I should have listened to my instincts

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are grey, you never know dear how much i love you, please don't take my sunshine away...

I was so happy when you came into our lives, your mother and i promised each other to bring you up in the most adorable way and you changed everything about me, you are my sunshine, my hands and legs and to crown it all, you gave me the chance to be a Daddy. I named you Sunshine from the day your mother told me that she was pregnant.


Julie, why?


This isn't the way we planned it, you assured me that everything was going to be aright and against my honest will, i let you go. Oh! i would have stopped you from travelling, i should have listened to my instincts, we agreed that we will do everything together, go to everywhere together, why did i let you go alone?

I cried for him to spare both of you and take me when i saw you lying helpless on the stretcher, you never know dear how much i love you, the other night, i dreamed that i held you once again in my arms then i realized that it was just dreams when i finally woke up, Julie you told me that you loved me that nothing would come between us but here i am baby, you are gone and Sunshine too, death snatched both of you away from me.


Everything we planned has shattered and my world has crumbled all because of your death, where do i start and how do i start? Tell me how i should live without both of you, there is no more joy in my existence and memories of both of you hunt me as if i made a terrible mistake allowing you to travel alone. Did i make a mistake? I was supposed to join you the next weekend but if only you had listened Julie, Sunshine would have been one year today. I am so confused and wish that death could just seize me, Lord if it is possible, please take my life because this world is so lonely without Julie and Sunshine.


Dedicated to all Fathers who have lost wife and daughter (child)


You are not alone
God is your strength
No one would understand
But your pain is felt above
Be strong and move on
For they are in good hands
Be strong, you are not alone

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Frank Atanacio 7 months ago from Shelton

wow a wonderful piece here.. a great share.. so raw and emotional


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DreamerMeg 7 months ago from Northern Ireland

What a sad story. And the survivor is left alone, feeling guilty when there is probably nothing they could have done about it.


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Rossimobis 7 months ago from Biafra Author

Yea Frank, so emotional, thanks for ur comment...

DreamerMeg, you know survivors dream for a way out but always can't help it. Thanks for reading and for contributing too.

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