Locked Uptight

Paid my dues to earn a place in civilized society

Missed a step on the stairs to slam into poverty

Old leathered boots wore a frayed sense of finality

Locked uptight in my own inner battle with anxiety

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Presumptuous platitudes push patience past piety

Insolence ingratiates itself into ignorant impropriety

Virtue vacillates, vying, voluptuous vapid vanity

Locked uptight in my own inner battle with anxiety

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Altered state drives my vehicle in shaky cold sobriety

Self imposed exile from a familiar haunt's notoriety

Found the purpose but fear the navigator's naivety

Locked uptight in my own inner battle with anxiety

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Reflection in the mirror meets the face of its entirety

A dance once denied steps up to embrace its propriety

Tumbling through tangoed turns holding on defiantly

Locked in truth to fight my own inner battle with anxiety

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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

Hi Amy. A most powerful poem, my dear!


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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Amy, "ditto," and "amen." Fantastic use of same letters in sentences...amazing message...I hear you, my friend!!!!!

More later but, look up; you're being spammed....this happened to me, too; you must use "approve / deny ' options until you can get rid of this; it'll continue to show up.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, beautiful Nellieanna.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Kathy, I saw it and was waiting until someone gave me some advise. I didn't want to hit "approve", even though I was not going to respond, but I didn't want to hit "deny" as it serves some purpose as a warning that it happens here, too. Which should I do, Kathy? Thank you for your help. I noticed as soon as I posted this one, boom, there it was. It must be hooked to hit anything related to "poverty".


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suzettenaples 4 years ago from Taos, NM

Beautiful use of alliteration in this poem, Amy. Another winner here! I can relate and feel the pain. Great write!


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epigramman 4 years ago

...yahoo, ahead of the Buc Man of Billy Boy - (sending him a good natured 'raspberry' lol) again ...... must say ..... epi is on a roll.

Well Amy let's just say two things you are a wordsmith of the highest order - (this is my reference point from now on for 'new words' - and you are a survivor (if you were on the Titanic you would have been able to point out the iceberg to the captain in time) and it's in these very words in which I read your resilience, your pride, your fighting spirit and your relentless determination to overcome all odds - you speak for all of us Amy - the little guy/gal who makes up the majority of the people in this world ; you are a humanitarian and a cheerleader for the human race ....and just who wouldn't get inspired by your noble heart and dignified mind .....and you tell it all so well poetically and artfully speaking through your creative expressions which is the true meaning behind the progressive idea of 'food for thought' - lake erie time 5:09pm


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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Hi, Amy...I'm not sure how to approach it...the comment appears twice; as far as I can see...so I view it as spam. You have the option to delete ... delete 'forever.' This is what I'd do and then, wait to see what happens. Do you know this HP writer? I just looked up jazzy055 and they are completely new w/no hubs and very little information. I'm suspicious. To me, it is suspect.. I'd 'delete forever.' or hit 'spam.'


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xstatic 4 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

Another great one Amy! The alliteration is really something too.

I agree with Lucky Cats on that spam comment.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Suzette, Thank you so much. I always look for you! Have you read a poet named Audrey Howitt? I'd love for you to check her work out, as I find it magnificent. I think you, as a teacher, would love her style and picturesque use of the English language. But, please, my friend, don't abandon me. LOL


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Your confidence in me, Mister C, is an awesome thing. However, I'd be scrambling for the lifeboats long before I stopped to look for the Captain of The Titanic to tell him anything other than "out of my way"! Therein lies the difference between me and that "Stahl" woman. She'd pull up a chair and conduct an interview and probably make it back to the 60-Minutes office before showtime!

Thank you, Colin, for your support and outstanding comments. You paint like....well, like the infamous "one and only" Epi!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you so much, Kathy. I did it just as you suggested and both of the spam messages disappeared from my page. Whew! There's a first time for everything. I wanted to ask you if you have a copyright message at the bottom of your work? I understand that as soon as a writer clicks "publish", the work is under legal copywrite by the author. I've noticed, though, that some writer's have the verbiage at the bottom of every piece of their work. From what I understand, this is unnecessary and is, more or less, a written reminder to anyone who might think about copying someone's work. What do you think, my friend?


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, xstatic. I took the suggestion and deleted it forever. Spam is not something I'd expect here, but there is always someone with the motivation to do something that is, at the least, annoying.

Thank you for noting the alliteration. My intent was to portray a sense of chaotic craziness that comes with extreme anxiety. I hope that is what comes across, my supportive friend. I appreciate your visits, xstatic.


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Curiad 4 years ago from Lake Charles, LA.

A beautiful story of the fight and the inner turmoil we go through in these situations.

Yes the article is copyrighted as soon as you publish it. The verbiage is optional and just a warning.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Hi Mark. Thank you for letting me know about the copyright conundrum. I thought that was the scoop, but I didn't want to assume, as I noticed some go to the added trouble of the verbiage.

As always, I appreciate your thoughts and support of my work. I hope you are feeling well and enjoying your weekend. It feels like, after the long brutal summer here, complete with a drought and triple-digit temps, autumn isn't far off. This weekend has been sunny with low humidity and in the 80's with some rain predicted tonight. Basement Bill, my neighbor who rents a space below, is happiest in the brutal heat and dreads the slow march to fall. I won't be sorry to see another miserable Midwest summer bite the dust.


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billybuc 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

Took the day off yesterday my dear, and came back to 174 emails...I am just getting caught up.....so you won't be getting my usual long-worded comment. This is, however, beautiful work. Sorry about the spamming, and I don't have a clue what one does about that....report it to HP and let them handle it...I know they are pretty quick in dealing with that sort of thing.

love from afar,

bill


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, my friend. I know what you mean about catching up after one measly day off. I hope you enjoyed a free Sunday. Love to you, Bill.


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Emotional and interesting poem. It's usually anxiety that holds us back and keeps us from doing things. Sometimes it's hard to fight but it's something we have to try not to let get the best of us.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

So true, Gypsy. Anxiety is difficult to overcome when someone is prone to it. It can be paralyzing. Thank you for your support. You help me feel less anxious!


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suzettenaples 4 years ago from Taos, NM

Amy: I will not abandon you! You are being silly! LOL Thanks for the recommendation - I will look into her. Her name sounds familiar for some reason. Thanks!


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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Hi Amy...I've just seen your question about copywrite(s) and, also, the spam. Glad to hear you were able to get rid of it; I had several 'spammers' hitting my "I write this with a heavy heart" hub and it took FOREVER to be rid of them! Hope your interloper stays away.

I have registered my "Lucky Cats" on an online, digital copywrite site. On some of my hubs, particularly the 'respect' series; I've added the notice. I like that there is some kind of notification just to remind those who might steal; that the work is protected. It certainly did not help when the BigEzine site stole so much of the writing from HP's several months ago, though! With the effort of many writers here...(and no other official assistance, as far as I know), BigEzine was booted for a while and our content was dropped from their site...this is the last I know of it. I think lord de cross did a real number on them, if I'm not mistaken. I haven't, yet, learned how to just place the copywrite symbol & my name at the bottom of my hubs so, I cut and paste the actual notification of each individual hub I choose to place on copywrite (and I DO these individually; not sure if this is right). I was thinking of asking around a bit to learn more. Hope this helps, my dear friend Amy..Kathy


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suzettenaples 4 years ago from Taos, NM

Amy: Just read some of Audrey Howitt's poem on her blogspot site. Great poetry, although I still like yours best. Her poetry is really interesting and she is too. Thanks for the recommendation!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Kathy. There seems to be discrepancies about the copyright issue, which is important to writers. I'm going to google "digital copyright site" and read what they have to say about it, too.

Another weird thing just happened when I clicked "approve" at the bottom of your latest comment. I've never seen THAT before! Check it out above if you come back to see my response. Oh! When I posted my comment back to you, it went back normal. Wow!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Wow, Suzette. You just paid me the ultimate compliment. I am so grateful for all that you bring to my love of and satisfaction in writing. You are truly an inspiration.


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BlossomSB 4 years ago from Victoria, Australia

A great poem with depth of feeling. Loved both the alliteration and assonance.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you kindly, Blossom. I was trying to convey a sense of "anxiety/chaos" with the alliteration. I appreciate your support!


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always exploring 4 years ago from Southern Illinois

Man has things ever changed? Perfect video for this piece of gospel truth. When George Jones sings, ' Things have gone to pieces ' He ' ain't kidding. The economy SUCKS..and talk about anxiety, it's rampant all over the world. Maybe things will settle down after the election. I am sick of all the million dollar adds that both sides are running. I am sick of all the shooters who take the lives of the innocent. It fills us all with uncertain anxiety. I feel better just getting it off my chest. I hope you do too. Love ya. My friend


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I'm glad I'm not alone, Ruby, although it is troubling to think that so many are plagued by anxiety. But, how could anyone not be today? You said it perfectly, my friend. I don't believe the elections will help one iota. From what I've seen, we are on our own, regardless of who wins. I have seen, through my own circumstances now, that there is no help other than our own ingenuity. Unfortunately, for many that means crime. The rest are squeaking by on a wing and a prayer. As far as gov't goes I believe none of what I hear and less than half of what I see. My life sits between a rock and a hard place. I'm on my own, like all the poor today. And, the longer you sit there, the deeper the hole you have to crawl out of. When you get to a certain level with no health care without insurance, lack of necessary medications or dental care, you become too ill to pull yourself up by your bootstraps. Then, I suppose, the gov't can breathe a sign of relief when one more undesirable bites the dust. They have washed their hands of the poor and won't lose sleep when they die and decrease the surplus population. Anxiety? Who me? LOL

Love you, my friend. Without friends like you, Ruby, I don't know what I'd do.


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ThoughtSandwiches 4 years ago from Reno, Nevada

Amy,

This is a wonderful poem about a universal condition I think. With so much to be anxious about it becomes hard to prioritize which ones I should worry about most. The saving grace that I have found is the realization that 98% of the things you worry about never come to pass. Now I'm worried about that hidden 2%. That said, I'm going to put aside those worries and reread this delightful work and rest easy in the knowledge that I don't appear to be alone.

Thomas


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Awwww, your message is so well stated and thoughtful, Thomas. In fact, it is so sweet in an innocent way, I almost feel like crying...especially the last part of the last line "in the knowledge that I don't appear to be alone." I think the saddest beat of the song so many sing today is the fear that they are alone in whatever muck they find themselves stuck in. Thank you, Thomas, for your eloquence and rest assured, high anxiety lives at the forefront of most life today. Most days, I feel like it's the only element of control I have and that is what keeps me sane.


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PegCole17 4 years ago from Dallas, Texas

Hello Amy,

What a deeply meaningful and thought-provoking poem. You are truly gifted in writing what so many others are feeling or have felt. Sharing your experience will certainly open the door to healing for others who realize they are not alone in this. Expressing yourself is key to understanding and growing beyond the experiences of the moment. Thank you for sharing this poem.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Peg, for a gorgeously, rich message that tells me I am a wealthy woman for having readers like you.


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CrazedNovelist 4 years ago from Hampton, GA

You know I love alliteration. ;) Good job girl.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I thought of you when I tried it here. Thanks for the idea, Aubrey!


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WillStarr 4 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

You grab us and make us pay attention, Amy! Very good.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I appreciate your time and attention, Will. It's very rewarding to hear that something I say strikes a chord...that I make a difference...that I matter. Thank you


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WillStarr 4 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

You matter very much, my dear. I always read you, even if I don't have time to comment.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you so much, Will.

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