It Was You, Always

It was you from the moment I saw you

A cheeky sparkle in you eye

That took my breath away

And made me feel like I could fly

It was you cheered me up when I was lonely

The way you could make me grin

Just by being in the room

Always making my head spin

It was you who changed my life

Every hazy summer day

Tom and Jerry afternoons

Every guitar tune we'd play

It was only you who believed me

When he was drunk again

And he would hit me

And you took me in

It was only you who cared enough

To let me hide away

And let me cry

All the tears

That I'd been holding inside

You didn't ask for anything in return

It was you who changed my mind

When I thought that love had died

You let me love again

I felt electrified

It was you even when you'd moved away

You were never far from my mind

And always in my heart

A love that can't be defined

It was you for every moment of my life

You're the reason that I breathe

In my mind when I wake

Always there in my dreams

It was you, always

Thanks for reading.

There's a kind of cruelty with love. It can be the most beautiful feeling in the world, and also the most devastatingly brutal in equal measure. To love someone, not expecting anything in return, is magical. Just to be able to smile at the sound of their name, or at the resurfacing of a long forgotten memory.

When you love someone so much that it takes your breath away just to be in the same room as them, when it hurts to be apart from them, when they're there in your heart and mind every waking moment, I think it has to be true love.

I knew him years ago, and it started as a completely innocent friendship. I was seeing someone at the time, and as you now know, my boyfriend would get drunk and hit me. One day I couldn't take it anymore, and I walked out, not knowing where to go. I just needed time to clear my head.

Thankfully he let me stay for a couple of days, we watched cartoons, we talked, we played guitars and sang songs, it was a perfect weekend. It was a beautiful summer, the sort that doesn't come along very often in the UK, warm and bright and unending. I couldn't bear to be apart from him.

Then one day he told me he was moving, and that was that. He moved away, I got sick and was still trapped in that violent relationship. Our lives moved on. I found someone new and had a family. But I never forgot him, he was in my mind every day, my feelings never changed.

Then out of the blue we got back in touch after several years, and our friendship is as strong as ever. I still love him with all my heart and I am extraordinarily happy to have him in my life.