Journey Down This Road

The Wheels Are Turning in My Mind. Don't Want to Leave But I Might This Time

When I Look Into the Mirror. . . All I See Is Me. . .And I'm Scared as I Can Be

I'm not afraid of being alone

Still it would be nice

To fully bare my soul

As I journey down this road


But to let someone truly get that close

Oh, how it always comes with a price

It becomes a burden just to know

Then I have guilt and am still alone

Fear takes hold with its icy grip

Never before indecisive about things like this

Take the risk - just jump on in

Either sink or swim

Sinking does not mean dying

It simply means trying

But it is not for myself that I am afraid

And I wonder do I really have what it takes?


Where is the time for just being me?

Everybody else always seems to need

And there are always bills to meet

Desperately needing some alone time

But I've got to keep my cool, gotta keep that smile

When will it ever end, this trial?

I'm Gonna Take That Mountain. . .If You Think This Heartache's Gonna Break My Will. . .

Words written so very long ago, yet worth declaring again. . .


Gotta make my plans a reality

Gotta make my dreams come true

I don't need nobody telling me

What I can and cannot do


I'm gonna reach for the stars

Gonna climb that mountain high

I will reach within my heart

Find out who I am inside


And if I miss when I jump

I will have true peace of mind

When I pick myself back up

Just knowing that I tried

In the words of Martina. . .

Life is a roller coaster ride
Time turns the wheel and love collides
Faith is believing you can close your eyes and touch the sky
To shine while you have the chance to shine
Laugh even when you want to cry
Hold on tight to what you feel inside and ride

© 2014 Shannon

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Jackie Lynnley 2 years ago from The Beautiful South

This was great! Loved the Reba video too; had never heard that song but she is sort of like Loretta Lynn with the words huh? Says a lot and gives it meaning.


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Thanks Jackie! The videos were meant to tell as story as much as my own words. I'm so glad you took time to watch them. I don't know why, but that particular song of Reba's is not as well known as many of her others. It wasn't a number one, but it was in the top 20 on the charts. I've loved the words of it. I like empowering songs. And in that song, I love the line about not just climbing the mountain but leaving it level with the ground.


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois

This is filled with hope and determination. I love the layout. How did you do that? I'm on my way to watch the video...


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Hi Ruby. Good to see you! I used the capsule arrows that move them from side to side. The page break images were inserted as photos.


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ImKarn23 2 years ago

YOU can do it!!

Your writing is beautiful, baring you're just as beautiful heart and soul.

Stop being so hard on yourself, my friend - you are lovely - inside and out...

xx


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Oh, Leslie, you just made me laugh! Thank you so much for offering encouragement. But, what makes me laugh is the hugs without the kisses!!!! I said I don't like slobbery wet kisses. Are your kisses really that slimy? Hahaha


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Gypsy Rose Lee 2 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Life is a wild ride and you're right it wouldn't mean a thing if we didn't try.


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Yes, Gypsy, life is a wild ride. And it's enjoyable for the most part. Beauty in even the pain. And that is what I need to keep reminding myself of because I just majorly failed something I needed to go forward and I can't allow myself to become discouraged by that fact. There's another way. I just have to find it.


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Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

Dear Shan,

Wonderful poem. You have expressed a lot of determination about this road we are all on called life! Loved all of your video choices too. Perfect to accompany your words.

Up and more and away

Keep on going and never give up!

Hugs


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Thanks, Faith! Determination and hope are necessities, my friend. You are always so warm and encouraging. I hope everything is well with you and your family. Hugs.


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS

Shannon, this is so good. It tells the story and proclaims the triumph, which is never unaccompanied by the steps - often difficult ones - that keep one moving toward it and keeping the faith in oneself. As Karen said, you CAN do it. I know you can. Sometimes one just has to let go of the props we thought we had to have, in order to find that we are 'enough' ourselves, alone or otherwise. Your choices of music fit your style and outlook. I like Reba's too. Hadn't heard that one of hers before. Good song - has 'grit' in it!

One of my poems on the subject of challenge:

Trampoline!

This life’s a trampoline!

And in between

Each bounce,

We grow a little,

Know a little

More about

A Trampoline!

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

8-7-73

Another one _

Labyrinth of life,

Taking turns

On straightaways,

Moving by the feel

Of what is real,

And sensing

New directions

As they come and go

Too swiftly

For analysis,

Perhaps to move

Into the light again

To know the better

Turns.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

8-10-73


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Thank you, Nellieanna. Props aren't always the problem, especially to one who has never had them before or that has in the past jumped blindly into the unknown without a second thought. Sometimes it might be more a matter of missing props and finding ways to obtain them and to deal with things the way they are in the meantime rather than letting go of any.

Thank you also for sharing your poems.


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billybuc 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

Very lovely work my friend. I love the positive vibes it gives off.


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Thanks, billybuc. I hope that's the vibe!


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS

Of course props aren't always 'the problem'. They are certainly probably never the main problems involved or there would be no sense of needing any. Indeed, finding them is valuable if and when the props are portable and move along with one's solutions. Such props are primarily within oneself and, so - usually abide with one for life.

Be of good cheer!


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

True, Nellieanna, though that's not quite the kind of prop I had in mind.. . .I was thinking more along the lines of actual life necessities, such as income. But, yes. . other needed props such as hope or determination, general positive outlooks are found within.

As for good cheer, I usually am. And when I'm not, few know about it anyway. Or maybe they know for a minute while I spout off about my quick frustration and then it's done and over with. haha ;)


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ahorseback 2 years ago

Shannie girl ! I think there are such great outlooks on life out there among the hub world , Yours are as beautiful as the best , one thing I must say , my life has always been guided by my love for music , You just can't go wrong when you listen and relate to a great song ! They can teach us so much ! And the song writers learn from poets like you as well ! Just ask them .....lol awesome hub !.....Ed


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Thanks, Ed, I try. Sometimes keeping a positive overall outlook makes it easier to cope when things get difficult.

As for music - for me, it is very cathartic. Give me a song I can sing along to, regardless of whether or not I relate to it, and I feel better. LOL


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tobusiness 2 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

Beautiful and uplifting poems, what is life without a few knocks? We can't let it keep us down. Loved it.


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

No, tobusiness. Can't stay down or life passes us by. Besides, the good is better appreciated after having experienced some downs. Thank you for reading and loving it. :)


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PurvisBobbi44 2 years ago from Florida

This was such a joy to read and listen to---my first poem of the day. It takes a journey of both good and not so good in life so we can appreciate it when it is very right.

Keep sharing your poems with us.

Bobbi Purvis


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Hi Bobbi,

I noticed that you follow me on Google and I recognized you from HubPages. I assumed we were already following one another, but apparently not. Glad I checked and glad that you enjoyed this hub!

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