If I blink will this go away?
If I wake will this all just be a dream?
Could it be that you and me are actually starting to…
I had hopes, I thought you crushed them.
Dreams you dismissed.
I lost hope, found acceptance.
Fell down got back up.
For weeks and months I prayed that god would give me strength
If he was really there, if he really cared could he please…
I guess that’s why they say be careful what you pray
Because I just got it.
I’m scared to let you in
To be true to be a friend
I know it hurts you when I say I don’t trust you
But please understand
I’m scared of the me I am when I’m with you
The girl of “one more chance.”
The girl who promises herself she’s not going to cry
Then the next day stands in the mirror as more tears slip through her eyes
The girl who hates herself, whishes she had the mind, strength willpower of anyone else.
The girl who is an embarrassment to her friends, family, former life
That’s why I killed her; I know the day second minute she died.
You are the only one who can resurrect her, bring her back as me
Let her control my life.
So as we sit here tonight
Laugh, kiss, and not fight
I’m scared to blink,
Her in my eyes.