Loneliness...

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The Blizzard

This morning

delightful.

Where I always

wanted to be

with you

by a lake

in winter's first

snow, but there is

no joy for me.

Like the geese

flying south,

I circle blindly.

Caught in the

blizzard of love.

Dated


Dated,

even poetry

must be.

Now, I think this must be

a day of love.

Valentines,

and chocolates

for your sweetheart.

I was alone today.

So I made some cookies

and gave them to myself.

Dated.

Some day I will look back

and discover

exactly when it was

I first substituted

cookies

for love.

Happy Valentines Day.

Feb 14 1975

Forever Lasting


I never learned to be alone

with sorrow in my heart.

I only wish to be alone

when joyful feelings start.


To be alone with sorrow

is worse than any fear.

Loneliness and sadness both

will never bring love near.


To be alone with joy

is time forever lasting

is peace, a secret pride

in heartfelt hopes I'm casting.


The fear of death is real

the fear of illness too,

But the fear of sorrow's seal

has struck me through and through.


I can take the lonely vista

of a coastal mountain walk

when my mind is full of love

and I have no need to talk.


I can take the quiet longing

at the seaside evening tide

When all the boats are gone to sea

I still have love inside.


But in the dark of night

by the fire light

My heart revolts and rues

To be alone in sorrow

is not the life I choose.

Valentine's Day 1980

Friends

For lack of

a morning coffee

companion

my heart turns

to solitary

endeavors.

The longing by

noon is on its

way to work.

By dinner my

vacant heart

slinks silently

home.

And in evening

my hopes sit

near the phone.


Now and Then

The lethal mix

of then and now.

The painful now,

the then...

Author's note: I've tried to date all the poems in this collection, some I could not. Forever Lasting was published earlier in another Hub which I recently unpublished.

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Laurinzo Scott 3 years ago from Phoenix, Az.

This is such beautiful writing , I knew I wanted to share it on my page when I first began reading... Wow!!!


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jhamann 3 years ago from Reno NV

I have been waiting and I am glad I did, such a great read and well written. I like everything about this poem. Oh, and what a great ending! Jamie


Vincent Moore 3 years ago

My dear poet, you have resonated in my soul. All of these masterpieces spoke to me in many different ways. You have a command of the feelings that loneliness brings to many. I pray that you are not a solitary person such as I, however if you are, please as I do move about my surroundings and get stirred by living each day content with my lot in life. You are a brilliant poet and these surely came from your soul. Hugs and most definitely shared, tweeted and FB.


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Curiad 3 years ago from Lake Charles, LA.

Beautiful expressions of loneliness and how Love can fill those empty times. But also how love itself can be a sorrow when it is missing.

Mark


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mckbirdbks 3 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

snakeslane, your words lay open the wound of loneliness for all to see. You express that feeling that has crept upon the lot of us at one time or another. The pain is deeply felt. The poet's life is not an easy one.


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Hey guys, I'm overwhelmed by the response to the Loneliness page. But let's face it, who hasn't been lonely. I was sorting through notebooks looking for something for Valentine's Day, and this is what I came up with, the anti Valentine. It just seemed appropriate somehow.

Laurinzo, thank you! And thank you for sharing.

Jhamman, Thank you, I'm no further along in understanding what makes poetry, so for now I'm just going with I've got.

Vincent, I am so pleased that you found my page. I've given up trying to separate the poet from the poem. It is what it is.

Curiad, Thank you so much.

mckbbks, The poet's life is kind of special though don't you think. We get to go where angels fear to tread. Thank you!


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xstatic 3 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

This is so beautiful and so universal. As you say above, who hasn't been lonely.


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tobusiness 3 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

Snakeslane, this is wonderful poetry, loneliness; a place where we've all spent some time, but never wish to return. Poignant and very beautiful.


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Mhatter99 3 years ago from San Francisco

Thank you for sharing you insights. I have lived a very public life. This is a strange new experience.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS

Dear, dear Snakeslane. It's challenging to comment on this. You've captured the raw feelings, part of which is that their very dullness is rawness when loneliness stalks. You've described the personal choices involved. Perhaps it's fragmentation which hurts most. Whether alone or with others, our sorrow or joy are possible companions, which we invite or entertain.

But yes - it is what it is and the poem IS the poet at the moment of conception and creation of it. I'll read it again. I feel I need to, to do it justice.


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

xstatic, Thank you for the read. Loneliness is a human condition we all have in common at one time or another, that's for sure.


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Hi Jo, Thank you for reading and warm comment. :)


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Martin, You are welcome. You are so loved for the joy you bring into people's lives with your exuberant poetry, clearly you are a man of the people. I hope that gift is always returned to you, you deserve it.


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prasetio30 3 years ago from malang-indonesia

Beautiful and I love your poem. Thanks for writing and share with us. Cheers...Prasetio


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Dear Nellieanna, I thank you for taking up the challenge lady! But seriously, are you going to analyse my writing? I'm not sure what to make of it myself. It's pretty rudementary, experimenting with metaphor which I never really understood. I know that geese mate for life, or so I am told. So there is something about that that started off this page, and then finding the "vacant heart slinking silently home" poem which of course was my little homage to Yeats' 'Second Coming':

"And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,

Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?"

Thank you Mr Yeats! I had no understanding of metaphor when I wrote the poem, as much as I really wanted to, so I just used it the best way I knew how at the time, as a device to distance myself somehow from the words, thinking that's what poets did. Everything I've ever written has come from the same tentative place of not really knowing, but it didn't seem to matter, I just kept writing anyway. So it's very naive in more ways than one. But I'm glad I wrote it, and it seems somehow worthier now that all the years have intervened. I don't know why.


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Prasetio, You are welcome, thank you!


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PegCole17 3 years ago from Dallas, Texas

This is deliciously sad, like the Roy Orbison song included here, one of my very favorites. You are able to capture in these few lines the sentiment that so many of us have felt at times, even when in the company of others. Great write and I loved the illustration of the geese.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS

Dear snakes - I wanted to think about your poem about loneliness with keener sensitivity to what it really says, not its poetic form. There are reasons in my background for why I needed to let the meanings of your poem speak to me, with which I won't clutter your comment thread. Those personal reasons really don't matter here, but I may share them with you in an email, if that's ok. They're all 'to do with' my own life experiences, which have been almost devoid of feelings of loneliness, though I've been deeply alone for many major times of my life from early childhood.

The thoughts that caused my comment was that I really couldn't simply honestly say, "Hey, yeah, I've felt that kind of loneliness"; but I fully appreciate & respect that it's a valid & understandable experience if I quietly let your from-the-guts words soak into my guts, which I'm always eager to do whenever reading others' self-expression & experience, whether it seems on the surface the same as or other than my own.

I'm keenly aware that no two humans experience things identically, though some are more alike than others for similarities in situations & perceptivites, while others are almost 'foreign' for lack of those similarities.

For example, I can't see things from a male's perspective on first glance, but if I listen with openness of feeling & perception of mind to the messages, I'm better able to understand & see overlapping human similarities we all do share. In areas in which our experiences scarcely could have overlapped at all, I realize that I can cursorily neither dismiss it or acknowledge it with as if recognizing & agreeing or disagreeing when I'm virtually ignorant of first-hand experience. It requires letting the other person's true message soak in to fertile ground to be absorbed and internalized.

There's nothing contradictory about differences in individual experiences, just difference. In fact, when wondrous words which express anothers' depth come up in conversation or writing, it provides opportunity to expand one's own perceptivity into the limitlessness of mutual understanding, especially when shared with such poetic beauty & honesty as you've done here & with a real desire to understand as I feel. I probably don't need to explain that to you at all, unless I appeared to be pedantic in my first comment, which I suspect may have inadvertently happened. :-)


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Hey Peg, Delicious is so delicious. Thank you


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Hi Nellieanna, I do love the way you do all the heavy lifting. I love poetry because it is a short hand we use at moments and then attempt to 'fill in' later (saying this from the 'author' point of view, but then there is the narrator, and then the reader, and then the whole vast archive of the English language to hold it up to). Because Hub Pages offers this super venue to create a page, a 'showcase' for our work, it feels OK to share the weight of the message between all the elements to come up with the 'meaning'. I'm not so sure now if my own experience enters into the final picture either. Oh, so deep we wade into the motivation behind our scribble and our stories. Thank you again Ms Nellieanna, you are amazing.


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always exploring 3 years ago from Southern Illinois

snakeslane, You have the most beautiful, expressive poetry that leaves me with a feeling of sad times, then i remember your other hubs and know you are contented and love doing for others, esp. taking care of the animals and your flowers. It is amazing that you kept your poetry. I am so glad you did. Thank you for sharing..


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Hello Ms Ruby, Yes, sadness is an overwhelming emotion, I find it best not to go there except to find a place to put it. I have a flip side that finds lightness and beauty, I am grateful for the balance too. However I know that deep loss can only be appreciated when one has known joy, so that is what this page is about for me. Thank you for your sweet comment. Hope all is well with you.


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Jackie Lynnley 3 years ago from The Beautiful South

Beautiful composition. Thanks for the song too. Been awhile, really love it.


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Jackie, Thanks :) I love Roy Orbison too. He cornered the market on the 'crying song' genre at the time. Well there was Brenda Lee, and Patsy Cline...


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Rosemay50 3 years ago from Hawkes Bay - NewZealand

Beautiful poetry s,lane, you really capture the feelings of lonliness especially on a day like valentines day. But you are never alone when you have such good friends around you.

Love Roy Orbison


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Hi Rosemay, thank you :). Yes, writing sad, and being sad are two different things. I think for some people this kind of loneliness may be very current, people who have lost a mate (or significant other) to accident, illness, or war. This hub is dedicated to all those lonely people.


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Hyphenbird 3 years ago from America-Broken But Still Beautiful

Snakelane, this is a lovely interpretation of sadness. So many of us have felt it and some still do. Your poem is beautiful and the photograph is a perfect choice.


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Hi Brenda, Thank you! The photo is pretty amazing, check out the link to ahisgett's photo stream if you get a chance, it is awesome.


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marcoujor 3 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

This is the total package of powerful words, your amazing voice, the exquisite photograph and the perfect Roy song...

As I am mulling this upcoming month's perspective theme of "loneliness", your poetry is giving me much food for thought.

I always look forward to your poetry. Like Ruby, I think it is fabulous you have kept your work all these years. Voted UP and ABI.

Hugs, mar


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epigramman 3 years ago

Don't worry I've eaten cookies 'every fookin' day' of my life and not just on Valentine's day - and I was so homely as a kid my mudder tied pork chops around my neck so the neighbor dogs would play with me - and as I got older I am still no longer homely - just homelier.

On a respectful note to you my sensational Snakeslane - you are such a lovely, pure, sincere writer -and that's the highest acclaim I could give 'any' writer/poet - thank you for just being you.

lake erie timeless for you.


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Hello Mar, I'm so happy to see your lovely comment. Thank you very much. I do enjoy digging into past writings, and finding the things my younger self made sure I wouldn't forget. I'll look forward to reading your perspective on lonliness. If I don't comment right away don't worry, I may go online occaisionally at the local internet cafe, have a coffee and a cheese danish, and see what's new. Sounds like fun actually. A whole new adventure. Hugs right back. :)


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Haha Epi, You are such a funny guy. And so generous with the praise, thank you, most appreciated. Is that lake froze over yet? Stay safe driving. Have a great weekend.


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Movie Master 3 years ago from United Kingdom

Wow, what wonderful expressive poetry, you've certainly captured the feeling of loneliness.

Rob Orbison's song is one of my favourites.

Thank you and voted up.

Best wishes Lesley


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blaise25 3 years ago from close to you...

Very well expressed and painted. How could you be lonely if many hubbers loved this hub :) Cheers!


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Hi Lesley, Thank you so much. Appreciate the 'Wow'. Roy Orbison has such a haunting voice, especially this song.


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

blaise, That's a good point lol. OK, not lonely, all better now.


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Twilight Lawns 3 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K.

My dear friend, I can whack out a "poem" or a bit of rhyming verse as well as the next man, or woman, but this following gripped my heart and brought me too close to tears for comfort. There is nothing about it that falls short of the mark, so I'm pasting the lot.

"Friends

For lack of

a morning coffee

companion

my heart turns

to solitary

endeavors.

The longing by

noon is on its

way to work.

By dinner my

vacant heart

slinks silently

home.

And in evening

my hopes sit

near the phone."

Much love and admiration,

Ian


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Ian, There, there, don't you cry now. Big hug. Some day that phone is going to be ringing off the hook (hopefully a call from your publisher with a cheque for royalties on your best selling book). Thank you!


dreamseeker2 3 years ago

Love the poetry and the feel to each and every one. I could feel it all...the bitter sweet taste of love, to have it just miss its mark. Voted it up and awesome. Although it was quite beautiful too! : )


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midget38 3 years ago from Singapore

I feel the loneliness and I know how it must feel to be so on such a day. Thanks for sharing these wonderful poems! Sharing!


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drbj 3 years ago from south Florida

Remarkable haunting poetry, snakeslane and the photo is remarkable, too. Looks almost like those geese are holding wings (hands).


Vickiw 3 years ago

Really lovely poem snakeslane. Thoughts and poems about loneliness strike a chord deep within us, and you captured that so well. Thank you.


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

dreamseeker, Thank you so much.

midget, You are so kind, thank you.

drbj, hey Mrs, thank you. I love the geese flying, it is a beautiful photo, I was happy to find it.

Vicki, thank you very much.


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AudreyHowitt 3 years ago from California

I am so happy to reading this--ironic? This is so well done--you make me want to weep--the beauty and vulnerability--its a gift --and I thank you!


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wayne barrett 3 years ago from Clearwater Florida

Poignant, beautiful. I am grateful that this was shared and that I was able to enjoy it. Great job!


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Audrey, Thank You!


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

wayne, Thank you so much for reading and your kind comment. And welcome to Hub Pages!


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janshares 3 years ago from Washington, DC

Just wanted to stop by and say I appreciate your poetry. These are beautifully written and speak well to the notion of lonliness. Thanks for sharing from your sacred archives :-) Up and beautiful.


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Thank you janshares, for the visit and you kind remarks :)


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Vinaya Ghimire 3 years ago from Nepal

Snakeslane,

I have not published poetry for a while but I do love to read poems.

I loved your poems on the theme of loneliness.

We can be alone in the crowd, and we can be amongst crowd when in solitude. Loneliness is a perception.

Beautiful compositions.

I choose Friends as my favorite, which suits my mood tonight.


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

Vinaya, Thank you, I hope your mood improves. And I know you will get back to poetry once you have completed the apprenticeship. Take care, s lane


ExoticHippieQueen 3 years ago

While they are all beautiful poems, Forever Lasting touches me the most. The ache of loneliness and sorrow are two primary emotions that haunt the human heart. You expressed yourself so very aptly, and bound us all together in the acknowledgement of such pain.


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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada Author

EHQueen, Thanks so much for reading and commenting. Forever Lasting was written 33 years ago, and I am so happy that you can relate.


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always exploring 2 years ago from Southern Illinois

I came back to read again, thie is soo beautiful, i've done the cookie bit, no fun.


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snakeslane 2 years ago from Canada Author

Good morning Ms always, cookies really do fill the gap don't they!? Haha :)


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Sed-me 23 months ago from An undisclosed location.

You really are a lovely writer. You present yourself as someone who is on the mature side, but you don't come across that way at all. Your humor and the way you express yourself makes you seem like you're in your 20s. What a fun and unique person you must be. :)


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snakeslane 23 months ago from Canada Author

Hi Beth, thank you. I don't think I'm much fun, I avoid people mostly. But the 'funny' is what gets me through life. I love SNL love comedy.


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Twilight Lawns 23 months ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K.

I am so glad Sed-me read this and brought it to my attention once again.

My dear friend, this remains one of the loveliest hub on this site.

Loved your poems... love them still.


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snakeslane 23 months ago from Canada Author

Dear Ian, Oh stop it! I got your Christmas Twilight Lawns letter, but of course I haven't read it yet because I've been working through the holidays (including today, now in the last few hours of house sitting which is when the sitting stops and I run around cleaning all traces of my slovenly stay) whew! And then pick her up at the airport, hand over the dog (now that's a story) and the keys, creep home to my place which is a disaster zone. But heh, the weather is not bad, and it's a new year just around the corner. Good to see you! Mwah!


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Twilight Lawns 23 months ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K.

Mwah! also

Ian

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