I loved them as much as life

There is this photo  that just dazzles me  a gift from a sweet friend  Fennelseed
There is this photo that just dazzles me a gift from a sweet friend Fennelseed

A slightly dark write about my life these days ...............yet all is well!


It is these holidays that always remind
me well of traditional family love
Either the sweet and sour
though gentllest love of
brothers

Or of long gone mom and
dad and all that they
meant
When we were young
poverty had not a hold on us
though love always did

And now many a remembered
hour I spend alone
with my memories lit like
a soft single bulb
of which color
to choose

Green ? memories to remind me of the
pines tall and full of
echoes of yelling
young boys
playing aloft

Burned orange like the
golden turkey breast layed before a growing
families
bright and starving
blue eyes of each
child

Or red and hot like the broken
and bleeding flesh
of two sons dying along
a lonely unforgiving
highway

Yes there are as many memories
as there are colored
lights each
lasting its own
long hours
of eternity

But then life just IS at
times memory itself
And if memories are all there is left
thats just fine
with me

Just know that I loved you then and now
more than life itself
That is the way it is
and will always be




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LadyFiddler 4 years ago from Somewhere in the West

Hi ahorseback this was splendid i love it and it made tears come to my eyes. Life is really something else so many stages we have to go through, so many things we have to bid goodbye as life keeps going on , from a baby to a toddler to a young child to a teenager to adult, parent , grand parent etc.

Memories are good to keep. God has made our brain a very remarkable body part the things we remember seems like our memory stick got space in it forever. No limit to GB

Thanks so much for sharing

A pleasant weekend to you


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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Lady Fiddler ! Greetings my dear, Happy belated Turkey day to you ! oh yes ......memories ! Thank you for stopping by and have you dicided yet to play the fiddle for me ! I have been waiting and waiting !lol.....I hope you are well !


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cleaner3 4 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

great write my friend . family memories are the best . happiness and sadness all are great .


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BlossomSB 4 years ago from Victoria, Australia

We learn so much by looking back and reviving past happinesses and our memories can teach us so much about how to face the future. You wrote this so well and thank you for expressing what so many feel.


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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Cleaner , yes sir they are . When all else is gone we have memory ! Thanks for visiting !


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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Blossom , you are so kind ! Thank you .


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always exploring 4 years ago from Southern Illinois

This one hit home with me, so many gone and the holidays seem to remind us of the good times..Loved it. Thank you for memories..


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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Hi Always , spending this one alone so memories are me today ! Thanks for sharing !


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VioletSun 4 years ago from Oregon/ Name: Marie

As usual your poetry touches me. You captured the sadness and the joy that life gives us.

Voted up and beautiful. They should have a "feeling" button and I would choose "touching." :)


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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

My Lady Violet sun ! Thank you so much , I hope you are well!......:-}


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Denise Handlon 4 years ago from North Carolina

Mournful, but beautiful. I am so sorry for the losses you've experienced of your sons and other family members. Some days are more difficult than others to continue to move forward.

Your poetry is always refreshing to read, no matter what the subject. I love the use of colors and the imagery it evokes. Thank you for sharing this and I hope you have a peaceful weekend. :)


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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Denise Hi , thank you for sharing this with me ! Yesterday I was in the woods near here and standing near an old cellar hole from the last century , where an old farm was and it got me to thinking of pasts!


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Denise Handlon 4 years ago from North Carolina

How interesting. It always amazes me how our creative muse plays in our head and appears at just the right moment. It's been awhile since I've written any poetry...I'm sure the walk through the woods was invigorating.


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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Denise , Yes it was ......come on take my hand I'll show you !lol......yes a picture , a place , one word even ! All just the beginning of another hub ! Bless you girl.


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Ardie 4 years ago from Neverland

I'm so glad this Hub came across my feed. Memories - good and bad - are what make us who we are. The good memories keep us going and the bad memories can be fuel for greatness as well. Thank you for sharing your memories =) Now I'm off to follow so I dont miss your next write.


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and awesome. This is so lovely. Memories are so precious when we can't be with the ones we love. Passing this on.


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b. Malin 4 years ago

Ah Memories, Happy & Sad and Poignant...but Memories never the less. The right words, written and Expressed so Beautifully, as only you can, Ahorseback. Thank You.


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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Ardie Your too kind and I'll follow you as well , Thank you !


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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Gypsy yes ! And on we write together !


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Denise Handlon 4 years ago from North Carolina

I'll take that walk with you-your woods or mine? lol


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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Bmalin , Thank you dear ! You are so kind !....:-}


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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Denise .......my friend , W'ell wak both ,You tell me you're secrets and I'm gonna use em against ya !.....LOL thank you ......:-}Thank you so much


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shiningirisheyes 4 years ago from Upstate, New York

Oh my dear friend - tears and heartache for so many hard memories we keep. I send my gratitude for writing and sharing what can only be a difficult melancholy hub that I can relate, all too well.

Know there is someone else sharing the world with you who's holidays are spent exactly as yours are. It can be a very quite place, this large house I roam through.


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Denise Handlon 4 years ago from North Carolina

Secrets? I have no secrets...all of my secrets have been written about for all to see here on Hubpages, LOL


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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Ha! Denise , Me too! ..........:-}


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Denise Handlon 4 years ago from North Carolina

:) I'm sure you have, :)


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Minnetonka Twin 4 years ago from Minnesota

Dear ahorseback-Life is quite a journey of hills and valley's and you convey it so well in your touching poem. Your writing is lovely and I hit many buttons and voted up.


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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Minnetonka Twin girl ! Thank you as always !


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DDE 4 years ago from Dubrovnik, Croatia

A trip down memory lane, with family is my favourite


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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

DDE ,They sure are aren't they ! There is nothing finer !


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craiglyn 3 years ago from Ontario, Canada

OK - fine - here I am, intending on doing some work - and I am sitting reading your poetry. Another beautiful and heartfelt work - memories of those we have lost, but who forever remain in our hearts. Thank you, thank you, thank you! I will come back and read some more. : )


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ahorseback 3 years ago Author

Lynda !And now as a new friend I can give you this poem ! I know you feel it too!........Ed

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