"Just push play" - An Experiment in Writing
A "Poem" about abuse...
In this piece of writing, all the words in bold italics are song titles.The day I wrote it I had been looking through all the play lists I had made while I was with my ex and noticed that the song titles in each play list seemed to tell a story, so I thought I would experiment a bit.... The songs are by various artists, including Pink Floyd, Maroon5, Led Zeplin, Robbie Williams, Pink, Dido, Roxette, Poison, Alice Cooper, Guns and Roses, The Cardigans, Kylie, Black Eyed Peas, Duffy, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Frank and Nancy Sinatra, Michael & Janet Jackson, George Harrison, Fleetwood Mac, Elton John, A-ha, Sting, Van Morrison, U2, Madonna, etc... etc...
Just Push Play...
I felt like what I wanted to say would need More Than Words,
Then I realized that my play list says it all for me. Just Push Play...
Once again you've left me Dazed and Confused.
Right from the start I was Spending My Time
Begging you for Mercy, and to Say That You Love Me
And even now I still sometimes Wish You Were Here...
For 14 Years I was a Love Fool.
Sometimes I even thought you were Perfect,
But really you're just a Smooth Criminal.
In fact, you're Poison, and You Give Love a Bad Name.
Tell me baby,
Do You Remember when I said I'll stand by you?
I said I'm Yours, Lets Do It For The Kids!
I had Faith, heaps of Patience, and a Whole Lotta Love.
In fact, I gave you All Of My Love
But all you had to say was Shut Up.
Who knew? Not Me, Not I...
I wish I could say that perhaps You Never Can Tell,
But inside, Soul Deep, I guess I knew,
You always were predictably UnPredictable.
In Your Eyes I could see the Crystal Ball
Telling me that Your Love Is Just a Lie.
I should have trusted my Intuition,
And not said to myself Listen To Your Heart
But as it was, I got Stuck in the Moment
Before I knew it, I was Addicted To You
And slowly Going Under,
Yet still trying to Justify My Love.
In The End, Because of you, and your Chemical Heart,
I was convinced there was Nothing Sweet About Me.
I even gave up wishing that you thought I was Beautiful.
It was all I could do to Hold On For One More Day,
But I did, and somehow I turned my Train of Thought around.
Then, through the Tears and Rain
I saw Two Hearts, both Bleeding Love,
And two sets of Innocent Eyes
Pleading with me to Dream Myself Alive,
To be their Superman once again.
So I remembered who is most Beautiful To Me.
Nothing Else Matters, their Love Is Reason enough.
Nowdays I Don't Cry anymore, except in Secret,
But you will never know, because I'll do my crying in the rain.
In time, I'll Get Over It, and till then, Life Goes On.
Now all I can say is Thank you
For the Joyride on your Love Rollercoaster,
But now it's time for you to Go Your Own Way again.
Just make sure it's Forever this time,
Because trust me, you're Not Coming Home, not ever!
You see, I've since discovered your other Secret!
And please, Don't Dam Me, When The Sh!t Goes Down.
After all, It's All Your Fault.
I mean, how Would It Be My Fault?
It was you that did Something Stupid,
And now you will Come Undone.
I have no Sympathy For The Devil,
So just Live and Let Die.
You had the chance to be a Better Man,
To have Something Beautiful,
But you could not even Apologize.
And now It's Too Late, I'm Out of Love.
Your web of lies is now so Tangled
That it should be easy to Loose Yourself
In your World of Sleaze.
Then it can just be You and Your Hand .
Maybe you will be happy in your Virtual Insanity,
If you can even Feel anything since you are completely Frozen inside.
Or is it just that you are Comfortably Numb?
Either way, I hope it's worth the Sacrifice.
Not that it matters to me, I'm no longer Torn,
I simply don't want to See You Again!
So please, just Leave Me Alone.
I know you will probably want to go Bang Bang
So you can watch me Burn, till I'm nothing but Dust and Bones,
But before you declare Civil War,
You need to know that I Won't Back Down.
And this Time, my Kryptonite will slay your Dogs of War,
So, instead of sitting on your Angry Chair
While it gets Hot in the City
Why don't you go Relax and Take It Easy somewhere
Maybe on The Dark Side of the Moon?
As for me, I have already Paid My Dues,
So I guess I'll Die Another Day instead.
I'm sorry, but That's the way love goes.
Goodbye My Lover
Maybe I'll see you on the Other Side.
Which Makes Me Wonder, now Who Will Save Your Soul ?
Isn't it Ironic, in some Parallel Universe, It's Probably Me...
Anyway, Goodbye Blue Eyes.
Brown Eyed Girl.
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