Littered Thoughts-A Poem

Poem on Fear

Her mind becomes littered
with refuse of fear
Whilst bottles of anguish
pour "what if" in her ear
This wasteland of mind
holds her tight in it's grip
In tumultuous waters
she's like a lost ship
As the clock ticks closer
to her judgement day
Her thoughts become scattered
her peace is at bay
Turn trash cans of waste
into trinkets of gold
As you face the messenger
stand tall, brave and bold
It's a test of her faith
to face what they'll say
When results are announced
It's good news she'll pray



Cancer Anxiety Poem

I'm a lung cancer survivor who regularly receives cat scans to make sure the cancer hasn't returned. This poem illustrates the fears and anxieties that come with waiting for test results. All cancer survivor's can attest to fact that we are highly aware of our mortality which is exacerbated by waiting for test results.

Cancer Survivor

Do you get nervous waiting for test results

  • Yes-I seem to think the worst
  • No-I try to stay positive
See results without voting

© 2011 Linda Rogers

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Hyphenbird 5 years ago from America-Broken But Still Beautiful

Wow, this is amazing. I love "As you face the messenger stand tall, brave and bold". It makes me feel strong for her. I like it, I like it!


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Twilight Lawns 5 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K.

Simple and to the point; and it works. I partucularly like this line:

Turn trash cans of waste into trinkets of gold


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justom 5 years ago from 41042

Wow! This is incredible. I like the line that Twighlight Lawns likes too. Nice work!! Peace!! Tom


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee

Very nice. thanks for the fan mail and following me :]

You had a nice choice of words in this one, and I enjoyed it


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acaetnna 5 years ago from Guildford

A wonderful piece of writing with a great choice of picture too.


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Robwrite 5 years ago from Bay Ridge Brooklyn NY

I like it. Nice.


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Peggy W 5 years ago from Houston, Texas

Makes one think of all kinds of possibilities. Nice! Thanks!


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vietnamvet68 5 years ago from New York State

simply a beautiful piece here and deserving of voting UP and beautiful.

God Bless


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BobbiRant 5 years ago from New York

Absolutely beautiful poem. It goes straight to the heart. The picture with it says quite a bit also. I take the poem to be concerning health? I too pray it will be good news. Voting this one up.


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Gypsy48 5 years ago

Well done, great writing.


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jrsearam 5 years ago from San Juan, PR

It breaks my heart sweetly. The nostalgia also takes my breath away a little. I love your poem Minnetonka....JR


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Healing Touch 5 years ago from Minnetonka, MN

Minnetonka Twin,

I am glad your letting your writing heal your soul. I too pray your scan will go well. It is in the fathers hands. I know it will all be great tomorrow. We will celebrate your healthy scan this weekend.

Love and sooooo much light


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks hyphenbird. I so appreciate you like it. I go in for my follow up catscan tomorrow morning. I had a ify catscan three months ago. I am almost seven years cancer-free and hope all is well. I find out Thursday from my Oncologist aka Messenger, what the results are. I have had ify scans before and they have turned out to be nothing. Tell that to my brain though, right??? It's been hard to wait. God bless for reading my poem.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks a lot Twilight for your nice comments. That line is like the old saying, "one man's trash is another man's treasure." I tried to keep with the garbage and litter theme in my metaphors.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Why thank you kindly Tom. I appreciate that my friend:)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks so much Ben, I really appreciate that feedback:)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks a lot acaetnna. So nice of you to say:)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thank you Rob. I like to write when I'm nervous, especially poetry. I have a follow-up cat scan tomorrow and had to vent. What would we writers do without our writing. It is so healing for me.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thank you Peggy-It's about my nerves for my follow-up catscan tomorrow. Thanks for reading my poem:)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

I am humbled by your button pushing Vietnam. Many thanks:)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Your so smart Bobbi. Yes, I have the follow-up catscan tomorrow and it's been a long, hard three months waiting for answers. I'm sure it will be ok but the mind plays tricks you know. God Bless you for stopping by:)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks Gypsy, I really appreciate that.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thank you so much JR. I appreciate you coming by my hub:)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks sis. You know as I sit for the final word on Thursday, I will be thinking about what nice and expensive dinner you will be treating me to. LOL HMMM-How about a nice steak restaurant. On a more serious note-Thanks for always being there for me Laura, I love you to pieces. I don't think me being in remission for almost seven years is an accident. It's all the love you and your kids give me. LOVE YOU


Sunnie Day 5 years ago

Very nice poem Minnetonka, very deep and thoughtful. Thank you for sharing. So many facing these exact situations. God bless them all.

Sunnie


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Pollyannalana 5 years ago from US

Very good poetry and I pray good news also.


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kashmir56 5 years ago from Massachusetts

Hi Minnetonka Twin, a very deep and awesome poem !

Praying that all goes well !


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Genna East 5 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

Thoughtful and introspective with very descriptive words...I really like this one!


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catgypsy 5 years ago from the South

You're in my parayers and thoughts. Very moving poem.


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Fossillady 5 years ago from Saugatuck Michigan

I pray for good news! Beautiful poem!


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Ingenira 5 years ago

Awesome poem, I truly enjoyed it. I pray that you are coping well.


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CARTER32071 5 years ago

Great poem, thanks for sharing. Take care


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b. Malin 5 years ago

A Lovely and Beautifully Versed Poem, what more can we ask for or expect.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks Sunnie Day. Yes, here is to all cancer survivors:)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks Polly, that means so much to me:)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thank You Kashmir:) It will be good to get this day behind me. UUGGHH


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks Genna:)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

I appreciate the thoughts and prayers catgypsy. I'm trying to stay upbeat and not let all the scary what if's take me over.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thank you so much Fossillady:)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Hi Ingenira. I appreciate your kind words about my poem. I am hangin in there and trying to keep the faith.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thank you so much CARTER:)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Oh, thanks so much b.Malin, I appreciate the compliment:)


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Bilalnr 5 years ago from Islamabad, Pakistan

Great Writing Minnetonka Twin!!!!!


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Mrs. J. B. 5 years ago from Southern California

How beautiful... It gave me goose bumps.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks so much Bilalnr. I appreciate that:)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks a lot JB.


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Poohgranma 5 years ago from On the edge

You will not be facing that messenger alone. Hundreds of prayer for good news will be said and we will all be waiting with you and rejoicing when you can add the good news either to the poem or to comments.

Strong words of faith and a very beautiful way to share with everyone who faces fearful situations that all of these emotions are right.


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DREAM ON 5 years ago

I rated you up across the board.Because You deserve to be noticed and appreciated for all your kindness.Your thoughtfulness and love is seen by so many wonderful followers.Wishing you great results and remember you always have a friend within a blink of an eye.You can talk anytime I have two ears to listen.


sunny5555 5 years ago

I really liked it allot, you have done a great job.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Sweet Poohgranma-You are so sweet and your words have me all choked up. It's amazing how you and others here are such a great support to me. I am hubbing my results. I had a VERY HARD day yesterday when given my results but there is hope. I wasn't ready to write about it yet but will this weekend when I've had time to digest it all. God Bless you for caring:)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Dear DREAM ON-You don't know how much your support means to me. I got your email and it made a hard day so brighter. Thanks for caring and know I care so much about you too. God Bless you my friend.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thank you so much Sunny. That is so sweet of you.


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Poohgranma 5 years ago from On the edge

We will be right here whenever you are ready and whatever the hope is, it will be the focus of prayers and support. There is no reason for you to fear being alone, although with your loving sister, I know you wouldn't be. I am a very good listener and you can write any time ... blow off steam ... scream ... whatever you need I will try to fulfill. God's love and His peace that passes understanding is my prayer for you today.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Your loving and caring words brought tears to my eyes. God Bless you Poohgranma. That means so much to me. I do have such great support with sis but you and many others here on hubpages are really important to me as well. Thank you for your prayers and your support. HUGS to you my friend.


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Freya Cesare 5 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

Simply but nice. Love it. ^^


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thank you Freya.


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nighthag 5 years ago from Australia

you are a true artist of words with this one, a beautiful poem that could so easily become a classic.

well done


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Wow, what a huge compliment nighthag. I really appreciate that.


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ladyjojo 5 years ago

Lovely poem. I hope you receive good news also. Hope all is well with you, you'd be in my prayer. Stay strong my dear GOD IS GOOD , His mercies endureth forever.

If ever you need a word of encouragement contact me via email

Love and Peace

Shalom ;)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks so much ladyjojo. I got the results and the spot is gone now but now I have three more and one is 6 centimeters. Hopefully it's the sinus congestion that caused these newbies. I need prayers and would welcome them so much from you. God Bless ladyjojo


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Awful Poet 5 years ago from The Large Magellanic Cloud (LMC) (m-M)_0 = 18.41, or 48 kpc (~157,000

This is fantastic~


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks AP:)


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

This was great:-)


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raghavrathi 5 years ago from Dehradun, Uttarakhand, India.

a really nice poem....

it has a subtle uniqueness about it hic is taking the hole poem to neer heights.....

cheers!!!


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raghavrathi 5 years ago from Dehradun, Uttarakhand, India.

a really nice poem....

it has a subtle uniqueness about it which is taking the whole poem to newer heights.....

cheers!!!


Doug Turner Jr. 5 years ago

Much substance behind this one. It's amazing how different powerful words with meaning can seem compared to random scatterings. They're all just words right? But the difference is astounding. This one had the power of something true and visceral. Well done.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks RealHousewife:)Poetry is so healing for me.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

raghavrathi, what a nice compliment. Thanks, made me smile:)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks a lot Doug-I love when my poetry hits home with someone. Thanks for your nice feedback:)


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Maggie-May 5 years ago from the Island of Cape Breton to the Eastern Shores near Halifax, NS

Very nice and well written, thank-you,

MM


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks Maggie-Just felt good to write out my nerves before a follow-up scan. Got the scan back and fortunately the spot is gone but now I have three more. I hope it's just the allergies and congestion which does affect my scans. UUGGHH


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spotlight19 5 years ago from California

Love your poem it shows a symbol of strenght and courage.


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

I hear you Minnetonka - I really find writing an excellent, cathartic exercise. It's how I work things out of my head:-). Good for you - you do it so well!


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks so much Spotlight, I do try to be strong:)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks RealHouswife:)What would we hubbers do without writing. I don't even like to think about it. LOL


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HattieMattieMae 5 years ago from Limburg, Netherlands

Beautifully expressed, and how we dread those moments to hear the results or response of another not knowing what will happen. Very good writing! :)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks so much HattieMattieMae, I really appreciate that nice feedback. Blessings friend:)


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Seeker7 5 years ago from Fife, Scotland

Awesome poem. I've tweeted this to some friends who I know will love this - hope you don't mind. Many thanks for sharing.


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Oh you're so right! I can't imagine!


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Seeker, I am so honored that you tweeted this hub of mine. Cool:) Writing is so cathartic for me and it helped putting this down. Thanks again for sharing this Seeker.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Hi RealHouswife-Tis the life of a cancer survivor. I sure see how precious life is now in a much deeper way than I did before. Thanks for coming by:)


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ladyjojo 5 years ago

awww sorry to here about the new ones. Satan seems not to give up on you with that nasty cancer demon. I trust that God would work a miracle and the doctors won't get one spot or wrinkle upon you that you can go forth and testify of his wonderful healing.

How is your twin coping with your health problems?

Just remember despite what GOD loves you okay and so do i.

Take Job as a comfort in your troubles he was tried like no one else has been and yet he said though GOD slay me yet will i trust him ;)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

So nice of you to come back with your words of encouragement, ladyjojo. I will take job as an example of the struggles I endure. I am hoping it's just the allergies and congestion but no matter what, hearing there are three more spots put me into a worldwind. Sis is trying to be strong and positive for me. She has had a couple melt-down cry's which she didn't want to do in front of me. She needs to get out her fears and just cry if she needs to but I know she doesn't want to scare me. We are just two peas in a pod and what freaks me out, freaks her out. I WILL NOT LEAVE her and the kids yet, it's not my time and I know this.


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ladyjojo 5 years ago

You are welcome life is tuff on some of us. I keep in mind when trials come that i am a child of God. For christ was persecuted and so must i if i am a child of God.

God just want to make something of you, make you strong, give you more faith and he wants you to put all your trust in him. Do not doubt, if you do healing won't take place.

Ask God to raise up a FAITH in your heart like never before and just keep on saying i am heal i am healed no matter the symptoms the symptoms is just the devil trying to scare you.

Jesus faced the cross he never ran and face your fairs with GOD by your side.

I think i may email you something maybe to build up your faith if not tonight sometime soon you must promise to listen though ;)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

You bet I'll listen my friend. I do try to do the, "I am healed" prayers at night but doesn't always keep that boogie man away from me. God knows I choose him and not satan but sending an email would be great. OH WAIT, I just had my email hacked and don't have an email yet. Wait until tomorrow when I get it up and running again. God Bless you my lovely sister in Christ for your support. It means a lot to me:)


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

I am so sorry about that too! I am glad that you have such a great family:) and it sounds like you are well loved by so many hubbers too:-)!

You are very courageous Minnetonka!


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks RH. I am really blessed to have such a great support system.


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ladyjojo 5 years ago

An encouragement to you.

If we suffer, we shall also reign with him if we deny him, he also will deny us. 2 Timothy 2:12

To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven. Ecc 3:1

GOD will make your health easier through his companionship and comfort. There is no better time to trust him than right now.

I'd be delighted to email something to build your faith and a wonderful healing video to watch that you feel God's presence. I believe you can be healed once you have the right attitude when watching the video

This is not one of these jokers who claim to heal and push down people.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks ladyjojo. I am still working on getting a new email address. Hopefully it will be done soon. Thanks again for your caring and support. God Bless:)


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ladyjojo 5 years ago

OKAY ;)


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DeathStroke 5 years ago from Im just around..

Just reading this poem i want to subscribe to you. You have talent and you bring a certain aspect of poetry to the world.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

You just made my day DeathStroke. What a nice thing to say. Many thanks:)


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana

one mans trash is another mans treasure, and though we go through a lot of trash and hardships in life, they make us appreciate the good that much more.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

You are very wise Nikkij. My harships in life are my best teachers. I am so much more grateful for all the blessings in my life as a cancer survivor. This was a poem about worrying about a ify catscan recently. The spot is now gone but now I have three new ones. It is worrisome but hopefully just congestion that I had at the time. Thanks for reading my poetry. I love your style of writing poetry by the way. It's amazing and very soulful. Blessings:)


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana

i hope everything is ok. and that horrible cancer stays away. i know that must be scary. bumpsysmum is going through kemo and all right now, if you're not already a fan of hers you should check her out. and thank you so much for reading mine and liking it so much!


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

You are so welcome Nikkij. I will follow bumpsysmum right now. I am glad she is ok. Cancer stinks!! You are a sweetie:)


MrDSpade2 5 years ago

Finally i get to comment the traffic was terrible, lol, this is a creative read, i enjoyed this.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota Author

Thanks so much MrDSpade2, I really appreciate that you were patient and kept scrolling. Writing is so medicinal for me.

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