I miss you Mama.

Childhood Loss

I miss you Mama

Now I'm growing old,

Just as I've missed you,

since I was ten years old.

And all those years in between,

I missed you, Mama, even as a teen.


When other girls rebelled

I'd have given anything

To have you to rebel against,

to hear you say I'm home too late.

And you've been staring at the garden gate,

worrying about my fate.

Instead...........I missed you Mama.

Dad sure did his best,

but how can any father

replace a mom like you.

I've missed you for so long,

Each word I write is true.


I did my best with little brother.

Cuddled him and played his games,

But most of all, I'm sure you'd guess

I told him stories.. Made up names.

Made up allsorts. He laughed again.

It seemed so long but laugh again he did,

And grew to be a real good man,

He helps others whenever he can.


Oh! I miss you Mama,

please have no doubt,

the years were long... life without

your tender smile, your warm embrace,

Aromas of your perfume

still waft across my face.

The memories come flooding back.

Memory smells, Apple blossom,

Memory smells, we all have got them.

My memories are locked inside,

I need, from others to always hide

our treasured time together.

Because it was so short.

I keep our precious memories

safe inside my thoughts.

Locked within a Treasure chest,

Hidden in my heart.

The only things I have of you,

wrapped in gold....... forever true.

I try so hard to make it real.....

Seeing you again.

But my faith is weak, I do still try,

Remembering there was no ' '' Goodbye'' ,

So I HAVE to see you once again,

Run to you and hold you tight,

And never let you go again..


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penlady 3 years ago from Sacramento, CA

Very touching. I know as I get older, it won't be long before my mother is no longer with me. I don't look forward to that day. So, I try to enjoy the days we have left together.

And your beautiful poem is a strong remainder to do just that.

Thanks for sharing. Voted up and beautiful.


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Angela Blair 3 years ago from Central Texas

This piece is absolutely beautiful -- and I know your mom is smiling because I do believe those we love always know we love them -- whether with us or in heaven. I know I depend on that when I talk to my son. Best/Sis


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Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

Very heartfelt and powerful as to the love one has for one's mother who has gone on. My sweet mother went on to be with the Lord this past Christmas. I sure do miss her, but I know I will see her again. That will be a glorious day no doubt. Of course, I was blessed to have her my whole life, as she lived to be 84.

Thank you for such a beautiful write here.

Voted up ++++ and sharing

God bless, Faith Reaper


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Dim Flaxenwick 3 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thhank you penlady. I appreciate your comment


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Dim Flaxenwick 3 years ago from Great Britain Author

Dear Angela your comment brought tears to my eyees in thr sweetest possible way. Thank you.


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Dim Flaxenwick 3 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thank you faith reaper.whatever age our mums die the pain is just as bad.No one can replace our real mother.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

Such a touching gem Dim;I love it.

Eddy.


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Dim Flaxenwick 3 years ago from Great Britain Author

Hi Eiddwen. Glad you liked it. Thank you for taking the time to comment.


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vocalcoach 3 years ago from Nashville Tn.

Dim ~ This is deeply touching and beautiful. We always and forever need and miss our mamas. I know your mama is very proud of you and this beautiful tribute.


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Dim Flaxenwick 3 years ago from Great Britain Author

Thank you vocalcoach for su a sweet comment


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Monis Mas 3 years ago

Di, your poem is so absolutely beautiful and touching, it put tears into my eyes. This kind of love and loss is painful, but also so pure.


Vickiw 3 years ago

Hello Dim, this is a really wonderful and heartfelt poem. I cannot imagine how awful it was to grow up with this loss. Thank you for sharing this with us. Your mother would be so proud and happy to know how you have valued her.


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Dim Flaxenwick 3 years ago from Great Britain Author

Hi monis mas. Thank you so much for the beautiful comment.

Sorry to make you cry yet at the same time l take it as a compliment.


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Dim Flaxenwick 3 years ago from Great Britain Author

Hi Vickiw. A beautiful comment encourages me so much. Thank you.


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Dim Flaxenwick 3 years ago from Great Britain Author

Hello aminahachine. Pleased to meet you on hubpages. Your comment is a superb compliment. I like to think that you are right about my mom being proud of me.

Take care.


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epigramman 3 years ago

I miss my mama too and she was the best friend I ever had. Always love your beautiful heart in your writing.

I just spent most of the day yesterday in the local ER with a heart condition but they let me go home with a heart monitor and I must return to the hospital tomorrow for further testing.

I sincerely hope all is well with you my dear friend and that you had a good trip away. I am resting comfortably today and will keep in touch with you as to any impending news of my health. Sending you my warmest wishes from Colin and his cats at lake erie time canada 5:36pm


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Dim Flaxenwick 3 years ago from Great Britain Author

Hi Colin Thanks for taking time out to comment. You obviously have enough to worry about with your health.

I will.keep you in my prayers and please get well soon.

Love and hugs

Veronica.


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epigramman 3 years ago

Your TLC , my dear Veronica, keeps me moving forward and I am thinking of you too ......


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Dim Flaxenwick 3 years ago from Great Britain Author

Ditto....... xx


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epigramman 3 years ago

I just had another chest/heart x-ray today my dear Veronica and my family doctor over the phone said my blood work is good but to come in on Friday about my heart tests ..... so far so good and sending you warm wishes and 3 big Canadian hugs from Colin and his cats at lake ere time 1:51pm


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Dim Flaxenwick 3 years ago from Great Britain Author

I'll be thinking of you on Friday.

So far so good. God bless.

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