~Life Commanded Me~

~Prologue~

In life we are forced to make decisions that are sometimes hard to bare, but eventually life commands us to do whats right...


`Changes in life~

I tried to reinvent this perfect world away from kaos and confusion

hid myself beneath the layers of this fatal lie and disillusion

yet I found the more I ran the more life reeled me in

every door I tried to jam, Life busted the hinges and said here I am!

every window I tried to slam, Life bursted through like a broken dam

flooding my emotions, evoking my memory, forcing me to come full circle

Life! had commanded me

but the past wasn't done with me yet, memories of unresolved issues and regrets came cascading like a beast in the wind demanding I let hem in

unwed pregnancy, infidelity, promiscuous sex, low self esteem had even joined the team, in a run down shack on a road of broken dreams

yet to me I was the ghetto queen or so it seem, living ghetto fabulous on the ghetto scene, drapped from head to toe

ya' betta ask somebody if ya don't know, was the famous ghetto slogan and only a chosen few could hold them and load them

I dine on everything I could see that is everything the ghetto had to offer me, even had my own cleche'

"Two wrongs don't make us right, but it dam sure make us even, if you ain't doin it my way, brotha your leaven"

yes! so I thought I was living large and in charge, but my life was totally scarred and I was the only who couldn't see the bars

so I reinvented this perfect world away from kaos and confusion, but life in its infamous way came knocking one day

I stood there in silence as I opened the door, to face the rage that had kept me caged

lunged at the pain that once stole my peace, released the tears that never ceased, before life would set me free, I had to face my history

"Life! had commanded me

(©)copyright;KarenRussell


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Comments 14 comments

peacenhim 6 years ago

This is really beautiful Karen. Such depth and true emotion, I can almost feel the struggle of life's toils and the eternal war within. A tug of war with the soul, until peace set you free. Beautiful!! ;-)


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Carol the Writer 6 years ago from Houston, Texas

Wonderful poetry! You can tell your words come from the heart! Thanks for writing this. – Carol


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Karen Russell 6 years ago Author

THANK YOU PEACENHIM, I AM ALWAYS GRATEFUL TO HEAR FROM MY CO-READERS & WRITERS, IT WARMS MY SPIRIT EVERY TIME...R.K./LP


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Karen Russell 6 years ago Author

HELLO AGAIN CAROL, AS ALWAYS, I AM VERY GRATEFUL TO BE ABLE TO TOUCH ON SO MANY SUBJECTS & DO SO APPRECIATE YOU TAKING THE TIME TO READ MY POETRY...R.K./LP


poetlorraine 6 years ago

nice poem. how are you now


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Karen Russell 6 years ago Author

THANKS! REGROUPING & REJOICING!...R.K./LP


KellyEngaldo 6 years ago

You spoke to my very soul this morning. It is time for me to close a door. Thank you for helping with that very heavy door.


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Karen Russell 6 years ago Author

YOU ARE SO WELCOME, I ALWAYS HOPE I CAN TOUCH SOMEONE THROUGH MY POETRY BY COMBINING HUMOR WITH REALITY BUT, SOME TIMES ONE OUT WEIGHS THE OTHER, THANKS FOR TAKING THE TIME TO READ IT...R.K./LP


Darren 6 years ago

LOVE this poem Karen!


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Karen Russell 6 years ago Author

THANKS, I'M GLAD YOU FINALLY MADE IT OVER...R.K./LP


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana

the past is in the past, learn from it and let it be.


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Mentalist acer 5 years ago from A Voice in your Mind!

Hitory of mystery seems to need this artistic ability you have to register its reality on the present...great words Karen.;)


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Karen Russell 5 years ago Author

@Nikkij504gurl... THE PAST IS THE ROOT OF OUR EXISTENCE, IN ORDER TO MOVE FORWARD WE MUST FACE THE PAST HEAD ON, EMBRACE IT, LEARN FROM IT, RECOVER, THEN ONLY WILL WE BE ABLE TO MOVE OWN A BETTER PERSON WITH A STRONGER HEART & MIND... SOME PEOPLE AREN'T ABLE TO SEVER THEMSELVES FROM THE PAST, THEY WEAR THEIR WOUNDS ON THE OUTSIDE & ARE SMOTHERED BY THEM ON THE INSIDE, SOMETIMES BY SHARING OUR OWN STRUGGLES & PAINS WE ARE ABLE TO RELEASE OURSELVES FROM THE PAST & HELP OTHERS HEAL & RECOVER FROM WHAT THEY ARE GOING THROUGH, THANKS FOR YOUR RESPONSE IT ALLOWED ME TO SPEAK TO OTHERS OUT THERE WHO ARE SUFFERING IN SILENCE & MAYBE SOMEONE IS READING THIS HUB & IS UPLIFTED... HOTEP!


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Karen Russell 5 years ago Author

@MENTALIST... THANK YOU FOR SHARING MY JOURNEY & TAKING THE TIME TO RESPOND, I'M HONORED YOU DROPED BY, HOTEP!

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