Letters on the Beach Pt. 4
Jack smiled at her. It reminded her of how he used to smile at her a long time ago before he left, but it wasn't the same. She knew something was different which just brought her back to reality. She always saw Jack as her fantasy boy. He wasn't anymore. After everything that happened... her heart dropped. She rolled down her window.
"Hi Jack." she said coyly waiting for an answer.
"Hi, could we talk Ariane? Follow me." he said.
He was driving a car she didn't recognize. Probably one he "borrowed" or who knows where he got. She didn't believe anything he said anymore. She didn't even know who he was. She let herself fall in love with an illusion. At the moment though, she was just happy to see him again.
He drove to a park. The sun was coming up and the sun's rays were hitting every dewy swing set in the place. It would seem like a fantasy again in her mind if she hadn't been struck with reality a few hours earlier. She still thought Jack could save her. But he wasn't her knight and shining armor anymore. She was surprised he even showed up.
She wanted to scream and yell and ask why he left her. She asked. He didn't answer at first. He looked so handsome. Just like she had remembered him. He had nice hands and features. She swooned whenever she saw him. Lust was intertwined with love. When he was around she couldn't decipher between the two. All she wanted to do was be close to him.
Being away from him for awhile made her wiser though. She watched him like a hawk. Watched his body language. Maybe she can find some signs of his cheating lying ways that she hadn't seen before so she will know in the future...
"Ariane. I had to leave." is all he said. She asked why again thinking he might tell her the truth. He just said that if he had stayed he wouldn't have accomplished what he wanted to do.
" What is that?" she asked.
"Let me show you." is all he said.
Ariane felt like she was in a dream. She couldn't stop talking. She was just so happy to see him. It was almost as if she forgot what Chuck and Mira said. Forgot that he left her and disappeared the past year. She dreamed of the day when she would see him again. She felt that there would be a time, and here it was.
It was a hot July morning and the later it got the cool dewiness wore off. Jack took her to his place which he was sharing with two roommates. Nobody was there. Jack showed her that he wouldn't have got this place if he stayed with her. She was hurt by his comment. SHe knew it wasn't the truth and even if it were that he would choose "things" over her? She burst out crying.
"Jack, you don't know how much you have hurt me. I have loved and waited for you for so long! I looked for you every night! I was so lonely! I missed you so much and you just left without a goodbye or anything! How could you do that to me? How could you do that when I loved you so much?" she said through her cries.
He just looked at her in sadness. He didn't know what to say.
" I loved you dammit with all my heart! How could you do this to me?" is all she could cry.
She laid down on his lap and tried to piece herself together. She wasn't going to get any real answers from him just a fake comfort. He was a good actor. He acted concerned. Funny, she didn't see what a great actor he used to be before. She just loved him blindly. He could do no wrong. Everything came shattering down. Her comfort zone that he had created for her when they spent time together wasn't reality anymore. It was all fake. She was disgusted but half of her was still in fantasy land hoping for things to work out as usual.
She never trusted her gut instinct with him. Just ignored it completely when she was with him like a blind fool. In reality she had sacrificed so much of her happiness, time, and energy on something so fake. She just wanted to stay in with him, but he had another idea to take her by the lake where they were having a festival. So she went.
The drive there was magical in her mind. She blasted the music up high. It felt like old times driving together. They walked to the festival. Everybody was out and about. A nice sunny day on the beach. She looked at the jewelry they had laid out. They walked to the end of the pier over the lake. He started taking pictures of her. She always felt beautiful around him. He had that affect on her where she forgot all of her insecurities and felt like a princess whenever she was with him.
He showed her the picture and she smiled. She usually would think she looked like crap after being up all night, but somehow when she was with him all was well with the world. He then looked at her and his smile sank.
"Why do you wanna be with me Ariane?" he asked.
She giggled. "Because I love you Jack."
He looked down. His phone kept buzzing but he didn't answer. She figured it was his work. He told her he had to leave and go to work. That they can hang out again the next day or that night. She said okay. He dropped her off at her car and left. She sat in her car for awhile taken aback by everything that just happened. It was like a dream came true. Her love came back after all of this time.
To be continued...
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