I come back again- A Poem about Love Gone Wrong

The Darkness of the Night

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Sometimes it comes down to finding your inner peace, and then flying away.

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It didn't start out this way


This is a story of darkness

But it didn’t start out that way.

This is a story of love,

That I could not leave to walk away.


There are screams in the dark,

Beyond these windows all I see is the night,

I finally feel broken- I feel as if I lost,

And I am tired of the battles that are leading up to the war.


You never admit when you are wrong,

Always say I am not right.

I cannot breathe within these walls,

I cannot see anything beyond the darkness of the night.


I feel defeated,

It doesn’t matter,

It is already too late-

No point in asking for God to save us.

This is the destruction we both had a hand to create,


Screams enter the rooms,

Words are lost,

Minds are gone.

Look at what we just cost.


This isn’t what I had in mind-when I tried writing our love song.

The words are tangled in taunted memories of times I am not sure what went wrong.

I hate the moment the situation at hand,

I hat not knowing if tomorrow I will be prepared for where I must stand.


I know it is not my enemy,

This is not my time,

It is my fault,

I couldn’t let go of the screams in the darkness of the nights.


You are gone- I am gone.

The mess that we made- I cannot find the words to write that perfect song.


What is wrong with you?

What the hell is wrong with me?

Sometimes I wake up and I am preparing myself to bleed.


Keep from insanity,

From crawling within my skin,

I am not left of paradise,

I am lost from everything I ever held within.


Broken promise to stand by your side,

Broken promises you can’t make up and you cannot hide.

I wake up to the darkness of another December day.

I can’t tell the time- I can’t remember my name.


You taunt-you say-you lie-you take,

Plant the fear under my skin-;

I resist I scream- I hate- I come back again.


Is this your dream?

The way you thought love should be.

Or is this just a game,

Of how you take over me?


You lost your mind,

You lost your cool,

You lost my love-

The day you broke me and took away my world.


*Thank you for reading my poem- please comment and leave me some feedback.


The truth of the text behind this poem.

I wrote this awhile back, and have come back over and over again to edit, to improve, to select the video-the pictures-to make the feelings what the feelings were. Although this is not the current place I am in, in my life- I do know the harshness of these feelings when love is anything but a love song, I have been there. I have hurt, I have suffered and I had to close my eyes and walk away before I was taken away from who it is I am. To anyone in a relationship that feels as if they are taking in poison each time they take a breath, please take a moment to see yourself and what you deserve, because no one deserves to hurt. No one deserves to suffer...NO ONE...

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Deborah Brooks 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

wow I really love your poem it is beautiful...The battles are tiring .you are so right.. these lines are beautiful..

Broken promise to stand by your side,

Broken promises you can’t make up and you cannot hide

voted up

have a wonderful evening

Debbie


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Thank you Deborah, I appreciate the comment. Love seems to be a constant battle between reality and feelings of the heart and mind. I am not too sure the two ever make total sense? Maybe it isnt suppose to? Thanks again for commenting!


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales

Oh yes great words and wonderful images also added.

Truly beautiful and I vote up.

Take care;

Eddy.


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Eiddwen, thank you for your comment and support- so glad that you enjoyed the poem.


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Nikkij504gurl 4 years ago from Louisiana

I have been there too. and I agree. No one deserves to be in a relationship like that. Get out while you can. i know its hard but theres only so much you can take before you realize its not worth it.


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Rolly A Chabot 4 years ago from Alberta Canada

Hugs Holly... what a great poem you have written from the heart are the words of a true writer... well done and voted across the board.

Hugs from Canada


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duffsmom 4 years ago from Pacific Northwest, USA

well done.


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zeke2100 4 years ago

I really like the very first picture of the dark night and moon. Good first picture. Liked the poem. I didn't understand all of the butterfly pictures. They just felt out of place, like they didn't really fit with the words of the poem.

Good job.


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mary615 4 years ago from Florida

Love your poem, love your photos, too. Great work!


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Nikkij504gurl- thanks for the comment. No one should hurt in love...love should bring you to life not closer to death.


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Thank you Rolly, I appreciate the comment. I know what it is like to hurt deep inside like this, and I know it is better once you walk away from it...Thanks for the comment again.


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

duffsmom- thank you for reading and commenting


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

zeke2100- thank you for coming by and commenting. I see your point about the butterfly pictures in comparison to the dark night sky and words of this poem... but they do have a purpose and a reason I choose them. The night sky is where you love when you live with abuse...The butterflies are the world your mind escapes to to survive it. Hope that makes sense. :)


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Mary615- thank you, thank you! I appreciate you reading and commenting :)


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writer20 4 years ago from Southern Nevada

Wonderful poem, with all of your hard in it. Voted up and beautiful.


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

thank you writer20, i appreciate the comment and am glad that you enjoyed the poem. :)


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Capedium 4 years ago from Texas.

It is very beautiful!


Gina Joy Bennett 4 years ago

Great job H.C! The dark cloud with light behind it is such a good example of how the heart & mind feel in a bad relationship. You're in the dark but light is just beyond reach.


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Ardie 4 years ago from Neverland

Excellent yet sad poem Holly and sadly I can sympathize with that time in your life. I am so glad to read you are no longer at this point. You are a beautiful girl inside and out and you deserve happiness :)


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Thank you capedium- I appreciate the feedback!


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Thank you Gina for commenting on the poem. Nicely said, "You're in the dark but light is just beyond reach."


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Thanks Ardie- That is a beautiful thing to say to a person, and I truly appreciate it. Life sure does have its wonderful ups and downs... I keep trying to learn from both in hopes that I will be a better person and writer for each.


Avni 4 years ago

i am going thru d same situation..i dunno what to do..reading your poetry makes me feel that this is what is going with me..you are a wonderful writer..

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