I dared

I'll lay here and bleed...
I'll lay here and bleed... | Source

9/12/2013

I dared... and I don't regret
as I lay here bleeding & near death
at the hands of the person I would least expect
For fighting a battle in their defense
the surprise and the pain steal my breath

It chokes me as I wilt and bend
but its something I would do again
after all, I was made to mend
being cast aside like worthless tin
is painful but wont bring my end

How could you turn your blade on me
How could you swing so carelessly
I have never been your enemy
still you cut me viciously
I never asked you for anything

Hurt and I get along so well
we are always together thru hell
in coping and handling it, I excel
Its the one constant embrace when I want to be held
Its the companionship that I wished for once in a well

I didn't expect anything in return
by pouring into you, my spirit came out of its urn
but this isn't the way I thought I would get burned
and there isn't even a lesson to learn
because I am who I am no matter how the road turns

It's my true nature, the way that I am
I give off love and am a true friend
I do all that I can in the time I'm given
I was wrong to trust the message you'ld send
I know that everything that begins must end

wrong to actually consider wanting again

As I lay here bleeding out
I know that there is no doubt
it doesn't matter what comes about
even knowing on you I can't count
the feelings remain the same throughout

The time just passes over me
it feels like an eternity
I can't die but I can be emptied
but it will never stop the love in me
and I can't hate anybody

So its just my pain and me...
we dance in darkness blissfully...
You were loved and will always be
Alone is just my destiny
and I am not allowed to need


© 2013 Lissette

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Romeos Quill 3 years ago from Lincolnshire, England

Quite a macabre tale of betrayal you have written here, Moms-Secret,; seems like opening a book about three-quarters of the way through, and landing on this piece of fine, but disturbing drama....the questions come....why?, how? when?, but refuses to let her love turn to hate.Intriguing.

Best Wishes,

R.Q.


newenglandsun 3 years ago

I can feel a void in you.


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writinglover 3 years ago from Lost...In Poetry

Wow. I can feel the emptiness in this one. In spite of the betrayal, the narrator remains in love and refuses to let that love be tainted by hate. Well written and voted it up!


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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

I so wish I could not relate to this piece because I can literally feel your pain. Losing a dear friend is so hard and often doesn't even seem worth the price of the battle.

Oh, hugs to you! I know there's nothing to say that makes the pain much less. From experience, though, thank God time eases the sting even if the scars always remain.


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cleaner3 3 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

great poetry .. ..!

Michael


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Mhatter99 3 years ago from San Francisco

Stunning... Thank you for the experience


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Frank Atanacio 3 years ago from Shelton

Moms I paused when I read this piece and I really love this line

So its just my pain and me...

we dance in darkness blissfully...


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wayne barrett 3 years ago from Clearwater Florida

Great work Michael. Thumbs up!


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Fine and disturbing... I kinda like the fitting description. Nice to see you here Romeo. I think darkness and sadness is beautiful and I love sparking questions and conversations in others. I am glad you came.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Hi Daniel... I doubt anyone alive has made it thru without a void of some sort. I don't deny mine.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Thank you Writinglover. I am glad that you can really feel it. Emptiness comes to us all at some point. Makes the piece very relatable, unfortunately. The fight in it is what is not often seen... also unfortunate.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Very nice to meet you sweet shanmarie. Offering hugs at the very first meet speaks kindly of your spirit. Makes me wish you couldn't relate so well.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Hi Michael. I am glad that you liked it. You are usually more of a conversationist. Makes me wonder what this struck in you to take your words away.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Thank you for coming to visit me so often hatter... It makes me happy.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Frank, I do love the rare occasions when I can stop you in your tracks and cause a pause. The line is special to me too.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Hahaha, Wayne... I so appreciate your comment and love that you came but my name is Lissette.


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wayne barrett 3 years ago from Clearwater Florida

Blushing...I knew that, but was responding to too many pieces at one time. I promise, George, I'll never let it happen again! : )


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Hahahahaha! This is great Wayne... I can't pull off a George or Michael...


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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

Haha, George Michael. At least a hug at first meet is not creepy.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

I saw the same thing after I commented, George Micheal... lol. Not creepy at all.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Well... That is random techno... doubt you even read it.


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Anna Haven 3 years ago from Scotland

Darkly beautiful. There is lots of power and pain in your words. Nicely penned.


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cleaner3 3 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

hello ..Lissette, thank you for replying . I only replied to the poem because I like the poetry , and always leave a reply to be respecrful of your write as I hope all who read my work would do for me . (even if they say my work stinks ..LOL)but the deep hurt of expression , left me feeling sad and dark which is a place I do not like be.. if I offended you I am sorry .. but I love the poem .!

I also love your name .. Lissette.. that is a beautiful name !

Michael


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Very nice to meet you Anna Haven. I am so grateful for you compliments. They brought a smile especially since I like to balance power and pain, dark and beauty, etc.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

You have yet to offend Michael, no worries. You just spoil me with the number of words you respond with and when I saw your comment here it made me wonder if everything was ok. I am extremely difficult to offend, I wouldn't worry about that if I were you. :)

Thank you for complimenting my name. I have always been fond of it and what it means. Its so much better than what my Dad would have picked for me... I mean, Veronica is a nice name but it really wouldn't have suited me. Thank Goodness for stubborn Moms!


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billybuc 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

Well that was quite an introduction to your writing. I love the flow and rhythm of your poetry. As for the darkness....I've lived with it and you captured it perfectly. No regrets...I think experiencing darkness is necessary to truly love life as I do today. :)


Alice Ann Day 3 years ago

I loved reading this and need to read it again. I want to know more. It was really quite sad.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Welcome Billy, thank you for coming. I am with you. I think we were designed in a way that can't really appreciate the simplicity of light with out having our time thru dark storms. I find it a bit sad actually.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Very nice to meet you Alice. I am happy that you enjoyed it and there is a huge compliment in wanting to read it again. I can't thank you enough. Feel free to ask anything you would like to know. Questions make for great conversations after all.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

Wonderful poetry ;you are indeed so very talented and here's to many more.

Eddy,


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Thank you so much Eiddwen, for the visit and the wonderful compliments. I hope there will be many more too. Been a little tied up these days. :)

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