality- enlightenment, true guidance, God/Goddess, your higher self, natural energy, etc. is best reached through prayer, meditation, asking for guidance and genuinely trusting in some energy outside of yourself to show you direction. Not man but something spiritual. I'll be living my life in the best way I know how with a concentration on "Be Still and Listen".

Namaste.

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Katharella 5 years ago from Lost in America

Get LOTSA PIX!!! :) Have fun!!!! Be safe!!:)


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mckbirdbks 5 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

I hope you were able to appease your restless gypsy spirit. Nice piece.


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Katharella 5 years ago from Lost in America

I was very tired last night.. you're not planning a trip this week! Duh! ::blush:: well, you are a better person, and it is his loss, and it's happened to all of us. It wasn't easy to put up my "stood up" hubs but I had to do it, just to get it out of my system! I wholeheartedly agree with mckbirdsbks! I know we do come out of these experiences better people. Wiser.

I dated the same guy for about 8 years, and after my shoulder and back injury I could not keep up with him and the plethora of riff raff he surrounded himself with, so I too left the situation, and while I'm in physical pain myself, I somehow feel as though someone pulled a thorn out of my foot and I no longer have to walk on eggshells like that!

:)


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CMCastro 5 years ago from Baltimore,MD USA

We should also listen to the inner voice and do what is best for ourselves. Taking care of "number one" is important. I am glad you are doing what makes you happy. The poem "Desiderata" is a good written piece that reflects the right way of thinking. Enjoy your vacation.


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

Erin, I believe we all have a little bit of the Gypsy Spirit hidden away inside. When we get that urge to fly, we fly, if only in our minds. I hope you find that Grace and Beauty in a new Manta. We all have to travel that road, but we do it in our own time. Thank you. You always enlighten me with your written thoughts.

Smiles and Hugs


jami l. pereira 5 years ago

Go camping , it may make you change your mind about a whole lotta things , but go alone lol , i thought i felt the same way you did so i chose a weekend , went 50 miles up the road to the nearest beach and went camping , girl ! it sucked soo hard ! lmao! that will never happen again , by myself ! lol just a thought ! have a great day! great write ! i really enjoyed this ! brought back a memory or three!:) take care


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Katharella, thanks so much for your words of encouragement. sounds like you read my other hub as well! Yes, made vacation plans for Sept. a whole week touring the beauty of Arizona. I've never been there just to enjoy the desert, the canyon and the sunsets! Looking so forward to a week of adventure, fun and healing :) Light and Love

Mck, my gypsy spirit has run my life, or rather, I've never stayed anywhere very long. It's been wonderful at times, but I've also missed out on a lot. I hope to have some new experiences and learn some valuable lessons in my new approach. I know I will. And I'll be writing all about it, you know! Thanks for the lovely thoughts. Light and Love

Christina, oh yes, but my inner voice can get me into trouble...she's a bit on the troublesome, playful side these days. :) I know exactly what you mean my friend, and will certainly check out your recommendation although I don't know if I agree that there is any one "right" way of thinking. Love you my friend.

Oh Ruby, my tie-dyed friend! We certainly do all have a little gypsy in us, don't we! I certainly haven't kept it hidden away, but I intend to let it take a back seat for a while - it needs to. I need some consistency. And flying in my mind is where it should stay for a while :) You know, on average, I have moved every 18 months, even if its just 50 miles away - and that has been for the last 24 years. I need to plant myself somewhere and learn how to make my home. Blessings my beautiful friend.

Jami, my camping days are over! I survived 12 years as a girl scout and even did some camping a few years ago for some outdoor festivals...but now, the marriot has spoiled me with those awesome mattresses. After my spine surgery, I just don't do outdoor sports very well yet. I do love the idea though. On my vacation I promise to take a hike - I have to get some great pictures of the Grand Canyon. I'm so glad you liked my hub, thanks for visiting! take care!


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS

Good for you, Erin. One should follow that inner voice and direction. If you need a break - have it and revel in it! Hugs. By the way - Arizona is a rich place to wander. Just be SURE always to take plenty of WATER!


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b. Malin 5 years ago

Well Erin, I Loved this piece. It was Beautiful, deep, very Heartfelt...and that Line "the gypsy wants to dance and follow the moon" is one of your Best ever lines...Take flight and find your soul my friend...and after reading this Poem, I think you have!


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Nellieanna, its so good to see you again! I want to dance through the desert! Don't worry, I lived in Colorado for many years, I know that at that altitude, WATER is liquid gold! I am so looking forward to vacation and it will be fun, my aunt is going with me, she's always positive and wanting to explore and see beautiful things! Take care my friend! hugs.

barb, hello! thanks so much! Oh my inner gypsy is so strong, its going to be hard to keep her under wraps...but I am so looking forward to being still if I can! I'm so glad you love that line...I just want to dance in my own back yard for a while! take care my friend!


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Christina, the Desiderata video you emailed me was absolutely perfect, thank you so much! I've passed it on through facebook but if anyone needs it through . email me and I'll be glad to forward the link, take care my friend!


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

Oh, I just enjoyed a wonderful new adventure which surely challenged me in a whole new and exciting way. Reviewing I realize how much I needed a holiday (with David, the most adorable Welshman). It enabled me to end another ‘was-there-done-that-chapter’ in my life and to start a brand new one, feeling rejuvenated and filled with energy. I know you will feel the same after your holiday even though it will have a total different character as mine. Enjoy!


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Hello Martie, I'm so happy you shared your adventure with David with us!!! Yes, I need an adventure but of the opposite kind hahaha - but you're right, rejuvenation and energy are the goals! take care my friend!


Genna East 5 years ago

"For a child of the mountains and oceans,

Who danced through valleys and soared in the clouds,

There is grace and beauty in a new mantra – Be Still."

Beautiful words. I know that gypsy spirit too, Erin. But it also rests in the heart and the mind that can wander and discover so many magical places...especially, when one is as creative as you. Be well, my friend, and "Namaste." Hugs.


Fay Paxton 5 years ago

Oh Erin, I can certainly relate to this. I can see it now. I'd let the top down, blast that song and speed on down the highway. Now I feel restless. :)

up/beautiful


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

Fay, Pick me up. I'm out here on route 66, hitching. I 'reckon i got too many bags, ( No not bags under my eyes ) Gun it Girl, it's hot out here.

Cheers

Hi Erin HEE


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

So good to see you Genna! Yes, I agree, in our minds we are gypsies who wander nightly among the moons and stars even if we do stay close to home physically. Namaste :)

Fay, if you and Ruby are restless and taking a drive on Route 66, you'll have to let me know - I think I'll fly down there and meet you for the trip! Thanks for the votes!

Ruby, I think you are fishing for copy for another of your famous adventure hubs...let me know if I'm not wandering about to catch it! Don't forget Nell, Fossillady and Epi. I think they've probably sufficiently recovered from Woodstock!


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epigramman 5 years ago

.....sounds like ON THE ROAD by JACK KEROUAC and on the way, drop in and see me by the lake of Erie and say hello to Colin and his cats ..... you're always welcome here - I live but a 100 feet or so from the biggest pond in the world - and I would just love to hang out with you Erin because you're one of my favorite writers here at the Hub - and you have always supported me ........


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Colin, thanks for dropping by - and you know if I was traveling that way I would certainly stop in and see you if I had my passport! (I never travel without it anyway, never know where I might end up!)


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sligobay 5 years ago from east of the equator

Hello Erin: Your haiku brought me back to you. Business has kept me too busy to spend much time on Hub Pages, much to my chagrin. To follow the Honorable Colin of Erie is indeed another treat - the "Canadian Katmandu".

An intellectual journey through this beautiful article is often as good as any other trip. Enjoy Arizona. Be still!

Your destination may be home, just as was Dorothy's in the Wizard of Oz. "There's no place like home" and click the heels of your ruby slippers. There's no place like home. "If I'm going looking for my heart's desires, they may be no further than my own back yard". Be still and you will hear your spirit. Great write!

PS: I loved the video and can just envision you singing that song with your sister at the top of your lungs.


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saddlerider1 5 years ago

Erin, there is a time when we all have to look deep inside out hearts and souls and decide what paths me must take to make us the happiest. Sometimes they are painful, like shedding the old skin to grow a new one and feel revitalized.

As I've aged I have felt the closeness to nature,water, winds, rain and the forest. My spirit soars mostly when I am amongst these elements. Like you, I am an old spirit once lived on the open plains or marshes or rough terrain.

I yearn for the open sky. So my friend, I have been away a spell and come back to write once more. Peace be with you and may your journey help you find the divine self within you. Hugs and blessings from afar.....but always close in verse.


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Hello Gerry,

Its so good to see you again, and so glad you found time to visit me! I'm glad you liked this article and believe me, I intend to soak in all Arizona has to offer (we're staying mainly around Sedona) and I intend to tap into that powerful vortex of energy there to inspire me!

The Wizard of Oz was my favorite movie as a child. Its funny how its only taking 30+ years for that message to sink in! I guess we only hear what we want to hear sometimes :)

I will be still, thank you. Except when that song comes on, I still sing it madly. I do "Wide Open Spaces" pretty well too. (in the privacy of my car)

Take care my friend.


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

SaddleRider,

First of all, I am so happy to hear you have come back to write. I've missed you! I've been doing a lot of soul searching, introspection and learning these past few months as evidenced by this hub, and am ready to shed another skin because the new one is almost ready.

I'm at the same place you are my friend. I need my wide open spaces, close to nature, and I need to feel my feel on the earth. I need to feel the power and emotions of water, the unseen strength in air, and gather all I can from the wisdom of the moon and sun. Soak it all in. Hence, right now, the journey is taking me to Arizona.

Next time I hope it will take me to the Mediterranean...I'm feeling a bit more adventurous and wanting to connect with more water and the old country as well! (I'm of Irish descent - but I'm feeling more like I need some warm weather!)

Take care my friend, and I'll visit you soon. Brightest Blessings.


Doug Turner Jr. 5 years ago

Very honest; this flowed nicely. I'm glad you find such relief in writing -- even when it's personal. Art forms are such a gift to us. Peace and blessings.


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

Thanks so much for visiting and commenting Doug. Its so nice to see you again. Brightest Blessings my friend.


jami l. pereira 5 years ago

I had to return and re read this , it was so beautiful and inspiring , and i also wonder if you have gone to the grand canyon yet ??? :)


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland Author

hi jami,

mid sept...going to sedona, AZ for most of the trip but we will find our way up to the canyon. I'm looking forward to the beautiful sunsets, and the desert landscape. Thanks for revisiting!

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