Is Angel dying
We were overjoyed when on the 7th of October, Angela emerged from the womb totally formed but what came next was unfathomable.
This is our story...
There was an early discovery of fluids surrounding her maturing brain so Dr. Edmond and his team were preparing themselves to deal with that situation once she is born and on the 11th of October, the four man surgeons embarked on the nine hours surgery to extract the fluid which has now compounded itself all over her brain. They however discovered the unimaginable,unbelievable and most unfair condition, there was a large mass on her brain and biopsy confirmed the most dreadful devastating news. Angel has Cancer.
We were stricken with fear when the news was broken to us by Dr Edmond who was shedding tears while narrating the situation to us.
"Angel suffers from an especially aggressive form of brain tumor, a high-grade glioma, most often diagnosed in adults", he said. "The cancer, whose causes are unknown, had already engulfed most of the right hemisphere of her brain. Children are rarely born with such a rare, usually fatal, condition", he further said.
Why her i questioned, i knew then that i needed answers to so many things and one person who i believe is the right one to give me the answer needed in this case is God. Why this baby i cried. O! God why didn't you pass this to me? It is unfair cried Debra. Dr Edmond told us that we will understand better when we take her home.
However, another Doctor who is a specialist in such cases gave us one other vital option; Chemotherapy.
I know about chemotherapy and believed that although it targets and kills cancer cells that it could be disastrous on Angel and might even cause a major long term damage on her growth. But he went on to explain to us that it will help her. You see, sometimes these Doctors find it hard to tell you everything instead they try to get it fixed, this i know so i needed the truth therefore i asked him to be honest with us.
"Is Angel dying"? I asked him.
He said No that all her organs were functioning very well, that answer became my courage therefore if she is not dying and there is a chance of living then let her live. We had to wait for two months before another surgery, this time to remove the tumor then scalp reconstruction and a follow up chemotherapy.
As Angel was growing, the tumor also was growing and you could see what i am talking about in the picture above.
The day finally came and there was seven of us at the hospital, my in-laws, my mother, Kevin my elder brother and Grace my aunt.
Dr Edmond addressed us about the surgery which we already know is a complicating one, you see initially what people do at this point in time is to pray but in our case, we all wandered our separate ways heading down different corridors to cry privately.
Angel was taken into the theater by 11am,we waited patiently and at one point or the other we just looked at each others eyes, none of us was able to speak except for my Mother in-law who at a point began to sing this song...
'You Are My Sunshine
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away
The other night, dear,
As I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms.
When I awoke, dear,
I was mistaken
And I hung my head and cried'.
It took the team ten hours this time because of the size of the tumor. We were anxious to know her condition when Dr Edmond emerged from the theater around 9:25pm.
She is okay he told us and the surgery was a success.
We all knew that the journey ahead will be a tough one and i couldn't hold but fell on my knees and cried one more time to God. " I don't understand this God, why us"?
Anyway, Dr Edmond was right when he said that we would understand the situation when we take her home, of course; we did because it was during that two months waiting that we realized that Angel needed a chance to live. she also proved to be a powerful fighter,a baby who wants to live because although she is still taking the chemo and has only four months left to finish the one year treatment, she seems to be strong and understood what is going on.
She has never turned down a meal or frown while taking her medication, she smiles each time she sees bottles of her medication and would always giggle after taking her medication, a gesture i understood as her way of saying; Thank you.
Anyway, Angel is doing pretty fine and is cancer free as of this writing. You could see her in the picture below.