Love-Light Within Part I

My new Book

Love-Light Within

Preface

“Purple Light we all adore, now blaze within I implore. Raise joy from the start; warm my face and heart.”

It’s March 2010, in Cave Junction, Oregon. I’m standing outside on our back patio deck looking up at the pale blue sky, framed by forest green mountains, where three lovely and majestic raptors circle above. For a brief moment in time, I let my Spirit fly and soar with their free floating and aerial gymnastics.

I’m trying to comfort myself by searching for emotional pathways to healing from all of the overwhelming challenges and setbacks that I have experienced in the least year and a half. But this is easier said than done.

Have you ever found yourself wondering is there really a God? Or, why do so many bad things happen every day? Currently, I’m hurting and obsessing over the attempt of my minister and board president to have me dismissed from our church board. Let me set the scene for you a little more on that one.

I’ve played the piano for our church for the last two years as my charitable donation. I also run a free support group called Positive Life Changes for people who want to learn the four-step emotional healing process that I describe in my first book, The Eby Way. In addition, I stepped down as board president because our minister and four of our board directors refused to move the organ down to be close to the piano where I could play both instruments conveniently. The reasons for their decision still remain a mystery to me.

To make a long story short, I received a phone call last Friday from our new board president that a signed letter by a majority of board member would be mailed soon forcing me to resign completely from the board. I tried to point out that this action was illegal as it circumvented the church by-laws: they require that a board director can only be removed during a formal board meeting convened to vote on gross misconduct. And a special board meeting also requires at least a ten day notice to all members.

The board president ignored my points, but did elaborate that our minister had stated she couldn’t get along with me; for the good of the church she wanted me to resign. Although I felt shocked over this revelation, I tried my best to explain that our minister had been acting very strangely the last three months.

For example she had hung the phone up on several of our newer board directors; at least three church members complained to me about being treated in a rude fashion when interacting with her; and she recently totally lost her temper by screaming at me and pushing her fingers into my chest after the last board meeting.

The board president persisted in ignoring my information. She insisted that I would not be welcomed at the next board meeting. I ended our conversation with a plea for a special board meeting to focus on healing all of these issues and divisions in our church.

I spent the rest of the day angry and sad, but I did my best to pray and meditate to claim a desperate hope for some form of divine intervention. In the evening, I received a phone call from one of my fellow board supporters that agreement was reached to have this special healing meeting next week. I was also informed that the minister and the board president would apologize to me, and that there would be a mediator present at the meeting to facilitate reconciliation, team building, and over all emotional healing.

Needless to say, I was beyond relieved and grateful. This was the miraculous demonstration I was searching for all my life to prove that God does exist, and that divine intervention can be experienced personally in our life time.

I went to church the following Sunday happy, pleased, and humbled by this wonderful turn of events. When I arrived, I was greeted by the church president who handed me a letter with a stern look in her eyes. The letter announced that a special board meeting would be held in one week to discuss why I should be removed from the board, and that all board members would place their votes at the end of the meeting.

Wow. I felt emotionally devastated. It was almost impossible for me to play the piano at the church service, and deal with my anger, anxiety, sadness, and disappointment all at the same time. As you probably realized, I’m still obsessing about all of this painful drama as I speak to you in this moment in time.

So today, I took a deep breath. I looked up again at the high flying raptors gliding and circling with so much power, elegance, and grace. I returned to reading out loud my Purple Flame poem for inspiration, support, and healing. I hope you will read on to learn more about additional traumatic experiences that occurred in my life over the last year in half. And most importantly, you will discover soon how I claimed our inalienable right to healing, recovery, and personal contact with the Divine.

“I am this Purple Flame. I make this simple claim: Surround us with your Light; glow peaceful thru the night.”



Gary Eby, Author/Therapist/Life Coach

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VioletSun 6 years ago from Oregon/ Name: Marie

Gary: Just tonight, I was thinking that I feel regret, I lost the ability to pray as I don't think of God as outside of me, yet, I need someway to connect when troubled. Its important to have this foundation as we deal with the ups and downs of being human. I am sorry to read that the church wants you out because apparantly the leader has a temper. Taking a deep breath.


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Darlene Sabella 6 years ago from Hello, my name is Toast and Jam, I live in the forest with my dog named Sam ...

Gary, I know you have heard this over and over again, but this is the attitude that seems to be infecting the humans today. People treat others in a way that is undiscriblable. I am so sorry this has happened to you, but all thinks happen for a reason, and so sit back and watch this drama unfold, it you remove yourself from the emotional connection, we will see the rainbow.


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qlcoach 6 years ago from Cave Junction, Oregon Author

VioletSun: I'm learning more about the process of connecting to the Divine within us. There is good news: Our minister and church board have agreed to have a healing meeting this Sunday with an impartial mediator. I'll let you know how it turns outs. Oh, by the way, did you receive my book? I have copies if you need one. Peace and Light: Gary.


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qlcoach 6 years ago from Cave Junction, Oregon Author

Darlen: I appreciate your comments too. Stay tuned for the introduction to my new book. This article was just the preface. I also believe in the power of rainbows and what I'm calling the Love-Light within. Namaste...Gary.


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VioletSun 6 years ago from Oregon/ Name: Marie

Gary: I wish you look on Sunday, and yes do let us know how it went! No, I never recieved your book from your publisher, don't know what happened. Yes, I am interested in getting your book, but let me wait until the beginning of next month and I will purchase the book from you. Would appreciate your autograph. :)


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qlcoach 6 years ago from Cave Junction, Oregon Author

Thank you so much VioletSun. When you are ready, I will send you a signed copy of The Eby Way for only $10! Peace and Light: Gary.


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VioletSun 6 years ago from Oregon/ Name: Marie

Thank you so much! Will email you as I would love to purchase the book. Have been patient, but yikes, its about time I get to read it! :)


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DeBorrah K. Ogans 6 years ago

Qlcoach, This is quite sad and spiritually alarmimg! This scene seems all to familiar! So much ungodly behavior goes on behind the scene. No wonder the spiritual life of so many is full of havoc! There is a continual increase to deal with the Lord's business in such a carnal way!

A pretty picture is presented to the public but the application of God's principes are far removed! All Too often when one makes a stand those who you think will stand on the Word go along or sit on the fence.

One must keep in mind that we truly are in the lasts days! God sees everything! He has a way of showing us what is in man no matter how well they present a picture to His Church!

Be encouraged! "The JOY of the Lord is your strength!" Know the Lord always has something better!

Peace & Blessings!


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Eiddwen 6 years ago from Wales

Hi qlcoach I have only just found you on here and this hub is a subject very close to my heart. Maybe if you have a few spare minutes you would like to read a couple of my hubs, ie 'FROM THIS MOMENT ON' and 'My Beautiful Little Girl' I loved this hub and i am looking forward to reading more of your work. take care and God Bless.


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Victoria Lynn 5 years ago from Arkansas, USA

I'm looking forward to reading more of your hubs. You inspire me. I am a social worker as well. I have been questioning a lot about life, what direction to go, etc... and I think reading your hubs will be helpful. Thanks for posting this.


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Happyboomernurse 4 years ago from South Carolina

Am just finding this now. It always makes me sad to hear something like this, especially when it is occurring in a church. I hope by now the issues in this hub have been healed. I am inspired by the fact that no matter what trials and tribulations you face, you always seem to face them with faith and by trying to find healing and peace as quickly as possible.


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qlcoach 4 years ago from Cave Junction, Oregon Author

Happyboomernurse: You are always so kind and encouraging. Thank you for your interest in my work. I'm humbled by your support. Here's to emotional recovery: the balance between mind, body, and spirit. Peace and Light...Gary.


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brakel2 3 years ago from Oklahoma City, Oklahoma

Hi Gary - Sometimes people in a church are hurtful. My daughter, a church greeter for years, had a similar experience. I am proud of you for the faith that guides you along the way. When destructive behavior happens in our own country, somehow it trickles down to the masses. We must be positive in an imperfect world. By now, your situation has probably come to a conclusion. I hope it was a positive ending to a squabble over ludicrous behavior. I send you peace and light, and I love that phrase and what it means. Take care. Keep the faith. Audrey


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qlcoach 3 years ago from Cave Junction, Oregon Author

I really appreciate your comments brakel2. Here's the good news. The church has gone through a healing transition. They asked me back to be president of the Board again. Blessings to all who face challenges. There are positive solutions to any problem.

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