Looking In

I stand on one side of the glass, wondering

Looking on, as if a stranger, never belonging

My mind wonders, in and out of thoughts

Ideas, memories all just streaming through

Time meanders in my life, weaving a mixed path

 

I stand on one side of the glass, pondering

What would have if I had chosen another

What could have if I had the courage

What should have if I had the clarity

Time meanders in my life, leading me unknowingly

 

I stand on one side of the glass, reflecting

Choices, decisions, there have been many

Where would I have gone, who would I be today

There are so many if only’s, if what’s, if I had’s

Time meanders in my life, forging ahead

 

I stand on one side of the glass, frozen

Past emerges, nightmarish, real

Emotions are a whirlpool, pulling me

Down, down, down, spinning a spiral

Time meanders in my life, meaningless

 

I stand on one side of the glass, surrendering

It’s hard to withstand, easy to give in

Drowning me, overcoming me

There’s a sense of comfort, familiarity

Time meanders in my life, long forgotten

 

I stand on one side of the glass, shivering

Digging deep within, searching

A flicker of light, a bit of hope

Voices I hear, some encouragement

Time meanders in my life, quietly ticking

 

I stand on one side of the glass, rooted

Fists clenched, mind determined

Fighting, with whole soul and great might

Pulling, pulling myself out

Time meanders in my life, seconds counting

 

I stand on one side of the glass, breathless

Darkness releasing, spilling all about

Brightness abounds, warmth wrapping ‘round

Relief washes over, as darkness fades

Time meanders in my life, reminding

 

I stand on one side of the glass, rejoicing

I am alive

Beth100

August 2, 2009

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Beth100 5 years ago from Canada Author

Pearldiver -- You know I couldn't resist you, so yes! :) Now, what are the directions to Bumbletown? ha ha ha Thank you for your compliment -- means the world to me coming from you. I consider you one of the best here on HP... actually, one of the best that I have and continue to read!! :)


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Beth100 5 years ago from Canada Author

DjBryle -- Thank you for your wonderful support and kind words. It pleases me to know that it has comforted you. :) Wishing you a peaceful and loving 2011!


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Pearldiver 5 years ago from Tomorrow - In Words & NZ Time.

Excellent prose Beth... that I hope you will go back and read again... not so much the poem; but more the time line that is stretched out here in front of us, which shows an increasing growth of an excellent writer and the esteem that is heartfelt for her heartfelt words.. Very Nice.. Marry Me Tommorrow... haha Thanks for sharing your talent.


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DjBryle 5 years ago from Somewhere in the LINES of your MIND, and HOPEFULLY at the RIPPLES of your HEART. =)

The flow of emotions in this awesome poetry has captured me, just so as the happy ending, I feel so comforted, as there are times when I look at the mirror and feel the same way as what you have artfully put into words. Thanks for sharing this masterpiece of yours,my friend. Wishing you a blessed 2011!


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

Tom -- I don't know if I could take him seriously, plaid suit or not! :)


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tom hellert 6 years ago from home

Beth,

How can you not take a guy in a plaid suit seriously or was it how can you take him serious

"Ya Know these kids there trying hard out there ...but Ron if Ive told you once Ive toll-ya a 1000 times kids keep your heads up out tjere!!!! "


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

TH -- I never take Cherry seriously, so I hope that it wasn't him who said that. lol Arthur Miller -- now, I like that one. Thanks for sharing it!


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tom hellert 6 years ago from home

B300,

"If you are patient in one moment of anger, you will escape a hundred days of regret"- chinesse proverb or was it don cherry- probably the chinesse

Maybe all one can do is hope to end up with the right regrets.

Arthur Miller

TH


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

Fred Allen -- You have given me one of the highest compliments possible! Thank you!! I love to write poetry, and many of my pieces are not published. I have them in a box, somewhere. I'm elated that you enjoyed this piece. :)


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fred allen 6 years ago from Myrtle Beach SC

Nice progression, Divine conclusion! If someone told me that I have the heart of a poet, I would consider it a most high compliment. You have the heart of a poet!


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

lxxy -- Great minds think alike!!! Great to see you! :) Ah, we don't spend enough time in our womb...maybe the world would be a different place if we did. I'd love to read yours!


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lxxy 6 years ago from Beneath, Between, Beyond

Ahh, the miracle of life!

"I stand on one side of the glass, pondering

What would have if I had chosen another"

This reminds me of a lyrical poem I wrote many moons ago, similar concept. A bit darker. But it spoke of reflecting within. Always a great hobby, in my tomb. ;)


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

Kenneth -- Awww!!! *blush* And you're one terrific poet too!


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kenneth godin 6 years ago from canada

Your welcome you got real talent!


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

Kenneth -- Thank you very much for your compliment. :) I am really happy that you enjoyed this poem.


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kenneth godin 6 years ago from canada

this was one of the best I read since I joined hp!


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

Steven -- It's always been a interesting concept for me to study...how we are all different yet so much alike. It doesn't matter how far we are apart in this world, or our backgrounds, or our beliefs. Human kind is more alike than what we want to believe. Thanks Steven!


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Stevennix2001 6 years ago

Beth, I just have to say that this was probably one of the best poems you've ever written. However, I always find each poem of yours that I read to be good, but this one really touched me. As I think it plays true on how a lot of people feel about themselves. Showing we all tend to question ourselves in various points of our lives, yet still having the will to handle each day with a fresh mind. Your a great poet Beth. It's no wonder why a lot of people admire and respect you. Your not only one of the most beautiful girls, I know. However, you have a deep and beautiful soul too, and it shows in this poem.


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

Sam -- Thank you and I have enjoyed reading your poetry. :)


SamAntone 6 years ago

Nice way to easily bring in the moods. Good imagery. You inspire me to put in more of my own poetry.


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

Sophs -- Thank you for reading my poems as it is an audience like you who give me inspiration to write. :)


sophs 6 years ago

So beautiful, I really enjoyed this thanks for sharing :)


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

Moulik Mistry -- Thank you for allowing yourself to be drawn in. :)

I*N*V*I*C*T*U*S -- It's great to see you! Thank you for your compliments as I greatly value your thoughts. I am very happy that this poem led you to a great place. =)


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I*n*v*i*c*t*u*s 6 years ago

I love this poem. So beautifully written. I made a promise to myself long ago not to regret and question past decisions..back when I was a teen and had completed a 'full circle' of every extreme and realized that the ugliest hour and maybe the worse choice all compiled to whom I had become. happily so. Of course..there are these moments.. to reflect... Though, I say this poem speaks more when my heart is involved somewhere in the present....wanting to ensure the placing of aware steps...

You are an amazing poet, Beth!You took me to a great place..thank you. I plan to read more... :D


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Moulik Mistry 6 years ago from Burdwan, West Bengal, India

It is a deep portrayal of your self, so introspective that I cannot remain aloof from your sentiments, well done...


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

Winsome -- Never aks directions? This reminds me of a few people I know! lol Yes, when our heart and spirit is at peace, we know that we are where we should be. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, I greatly appreciate that.


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Winsome 6 years ago from Southern California by way of Texas

Very nice Beth. I like to say that when traveling I have two rules: Never ask directions and if you think you are going in the wrong direction---speed up! =:) When I slow down, I know my heart is at peace, going where it ought to be going. Time meandering....ahhhh. Thanks for a lovely piece.


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

Charanjeet Kaur -- You sound like a very giving person. You are never lost; just look into your own soul with truth. You will find yourself. I hope you have and will. Thank you for your wonderful comments. I'm glad that you read this and left me with your thoughts.


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charanjeet kaur 6 years ago from Delhi

Beth this is indeed a beautiful piece you put in as a hub. Love the poem, made me retrospect in a good way of all the times I wish I stood up for myself. All my life was thinking about others, there comes a point when I look at the past and feel I lost myself.


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

Sage -- Thank you for your wonderful comments! It pleases me so that you, as a reader, enjoyed reading it as much as I did composing it.


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Sage Williams 6 years ago

What a brilliant poem, you have captured an array of thoughts and emotions. Digging, deeper and deeper, intensity builds. Ending with, rejoicing to be alive.

Great job, love your poem, love the title and the repeating of the first line in each stanza. "I stand on the side of the glass" very effective.

Sage


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

MOW -- Yours is a great compliment, and I thank you. I feels wonderful to have you relating to my words (well, actually, me!).


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myownworld 6 years ago from uk

Beautifully written....you take us through a whole spectrum of emotions here....what it means to be human actually....and I could truly relate to it. Brilliant!


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

Denno -- I am really happy that you've enjoyed this poem. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.


Denno66 6 years ago

This is poetry as its best. Vivid, real, images wrapped within carefully-chosen, never-random words. Expressing depths of sorrow; heights of happiness. I truly enjoyed this. Thank you. :-)


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

Petra Vlah -- Thank you and I am happy that you enjoyed reading it.


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Petra Vlah 6 years ago from Los Angeles

A great poem. I loved everything about it; the idea, the emotions, the way it flows. Thank you


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Beth100 6 years ago from Canada Author

Thank you Ray. Happy New Year to you too!


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aware 6 years ago from West Palm Beach Florida.

great poem Beth. I love it.Happy new year.

ray


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Misty -- Thank you for sharing your feelings. And thanks for your support.


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mistywild 7 years ago from Houston, TX (Proud Texan)

the words of your poem almost fell off my computer the were so strong. I could feel the emotion. Beautiful. Thanks for sharing.


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Dolly -- All poetry should be read out loud and thank you for your wonderful comments!


sangeeta (Dolly) Kumar 7 years ago

Your poem is soulful and beautiful. To do justice, it would be wonderful to hear it out loud.


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Rawlus -- Ha ha ha! Now, that's the quick way out! I like it! (and no toe stubbing here!) lol :)


ralwus 7 years ago

Hmmm, very nice knitting of our alphabet I must say. I was hoping you just pick up a chair and smash the dam glass and step into life. It worked out anyway. Keep writing, your good, no, gooder! CC


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Thank you jacobkuttyta for sharing your comments and for dropping by!


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jacobkuttyta 7 years ago from Delhi, India

Nice read... Thanks for sharing your thougts


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Thank you for your kinds words Jenni! I'm very glad that you enjoyed this piece!


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jenni1453 7 years ago from Dalton, Ga

I was drawn in and connected to this poem. You have a gifted way of expressing how it feels, wanting to find that true sense of self, and lack of second guessing. A very insightful and inspirational piece.


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Ioua -- Thanks for dropping by. Happy endings are always what I want! :)


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loua 7 years ago from Elsewhere, visiting Earth ~ the segregated community planet

Grammatically and lyrically I like the use of the parsed predicates it gives a synergy to the word path and the life path in a neat tempo.

As far as the story I'm glad the spiral decent had a happy landing... Well done...


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Manmoth - Thank you for your wonderful comments! I haven't thought of publishing any of my works, but now that the seed has been planted.... :)


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The Manmoth 7 years ago from Just a Hair Shy of Paradise, U.S.A.

Beth100,

Figuratively and literally, I love the cool, soothing rythem and the regular ressonances of "ing's" just before you bring us, the readers, back to "standing on one side of the glass." A brilliant poem; you should seriously consider submitting it to be published.


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Lgali - Thank you! I enjoyed writing this one! :)


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Lgali 7 years ago

another good one


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

DeBorrah -- Thank you and we can only learn of ourselves by looking truthfully within. By doing so, we can change and grow.


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DeBorrah K. Ogans 7 years ago

Beth100

Nice poem very introspective!

Blessings


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Kim -- Thank you for reading and for your supportive comments. Peace!


Kim Garcia 7 years ago

Very lovely Beth!! Reflective in more ways than one. I appreciate your perspective and sense of time. Peace n' Blessings! ~ K


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Thank you Michael.


Michael Achilles 7 years ago

Lovely.


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Manlypoetryman - Thank you for your compliments. Yes, I am glad to be where I am today, alive, aware and looking forward to the future!


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manlypoetryman 7 years ago from (Texas !) Boldly Writing Poems Where No Man Has Gone Before...

So many perplexities to ponder? Only a Poet would dare try to go there in words and thoughts...Well Done. Liked this one...alot! Not all can find reasons to rejoice at the end of their long search within...Yet Interestingly, you appear glad to be now on the other side looking back. Sounds like no matter what you had been through...You were glad to be where you were at...and alive.


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Saqqara - I have read your poems here on hubs, and they are wonderful. What is your blog address? And thank you for your sincere comment!


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floeticpoet 7 years ago

Beautiful poem! I love all of the passionate words you used.

You should come visit my blog and read some of my poetry sometime.


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

GoodfriendIam - Here and now is the best, and I'm still practising in staying in the present, but am enjoying every second of it! Thank you for your encouragement and celebration!

K@ri - It encourages me to write when I see that what I write can be shared and felt amongst everyone. Thank you for letting me know how it made you feel!


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k@ri 7 years ago from Sunny Southern California

You had me 100% with this one! I sooo understand "Time meanders". Beautiful poem...I really, really loved it! :D


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goodfriendiam 7 years ago

Beth I am so happy that you have found the life, in the here and now, for it can be no were else but here. I rejoice with you my friend!!!


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Larry -- Clarity can be hard to come by at times and if we only could see what others see in us, it might be an easier task. Thank you for coming by!


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Enigmatic Me 7 years ago from East Coast Canada

Well written, it hit me... you did a good job.

Look forward to reading more.


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maven101 7 years ago from Northern Arizona

Lots of emotion and soul searching here..very expressive ..indeed, we all cry out for clarity...Thank you, Beth, for this lovely prose....

Carpe diem, Larry


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Aye, matey, me thinks at times I am. :D


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Introspection is a good way to reground ourselves to reality. Thanks for the words of wisdom, John! Always great to hear them from you!


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John Chancellor 7 years ago from Tennessee

Regret is one of the most painful things we can experience. The solution is to live life a little fuller. Take more chances. Be bold.

Only when we take chances, really experience life do we finally realize we are alive.

Good for some introspection.


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Yup, all those " a's" in life....thanks for reading fiery!


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fierycj 7 years ago from The Fiery Heart of Africa

The regrets of life, huh - coulda, woulda, shoulda...in the end you're alive, so what do you do with the gift. Nice poem, Beth.


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Beth100 7 years ago from Canada Author

Thx alittlebitcrazy for your wonderful comment!


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alittlebitcrazy 7 years ago

Beautiful poem - full of lively emotion, and a happy ending. I enjoyed it!

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