I kill myself daily

I love you though you hurt me.

I look up to you though I don't understand why you put me through this pain.

you were suppose to protect me from these feelings.

but you are the one who puts the wounds inside me.

My heart is damaged with no chance of healing.

I look in the mirror and see an empty shell.

all the darkness consumes me.

and I hate myself for what I have become.

I hate you for what you have made me.

I find something wrong with me everyday

thoughts of suicide consume me and I have no one to turn to

I know I will amount to nothing but

i can't push myself to go through

so many people depend on me

but I cant keep fighting you and I cant fight myself

I am so close to giving up

I talk myself off the edge on a daily basis

Shouldn't be this messed up inside

but let me take the time to thank you for screwing me up this bad

everything in my life is just a lie

I kill myself on daily basis

to try to find a reason to stay alive

Comments 7 comments

TattoGuy 6 years ago

Love the intro photo, love the video, love the poem. Naturally I love my fav poet, I now look forward to yer next poem, you rock my friend !

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Cheeky Girl 6 years ago from UK and Nerujenia

Hy Chrissie, whew, this is dark here. But you put things right out there for the world to see, with your powerful and moving words. The sense of "Killing" yourself "...on a daily basis to find a reason to stayt alive" - it is something many of us do, on many levels. Always a moving experience seeing the world thorugh your eyes. A great Hub.

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gjfalcone 6 years ago from Gilbert, Arizona

I consider myself a hopeless romantic which I attribute many of my serious flaws. If everything in my life was a lie it would be so much easier. I can't tell the difference between the 2. Once again the dagger hit the heart of the matter.

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DREAM ON 6 years ago

You go deep down right into the heart of emotion.You can share your deepest discoveries and explain more than you know.Nice work.

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chrissie123 6 years ago Author

thanks everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!

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AntoineAllen 6 years ago from New York City

Amazing Hub.

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BeccaHubbardWoods 6 years ago from Outside your window...

I can't believe I'm just now finding you on here. I could have very well been reading one of my own poems here. So naturally I'm going to love it. Wonderful work. : )

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