I kill myself daily
I love you though you hurt me.
I look up to you though I don't understand why you put me through this pain.
you were suppose to protect me from these feelings.
but you are the one who puts the wounds inside me.
My heart is damaged with no chance of healing.
I look in the mirror and see an empty shell.
all the darkness consumes me.
and I hate myself for what I have become.
I hate you for what you have made me.
I find something wrong with me everyday
thoughts of suicide consume me and I have no one to turn to
I know I will amount to nothing but
i can't push myself to go through
so many people depend on me
but I cant keep fighting you and I cant fight myself
I am so close to giving up
I talk myself off the edge on a daily basis
Shouldn't be this messed up inside
but let me take the time to thank you for screwing me up this bad
everything in my life is just a lie
I kill myself on daily basis
to try to find a reason to stay alive