I'll be there...

 

I'll be there...

And where is "there"...? questionable isn't it. You feel like you know yourself

and you understand what life wants from you...Honesty, love ( which we all

search for and want) I mean we are human, it is only naturaL...We feel so

loved when an infant and really mostly while we are growing, but there comes

a time when we (very young) realize it is a tough thing ...Love... it is from the

heart? yet is so hurtful at times. Am I really wanted? needed? loved? or

am I just the mistake of nature.

There is a reason why...as I close my eyes and dream of the memories made

over the years and I sit here crying...tears running down from my heart, not my

eyes, into the puddle of life, as a puddle forms from the weather, one is

formed from the weather of life, and it is so quickly here and then gone.

Evaporated into nothingness, meaningless, wonderness.

Can I really go on? Am I really who I think I am? Why are the moments forgotten

so quickly? Well are they truly forgotten or lost into things that do not matter

anymore ? Do you just catch your breath so you can breath and keep

trying to keep the body going, it is a miracle ( the body ) wanting to

live it is the one thing I have and all I can judge or compare anything else too...

I hate to wake you , so I can say goodbye, hold me like you can never let

me go and I so hate to go, but so much is out of my control, I just know you

are here and mine forever. Smile for me and know I Love you and soon the

time will be here ...there is no control over what the Lord has in the plan for

my life.

There have been many things given to me to enjoy...My God, My husband,

My children, and my friends, grand children, geat grandchildren and the

love of many others, and sometimes I don't even remember their names.

They are in my heart and my soul, pumping up my reasons for being here.

As I dance through life and sing the songs of love that is always there if only

to be seen and recognized in time...time is a fast moving thing that waits

for no one...There is always another road to decide to take...and which one

do I follow ?...there is always a turn in the road, somewhere. I will pray

to make the the best choice in faith and hope and in love. Love drives me on

and on and what else is there?

You feel it in your heart, your soul and you know it is true and it is what makes

the world go round. Round and round as in the "circle of Life" which of course

is what it is. A circle that never really ends in the big picture, the picture

that goes on and on into the future, the future of love and caring, desires and

wanting.

It is wrong to want for things you don't really need. What do you need? Well

I need you and I always will , we have been friends for so long and I can't hold

back how I feel any more, I will always be here for you, are you ready for real

love? It feels like the falling rain, I am on my knees trying to catch the raindrops

(tears from the heart) like a child, and your soft whispers ring in my ears and I

know you are here with me.

I am the shadow you see, I am the breeze from the sea, I am the sunshine in the

morning, and I wish you knew all the time I was searching. I wanted you to be waiting...

But no one was listening, how could I ever remember in my old age....I feel your eyes go

through me...is this the way that you are leaving? I will always believe in you, how

can I ever I forget??? And why would I?..

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Ginn Navarre 6 years ago

Thanks for the excellent read, and a reminder of what LIFE should mean.


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Alissa1985 6 years ago from Arkansas

Very good hub G-ma. It makes a lot of sense. I think that I needed to read this. Thank you.


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G-Ma Johnson 6 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Ginn...Thank YOU for commenting...I was just...(I don't know)... had spent 2 long days with my mom and then this came out of me....who can figure??? :O) Hugs


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G-Ma Johnson 6 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Alissa...Hi sweetie and thanks, you are always such a dear...Well if it helped...good,:O) Hugs G-Ma


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livingsta 6 years ago from United Kingdom

Wonderful hub G-Ma, we at times feel like this. It is so very true. Thank you for this hub


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G-Ma Johnson 6 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

livingsta...Thank you sweet one for commenting...and I am sure I am not alone...:O) Hugs G-Ma


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kaitym 6 years ago from Australia

this is absolutly beautiful :) xx


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G-Ma Johnson 6 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

kaitym...Thank You dear..Nice to meet you...:O) Hugs G-Ma


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Kebennett1 6 years ago from San Bernardino County, California

That was wonderful, heartwarming and a life lesson! Thank You.


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G-Ma Johnson 6 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Kebennett1...well thank you sweetie...:O) Hugs G-Ma


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vaidy19 6 years ago from Chennai, India

Hi G-Ma,

As it relates and moves one, it is both great prose and great poetry. No wonder your hugs are so generous and endearing.

hugs

Vaidy


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G-Ma Johnson 6 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Hi handsome...good to hear from you, and glad you commented...been missing everyone that used to be here ...You have a great day :O) Hugs G-Ma


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Raven King 6 years ago from Cabin Fever

Wow, you asked all of these questions. Wow, this is incredible. Many (((HUGS))). :)


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G-Ma Johnson 6 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Hey you...:O) doesn't it sound familiar???? Have a good WEEK-end my dear...:O) Hugs G-Ma


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soyelude 6 years ago from Lagos - Nigeria

Familiar? It sure does to me!!! You are a prolific writer G-ma. You write straight from the heart...i always feel you....always!


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G-Ma Johnson 6 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

OMG... look who had returned....yippeeee...so how goes it Sir soyelude and Thank you...:O) Hugs G-Ma


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Die'Dre' 6 years ago from The Great Pacific Northwest

I enjoyed this hub; emotional, heart-felt and on target.


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G-Ma Johnson 6 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Die'Dre'..Thank you :O) Hugs


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kartika damon 6 years ago from Fairfield, Iowa

Thanks G-Ma for your honesty and willingness to share your deepest thoughts and feeling! We all have to deal with it - life is so filled with such reflection. Best, Kartika


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G-Ma Johnson 6 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Is so true Thank You kartika...:O) HUGS C-Ma


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shareitt 6 years ago

Awesome as usual!


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G-Ma Johnson 6 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

you are too nice Thank You...:O) Hugs G-Ma


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Cris A 6 years ago from Manila, Philippines

Writings like this I missed. I wish you should write more and share more. You are sorely missed and you know that! Lurve ya!

And take a break from all that farming and what's the other one? Farkle? :D


poetlorraine 6 years ago

wow it takes a while to come down from that one


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G-Ma Johnson 6 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Cris A...Awww my sweetie..Thank You..been very hectic for me lately..but I promise YOU I will try harder here...MWAH and HAPPY HOLIDAYS lOVE YA mOREEEE...:O) Hugs G-Ma


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G-Ma Johnson 6 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Poetlorraine..ooops sorry..hope I didn't stir anything up...just thinking out loud, I was...:O) Hugs G-Ma


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AEvans 6 years ago from SomeWhere Out There

The true meaning of life and my heart felt the ache and pain too! You are a wonderful human being that spreads love everywhere on HP. Merry Christmas and (((Big Hugs)) to you and yours. :)


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G-Ma Johnson 6 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

AEvans ...Hi Hun...been missing everyone actually...Thanks for being so SWEET...:O) Hugs G-Ma


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ASHWINSPGA 6 years ago from Lion City ( Singapore)

What a hub Nana.Broke my heart reading it. Wish i was here when you posted it. would had made you laugh and put a smile on your beautiful face. Sorry Nana I didnt saw your forum posting. Took a long nap. Cant tire myself much these days. Love you so much. If i was only your son i would never leave your side. this im telling from the bottom of my heart... Love you love you love you. A BIG MUACKS from the other side of the world.... :=)


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G-Ma Johnson 6 years ago from NW in the land of the Free Author

Well I am so thankful to hear from you...Please do e-mail me ok??? ...and you always make me smile...you are my baby...:O) Hugs G-Ma Kisses and more kisses

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