Love Me Before I Grow Old - Poetry By Cathy Nerujen

Love Me Before I Grow Old – Poetry by Cathy Nerujen

Please forgive the small story in my intro. This poem was written during a time when I was deeply infatuated with a person who was actually in love with someone else, and then got engaged to that someone else. I thought I was really in love with this person – but love is not love until the other person shows the same love in return. Their "joining" was one of mutual convenience, it seems, rather than real love. And so this poem became my "love letter" to the person who was the "object" of my affection. But it went unanswered for a long time. So after I put my heart and emotions out in the open and dared to explained my feelings... what happened in the end? Well, you’ll find out at the end of this poem...

Cathy Nerujen Poetry
Cathy Nerujen Poetry

I think I’m in love
with the touch of your soul,
and the taste of your smiles –
and the lips that help make them.
I feel that I know you so much,
now it’s true.
the sparks and the flames
as they guide us together –
which tells me it’s time now
to say how I feel.


I ask you now, sister –
if love is the reason
my heart sings with joy
every time you are near?
I’ve watched from a distance
while closer we crept
to the point where our hands and
our fingers now touch –
and I feel the excitement and
warmth of your eyes
while my heart it beats faster –
whenever you're here.

Toss and Turn - by Marifel Dungo

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So I half want an answer –
and half run away –
as I know you are promised
to somebody else.

Is loving you wrong, when I know
you feel likewise –
but dare not to mention the
cracks in the ice?
No love is an island,
no love has a shield –
which cannot be swam to
or broken- if need
(like love) fits the purpose –
like rain has a wetness –
and God is my witness
to how I now feel...

My life it is empty –
and love it eludes me –
I know I’m in love
with the touch of your soul –
your heart is so open,
so warm and inviting –
so could you please
love me before I grow old?

(2016) Footnote: Well, in the end, the person didn’t take up my offer, and we never saw each other for several years. The two got married, while I continued my life until one fateful night at an art gallery, I met this crazy woman, Cassy. I also met my amazing and loving Marifel, who writes here in Hub Pages. My life turned that corner and I have never been happier.

Life had one more surprise for me as I recently discovered that the relationship of the woman mentioned in my love letter / poem had broke up. How strange and cruel life can be. She even got in touch with me, but alas, things have changed. Some things just can't go back to how they were, no matter what. I am now in this wonderful relationship with my darling Marifel, and I have made my choice and moved forward. I have never regretted it. That’s love for you. I finally excised the demons and publish this love poem.

Dedicated to everyone who has experienced unrequited love everywhere. But mostly dedicated to Marifel and to Cassy, who both changed my life for the better.

Cathy Nerujen.

Copyright (c) 2010 to 2016 Cathy Nerujen. All rights reserved. This romantic poem is part of a collection of poetry I have compiled for a new book, to be published in the second half of 2016. Read more about my poetry on www.flashstarmagazine.com.

Feel free to leave a comment or note, tell me what you think. And rate this hub, bookmark it or vote via Twitter or Facebook. Thank you.

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acaetnna 6 years ago from Guildford

This is totally beautiful Cathy, I could certainly feel your words bubbling with emotion. Things go wrong in this life but I think they always happen for a reason. You were heartbroken at the time but you have now found true happiness. This is wonderful and I have danced on your tabs.


BadCompany77. 6 years ago

I love the poem Cathy and I love how life turns out for the good when you are least expecting it. For one so young you have a great insight to life, may you both be happy and in love for ever. jeeeez isnt the Captain more romantic than that boring old tattoo guy was, I may write a poem myself some day soon, just so you can see moi poetry, enjoy yer weekend xoxo


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blaise25 6 years ago from close to you...

Another beautiful words of un-reciprocated love. I'm happy for what you have now and what you have become. From this poem, it isn't enough that you love each other as they say. There would always be things that would screw you or things that would scare you. Too bad that girl held back whatever feelings she had for you. She's afraid. You're not meant to be eh. There's a reason for such things. That's a dark journey, an old page, a basket of buns you could use to find the right way ahead. Whadda hell, I mentioned 'buns' again LMAO Anywayz, a journey, bad or good, always teach us some lessons. I'm happy for what you are now my friend. And whose lap you fell - Miss Curly hair! :)

Always love your poetry. Always real and always you :) Keep writing and I'll keep on reading.

TC XO


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hello acaetnna; wow, first comment to you. Yaay! LOL. Thank you for saying that. I was pretty emotional when I wrote it. I remember that day very well. It was so long ago, yet it is so fresh in my mind. I think they do happen for a reason, I just didn't think about it that way at the time, as I was too miserable.

Yes, how things have changed. I can deal with it now. And I have never been happier. LOL. I love that old poems can be markers to those times or moments in our lives, they have the imprint of what happens, and we always can see it. Thanks for dancing on my tabs, acaetnna. You must tell me how you took the name acaetnna some day. It's very interesting. I keep thinking its to do with acai berries or something? Is it a food health thing? Heh. Oh don't mind me. Have a great Halloween weekend. :D

Hello BadCompany: Art, you are right. Life turns corners on two wheels in the car sometimes. LOL. Things came right in the end. And Cassy has a lot to do with that. Me having insight? Hmm, I'm still learning. That's what I get for falling headlong into something. A bang on my head. Hahaha. Aw, we plan to stay together for always. I have the perfect partner in Cassy. I can never improve on her. LOL. We totally suit each other. And we're over a year together. Woohoo. :)

You have your romantic side when you show it, Art. You are switched on. You know it. So many others are switched off, if you get my meaning. LOL. I cannot fault the TattoGuy for his wisdom on so many things, and warm generous spirit. Tell him we love him a lot when you see him, okay? Hehehe.

Have a wonderful Halloween weekend. You dressing up for trick or treating? LOL. Take care, Art. (Mwah) :) XOXO


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hy Fehl: my, you are up early. Or rather I am still awake and it is so late. LOL. That explains it. Yes, I am happy for where I am now. Love has its ups and downs. That relationship was a learning moment for me. She did hold back, as you said, even though I was sweet on her. If the person doesn't love back the same way, it isn't love, it's just something else. I am over it now.

A Basket full of buns? LOL. That's the funniest in-joke I have heard in a while, Fehl. You are a funny woman. Heh.

Aaaw, thank you for saying that. Well I am happy too. :D

Miss Curly hair, that is so funny. It's been tight and spiky lately, but it's turning curly again. Hehehehehe. Her hair, that is. Thanks for loving my poetry, Fehl. You inspire me always and ever. It's cool to be you. :)

I will keep writing and you keep reading. You're a star, Fehl. Always and ever. Take care too. XOX


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain

Totally awesome.... Some of Gods´greatest gifts are unanswered prayers....... l hope you continue to be happy with Cassie for the rest of a long life. Thank you for sharing.


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Dim, thanks for the lovely comments here. I understand the unanswered prayers thing. Cassy and I are so very happy now. And thank you for saying that! She is a very spiritual person, and we count our blessings every day. :)


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oliversmum 6 years ago from australia

Astra Nomik. Hi. Wow what an absolutely beautiful Poem, written with such emotion.

Your true love was out there waiting for you, just around the corner and eventually you found one another.

This other person was not for you.

You will love one another when you grow old. I wish you both all the happiness in the world.

Thanks for sharing your beautiful Poem with us. :) :)


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi oliversmum: thank you for this nice comment. It is an old memory and it was emotional, as the poem shows...yet it turned out good for me in the end. It was meant to happen that way. I found the person who I am meant to be with, and now things in my life are great. The dream can come true, It just took a bit longer to happen. Ha. But worth waiting for.

I am glad to share my story with Hubbers and poetry lovers everywhere. Take care.


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Lovingu 6 years ago from London

Wow awesome, thank you for allowing me to read your words.


dreamreachout 6 years ago

Lovely poem and I did feel the predicament you went through which in turn inspired the poem!! Great work!! Cheers!!


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Lovingu: thank you for the time you took reading my love poem. You are always welcome to pop by. :)

Hi dreamreachout: this is interesting as I was just going to write the poem without the note attached, but felt it would make more sense if I explained things a bit. That way people have the background to it all. Thank you for the nice comments.


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Freya Cesare 6 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

Love is still love even it can't reach that person we love. Painful, yes, but we learned something from it. I am glad you found someone else to love and living the happy life now. Beautiful poem, dear. really touching. Love it.


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Freya: I was hurt by it and it was painful, but I am happy to say I 'm over it. Just the memory of it now. It seems like only yesterday when it happened. Love is so like that. My luck changed with my partner Cassy for the better. And yes, life is beautiful every precious day for us. And I want it to last forever. Love can be tough, but it remembers to reward too. :) Thank you for these touching comments, Freya.


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epigramman 6 years ago

..I really wish I could write like this - you write like a female Leonard Cohen - probably the highest acclaim that I could give to ANY writer - I really love this piece of ART - I will try to answer you with this one in my own humble way of writing - humble, because I am on my knees right now - bowing to you - and now a bit of a revelation to you from me - ready?

One of my favorite songwriters/singers is Morrisey from the Smiths - are you familiar with his work? Well if not , just go to You Tube and type in his name (solo career) or the Smiths - his band from the 80's - the point I'm making is Morrisey is gay - and when writes/sings about love or lost love - it's so beautiful and heartfelt and passionate it really dosen't matter that it's about two men - or in another realm - two women - because good love - great love can be found anywhere between any two people .......


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Colin. Oh Mr epi, Leonard Cohen is almost a deity to me. LOL. Did you you just compare me to Him! Oh no, that can't be right. I know I'm not as good as Leonard but thank you for the nice comment. (I'm learning bass guitar and have just 5 chords down, music will take me forever to learn. Ha.)

Oh Colin, get off your knees, you'll ruin your trousers. Hahaha. Okay, Morrisey is also a kind of deity (though not a Buddhist, so far as I know) and both Morrisey and the Smiths are super amazing. I know that love is love, no matter the gender, Colin.

I have always understood that since my teens. I don't put the poem here for those reasons, since I don't have to jusify or pontificate about how romance works for me. I pretty much have figured all that out a while ago. (My trouble was always second-guessing myself, thinking I was ill or worse...)

The hub here is the memory and the experience and the sense of the moment when I risked a lot by writing her that love poem. And by expressing those words, despite how nicely they were written, it got me nowhere with that person. And it's funny how well the words are received now, as opposed to back then, when I got simply ignored.

It feels strange putting these words out in the open once again, but this time so many things have changed, and now everyone can read them, so I get judged more.

Life is so funny. I can even smile thinking back about it now, Colin. Thank you for the nice comment. You're sweet. X


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suziecat7 6 years ago from Asheville, NC

Things usually turn out they way they should. Beautiful poem - thanks for sharing.


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi suziecat7: yes, it is amazing how things turn out. Thank you for the comments. Sharing is part of the life here on hubs. :)


BadCompany77. 6 years ago

Just popped by to confirm my love of both you and yer poetry. I was stunned by Cassys comment but trust me that section on Poets was aimed at a few peeps before yer time and they know who they are. I love you and Cassy loads and her comment hurt me because I thought she knew me better than that.

I dont normally put peeps on my profile but I put you 2 girls on both TattoGuys and BadCos because you are genuine and special girls who I feel I know and who support me, I so didnt mean you any harm in that poets bit as your poetry is just awesome as are you, I guess Cassy doesnt see that, enjoy yer weekend xoxo


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi BadCo, oh Art she explained on your new hubs about the poetry review she wrote recently for Fehl...sorry, I mean blaise25. Cassy misunderstood your hub, but not you. She's not like that. Cassy loves you and respects you a lot. You are super-high on her list of all time greatest most impressive hubbers. (Besides me. Ha.) Cassy adores you. We have you on the Hall of fame on our website. I hope you understand.

Art, if there's poets we like but you don't like so much, we understand. All we can suggest is, keep a sick bag handy. Hahaha. XOX


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msorensson 6 years ago

Beautifully rendered and I love that you explained how you got to write it, Astra Nomik, and such a beautiful ending to your story. Thank you.


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi msorensson: thank you for the kind words here. I am going to add a little description to how I write my poetry, as it makes more sense and lets people know where I am coming from, with the poem. Yes, the ending is actually a kind of beginning in lots of ways. Thank you too. :) Have a wonderful weekend.


NikiiLeeReyes 6 years ago

you've captured the moment in its true form; i understand how you feel. completely . only time can tell. More power to you; blessed be. Nikki!


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi NikiiLeeReyes: it's nice to see your comments here, and thank you for this. Well, if you understand completely, I feel sorry for your experience, as it hurt me deeply and took time for me to get over it. But I did eventually. It does take time. I will check out your hubs too. Take care, Nikki. :)


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Heart Felt Book 6 years ago from New York, NY

This was amazing I am tearing up. I loved it so deep. I have situation like this. I love someone but the fact of our culture stands in the way so I know he will never be mines and will always have his allowed race of a women for show. Regardless to the amazing relationship we have and the 11 years of history. He told me one day it is a possibility for us to be. It hurts to know your in love but there's a cloud-stand by. I wish him luck although I know it will always be me he loves and I as him. We must all move on. To this day I feel this way, will he love me before I get old. This is how amazing your hub was I'm caught in the moment.. Fantastic . Reminds me of a broadway play tge story line then a poem number then back to the show. Voted up for me.


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hello Heart Felt Book. What a great Hub Name you chose here. My, you are really affected by this. I am sorry your love is mired in the cultural difference or preference place. I have been there with previous loves myself. Some people don't dig the Asian Thai thing either. Getting them to look beyond culture or race is too much or too scary for some. My partner Cheeky Girl sums it up well, "fear".

Eleven years of history. You'd think he could look beyond that. Some people are not strong enough to handle other cultures. It takes mental and spiritual strength, of not being afraid what others think or feel, because their feelings for us run much deeper, and they feel that loving us is worth it.

Some people genuinely risk things by loving outside their culture. They go against the grain, and I acknowledge that. My partner goes against a few grains, but she is very strong spiritually. I wish we could bottle that and sell it. (smiles) I hope he does love you before you grow old. You need to drop hints. And I will be reading more of your hubs along the way. You say some wonderful things here. I am very moved by this. I am curious about the play title now! LOL. Thank you for this. :)


NikiiLeeReyes 6 years ago

im glad you two are acquainted; awww ^_^ my two friends talking and sharing. I still need to learn how to link your profile on mine missy foot lol


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hy Nikki, I just posted the explanation in the other hub for you on how to link in your profile -


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

It's in the hub poem "My cup fills with love", at the end comments! Hope I explained it okay, it's easy enough.

Yes, we are all getting aquainted today! LOL. Missy foot? That is so funny! :D


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Heart Felt Book 6 years ago from New York, NY

LOL...HEY NIKIILEE(GIGGLES) WELL YES MY DEAR. I AM SUPER TURNED UP!!!!!!! I LOVE THIS IT KEEPS SMILE ON MY FACE. THE ONES THAT HURTS AFTER A WHILE FROM NOT REALIZING HOW LONG YOUR FACE HELD THE POSITION.LOL..WOW AND YES ASTRA IT REMINDS ME OF THIS OFF BROADWAY MUSICAL (THE TEENAGE CHRONICLES) I WAS THE DANCE CHOREOGRAPHER FOR THIS SHOW LAST YEAR. I FOUND IT INTERESTING HOW THEY HAD ADDED POETRY PERIODICALLY THROUGH THE PLAY ALONG WITH SINING AND DANCING. THE POETRY WAS NOT ACTED OUT BUT SO HEART FELT IN VOICE AND APPEARANCE IT FELT AS IF. THAT WAS A FIRST FOR ME AND YOUR HUB THE WAY WRITTEN WAS A REMINDER..THANKS, TO SUBMIT AND RATE POETRY OF THE WEEK GO TO CHERIHEARTFELT.VPWEB.COM (LOWER CASE LETTERS SORRY..)I LOVE ALL WRITERS WE ARE FAMILY AND READERS TOO..THANK YOU FOR ALL THE SUPPORT GUYS KEEP MOVING FORWARD..


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Cheri (Heart Felt Book): h'mm, the (off-) broadway music connection is interesting. That is a funny story. I have had other people tell me similar things, a workmate told me that too earlier, wish he could have left a comment. Heh. Wow, you are a dance choreographer. I am impressed! The link for the poetry competition is interesting. I feel poetry, if it is good enough, can link in to many things. Poetry has many uses. :) Thanks, Cheri. It's great to have your nice comments here!


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chrissie123 6 years ago

Wow!!! I loved reading this!! I literally read this over and over it was so beautiful! I been there before in different ways love is always so complicated yet simple to feel at the same time. Its such a natural thing. I love your poems keep them coming =) ,

Chrissie


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hey, Chrissie you are giving me blushes here with so many comments today. Thank you, you are so sweet. The love was all too real, and I was broken-hearted when my requests went unacknowledged or unreciprocated. I know from your poetry that you have been in similar situations. But risking having our hearts broken is part of love, I understand that now. Yes, it can be simple even though its complicated. I'm glad you love my poems. More coming soon. Thanks, Chrissie. :)


TattoGuy 6 years ago

Enjoy yer weekend moi lil Poet xoxo


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Art, sorry I didnt recognise you pic. My eyes are watering here from a cold. She is a redhead, and has a cool tattoo. Figures. Hehehe. We are enjoying our weekend, Art. My nurse Cassy is on top of things. Have a good weekend Art. XOXO


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Lovingu 6 years ago from London

This is so emotional and beautifully written. I am so pleased I found you.


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Lovingu, thank you for the nice comments. My biographical poetry is very popular here. I am glad you found me too. :) I guess I have that effect on people. Heh. Take care.


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vocalcoach 6 years ago from Nashville Tn.

What a lovely poem! Love your honesty and emotion. Very happy for you and your Cassy. May you both enjoy the best that life has to offer. A wonderful way to grow old.


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi vocalcoach: thank you for loving the poetry here. I am a lucky person to have Cassy in my life, and she is about to become a published writer too. What a year in my life. Aw, thank you for the lovely wishes too, that is so nice of you. :) Yes, a beautiful way to grow old together. :)


TattoGuy 6 years ago

I have written my first poem in a year, I want yer honest opinion xoxo


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

I saw it just now Art. I love it. I would love to see more like it. So moving. :) XX


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richtwf 6 years ago

Thanks for sharing your personal thoughts. Love has its twists and turns and I believe that everything happens for a good reason. Hindsight is a wonderful thing and although at times before we discover the truth of why things turned out the way they did, the experience of love can be deeply painful and heart-breaking but being patient in love rewards those willing to be patient and the love we finally taste is truly worth the wait and certainly so sweet to the taste!


NikiiLeeReyes 6 years ago

I think you're gonna enjoy my Hungry Eyes Prt 2. It's harder being the narrator of a man. Ill link it to you as soon as I post it. let me tell cheeky too, i know she enjoys these kinda stories!


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi richtwf: some sweet thoughts here from you. Things happen for all kinds of reasons, though it can be hard to see them at the time. I am over it now. Yes, the long wait before I met my partner now was a long time of many things, and pain was part of that. It shows what can be learned from past loves. Life can reward us, when we least expect it. Thank you for the comments, and am glad you like the poetry. Take care.

Hi Nikki: oooh, Hungry Eyes pt 2? I am heading there now to see is it up. Thank you for the heads-up, Nikki. Oh Cheeky Girl is just as loving these hubs of yours as I am. She is a busy woman, but she loves your writing. :)


soumyasrajan 6 years ago from Mumbai India and often in USA

Hi! Astra

Your comment made me come to see your recent poem. I like the title very much -love me before I grow old. It says every thing. Infatuation- impatience under infatuation, ready to do any thing etc. You express indeed exceptionally well with your full heart's rhythm is visible in the poem.

Infatuation is indeed great, one feels sweetness all around oneself in those days. Specially in these signs of darkness all over world these days it gives strength. But love is a lot more. I am happy about your life how it has turned out to be (actually I thought you are a lot younger may be even a teenager! your style has that type expressiveness-innocence). Wish you all the good luck to have a very sweet life all the time.


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi soumyasrajan: thank you for checking out my poem here. Well, technically I was a teenager when I wrote this, as it was quite some time back. The sweetness thing doesn't diminish, just the fast rush over-the-fence-before-landing-on-my-face bit. Ha. You read the poem well, and understand. I appreciate that. I will have to remember that description of myself you gave here. LOL.

Thank you for the good wishes. I wish you luck too. Blessings to you. :)


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Enigmatic Me 6 years ago from East Coast Canada

Time... its an element of being ready for the responsibility of a real relationship. Not that what you felt at the time was not real, it certainly was to you. But now its real to you and your partner, and there isn't anything in fantasy that could be better than that. Thanks for having the courage to share... even if you are over it, reminiscing is often harder to deal with than the original feelings.


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Enigmatic Me, what a great name this is. Yes, I understand about the time thing. In many ways we have to experience things like that so that other things can happen later. I say that now with much hindsight obviously. But the fantasy was thinking that an imperfect situation could end up becoming perfect somehow. Happily, I am over it all now, and publishing the poem lets me put more distance between the events of the past somehow. There is some weird kind of closure in there too.

My partner is a gift to me, and I am so lucky for her in my life. Thanks for the interesting comments. I will check out your hubs. Take care.


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komal93 6 years ago from The beautiful and wondorous land of India!!!!

omaigoshhhhhhhhhh after reading ur work i feel like i have a really really long way 2 go b4 i cn bcum evn 5 % as gud as u r...awesum...3 cheers 2 ya..:)....


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Komal, thank you for checking out my poem here. Actually your poetry is better than you think, waaaay better. Cheeky Girl doesn't write any herself, but she loves poetry, and picks the good writers, and I agree. Your poetry is wonderful. I believe all writers who have the passion for poetry and any kind of writing deserve encouragement. Me, I have written poetry since girl-hood.

I hope your hubs score rises and more commenters read your writing, Komal. Take care. :)

Cathy.


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blaise25 6 years ago from close to you...

You have a way to sink my thoughts..I'm patiently waiting for the next poem :)


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Sent you an email, Fehl. :)


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davidwillium 6 years ago from India

very nice....waiting for d next....


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi david, thanks for the comment. Another one coming soon. :)


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Micky Dee 6 years ago

Beautiful Astra. It's too late for me though! Good luck, God bless!


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Astra Nomik 6 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Micky. Thanks for the comments. That clock sneaking up on you? Okay, take care, Micky. Love your hubs. :)


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Dr irum 5 years ago

Wow .... totally awesome poetry .


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Dr irum, thanks for the comments. I'm glad you like it.


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

This is so beautiful. A wish for love before it's too late, but you're never too old to love. Thank you for sharing.


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi always exploring, that is sweet of you to say so. That's it in one sentence, spot on. No, a woman is never too old to love. That is a great bit of wisdom. Glad to share, well its hubs. Thank you. :)


Fay Paxton 5 years ago

Astra, you write some of the best poetry I've read on the hub. This is absolutely beautiful.

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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Fay,... oh some of the best? Really? I am touched by this comment. Wow. You have made this girl smile here today. Bless you and thank you so much. :)


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erthfrend 5 years ago from Florida

wow...this truly touched me, my heart, my soul, everything!!! I can relate to these feelings and Im so happy that things worked out for you in the end the way they were meant to. This was a masterpiece of the heart. I felt the emotion deep inside. Thank you so much for sharing this.


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi erthfriend, gosh what is it about this poem that so many people can relate to it? I am so glad for your comments here. Yes, it was written very much from the heart. I guess many things about love are kind of universal. Yes, it was curious and amazing how things ended, and yes... for the better. I think that somewhere, somehow, the ones we are meant to be with hear us and answer us. It is funny how love finds us, leaves us then finds us again.

Thank you for saying that, I don't know if it's a masterpiece, but if its honest, it will be nearer to what it ought to be. I think Love and Honesty are so closely linked, no matter how crazy or unusual the circumstances. Honesty makes it more ..um...understandable somehow.

Thank you erthfrend for the lovely comments here. I am lucky to have such great readers check out my poetry.

Have a lovely day. :)


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana

they say things happen for a reason. no use wondering what if and why, im glad your happy with someone now, someone worth waiting for, but you didnt have to. its rude to make someone wait for too long. and you were obviously not first choice with the married/divorced person. never take second string. i played that role one too many times.


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Nikki, well if my life seems like a dream to some, it was not always like that, as it is now. Oh please don't think she was being rude. I don't blame her at all. I try hard not to judge. The waiting though was torture. LOL. To think I can smile at that now. Wow. Things now are very different.

I feel sorry for any person who has to be second in any relationship. Though life can reveal some surprising exceptions and amazing turns in the world of friendship and love...

I am looking forward to putting these poems into a book and getting them published this year. :)


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana

i waited like a year for a guy before and it still didnt work, i guess he tried, but it wasnt enough. he couldnt give me what i wanted. ive played second string quite a few times, i wasnt top priority like i should have been and too many times they chose some other girl over me. and i chose all the wrong guys. Hopefully i have it right this time.

I want to publish my poems too. i have tons lol. I just dont know how to go about doing that. Any suggestions? who are you going through to get yours published? I am also working on a novel.


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Sorry to hear it didn't work for you with your guy after a year. I know what it's like being 2nd and worse (invisible) and it hurts like hell. Or used to. I guess we learn from these things, Nikki.

Oh well the book I am self-publishing with Lulu.com as I know a girl on Hubs who did this, her name is Blaise25 or Fehl. Her book is called "Toss and Turn". I bought the book, and I highly recommend this. read her hub page on how she did it if you like. Congratulations on a novel too. Wow. My Cassy / Cheeky Girl working on editing her novel now. And I am in it. And proud to be... Wonder did you read Cheeky Girl's "Encounters"?


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Heart Felt Book 5 years ago from New York, NY

How much I love this poem!!! YES YES YES!! This is a classic.. I feel the level of emotions..so connected, I am happy about that :) Also this is a great song;)

Keep moving forward.. Bless


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Cheri, great to see your comments. I miss them. LOL. The emotions will always be here, Cheri, in my Love poetry. I am an incurable romantic woman. Why I dont know, I just am... I just emote here in my poems. Wow, you think it makes a great song? Well, I love rhyming poetry. Now you are giving me things to think about... LOL.

Thankyou for the great supportive energy as always. Love that. :)


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The Jet 5 years ago from The Bay

Great stuff. I particularly love the title. Voted up.


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

@ Jet: thank you for the comment. I always feel the title of a poem is so important to the poem. I appreciate the vote too. Have a nice weekend. :D


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Leptirela 5 years ago from I don't know half the time

Thank you for sharing with us something so emotional.

There are no words to describe how touched I am with this.

Excellent Hub and I am now your follower... I relate so much to this


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Leptirela, I appreciate your saying this. I think I am definitely over the whole event now. And I don't feel bitterness or anger. I guess these things happen. Love can be kind of maddening and frustrating when you are young and trying to get someone's attention. And that kind of thing happens. I sometimes see poems as sort of "Time machine capsules" in that they let me travel back to those amazing and weird moments those few years ago. Aaww, love can be so amazing...and annoying. LOL. Well I am grateful for the comments.


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

Very nice done Astra Nomik. We all must have had this unrequited love. God bless you.


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Mr Dee. So happy to get your comments again. Yes, the unrequited love thing is really going round a lot in the comments. Wow, that is so interesting. I just stumbled with no or little intention upon a subject, that, like one of those "niches" people talk about...just turned out to be an interesting and slightly universal love topic. Poetry can be funny that way. Blessings to you too, Micky.

Cathy.


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prettynutjob30 5 years ago from From the land of Chocolate Chips,and all other things sweet.

Very Beautiful hub


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi prettynutjob30; love your hub name. Thank you for the nice comment. I will be checking your hubs more. Have a great weekend. :)


jami l. pereira 5 years ago

Beautifully sad and well written , thanks for the read! :)Voted up , awesome and beautiful !


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi jami: thank you so much for the votes and comments. You are sweet. I will definitely check your hubs today. Bless you. :)


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W.R. Shinn 5 years ago

Great poem! Great intro and it was neat to catch the conclusion. Thanks for stopping by my hub. Wow!! What and awesome profile you have. Go baby, Go!! I will be back for more. Thanks.

Sincerely,

W.


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi W.R. Shinn: thank you for the comments. I love a good ending to a poem. The crunch line is always important to me. My profile awesome? Wow, I didn't think so...I have less than 20 hubs, but I will double check it now. LOL. Check out my poetry at your leisure. Take care. :)


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kenneth avery 5 years ago from Hamilton, Alabama

I LOVED EVERY WORD OF THIS POEM! I am a closet poet for my materials are mostly abstract/prose and I do not share it with people for fear of rejection, but you, my friend, you need to pursue a writing career FULL-TIME. And I am HONORED to follow you.


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Kenneth: oh thank you for really liking my poem. The closet is not a good place to be, I've been in it, and it's very uncomfortable. You should share your poems and have them read. You need to "feel the fear and do it anyway", Kenneth. People love poetry. Maybe one day we will see the amazing poetry of Kenneth Avery. :)

Oh I am already compiling my first book of poetry from my poems here on Hub Pages. I'd love a full-time career writing. Thank you for this and for following me.


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Victoria Lynn 5 years ago from Arkansas, USA

Beautiful, Astra. How soulfully you expressed your unrequited love. But what you say seems to be true--it's not really love until it's returned; then it's so much more real. And I think sometimes it takes going through such heartache to know what the real thing is, such as you found with Cassy. I'm looking forward to reading more of your work!


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Mamadrama 5 years ago from Upstate NY

I am in LOVE with this... you can feel the termoil, and waiting in your words. I know I can speak from experience what this feels like. It sounds like you were better off, and I am happy that you found happiness and the love you deserve. You are a beautiful soul, inside and out! Truly enjoying your writings


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Mamadrama 5 years ago from Upstate NY

ps I'm sharing this on FB.. I know SEVERAL people that will enjoy this and that can relate to this feeling right now.


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Victoria, wow you really understand this so well. Yes it is love when the feelings are returned and when the person confirms it. It is so much more real to me. I guess it is the same with all of us...

Yes, maybe it means going through that heart ache just to realise how strong the feelings are or can be. Oh wow, thank you for saying this. That is so sweet. :) Well I am glad you are enjoying my poems. Have a sweet day, Victoria. :)

Hi Mamadrama, oh I was so taken by your hubs and what a great writer you are. Um ...I try to make the turmoil not sound like desperation. LOL. You have experienced that too. Wow...well I hope you found the happiness and the love you deserve too... it is not too much to ask of life, and we all want to make our hearts better and find that magical person in the end. Aw thank you for sharing on FBook, that is kind of you. You are terrific. (Hugs.. ) Take care and thank you for the nice comments. :)


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Mamadrama 5 years ago from Upstate NY

I am a HUGE fan!! Keep writing girl! Beautiful


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Mamadrama, I know you are and thank you so much. You are a nice person. Lots of hugs from me today. :)


lostwithinmyself 5 years ago

OMG Loved this poem!!!

Voted up and beautiful. x


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi lostwithinmyself: thank you for loving my poem. I appreciate the vote up too. :)


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carolinemd21 5 years ago from Close to Heaven

Your words are beautiful.


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi carolinemd21, thank you for the nice comment.


Johnny 4 years ago

Such a beautiful way fate somehow steps in making what will be just that. Found this on Facebook and I am very touched by your words and love you have within yourself. In light and love always, Johnny


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Astra Nomik 4 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Johnnylove, thank you for checking my link in Facebook. Yes, fate can do amazing and incredible things... and it can like history... also repeat itself. It is a sentimental look back at a relationship that never took off... but I don't regret it. I love how I managed to capture the tone of my emotions at the time.


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Nikkij504gurl 4 years ago from Louisiana

Thank u so much Cathy for posting this poem. It was beautiful and I can relate. It is true, you can't have real love unless both of you feel the same. And sometimes our love is turned toward someone else that we don't see the others right in front of us and when we do its usually too late. Things happen for a reason and I am glad you met cassie and made the choice to let go of the past. I need to do the same.


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Nikkij504gurl 4 years ago from Louisiana

and I just realized i commented on this poem already long time ago. haha.


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Astra Nomik 4 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Nikki. Wow, what a beautiful thing to say here. Yes, letting go the past is hard to do. I had things I needed to let go. Cassy made me realise that so much. Maybe deep down a part of me had a niggling feeling too, something I needed to do. I had to stop chasing a ghost and a dream.

Oh I hope that things in your life are okay for you, Nikki. Your comments are always wonderful. Have a sweet day. :)


kylesanderson 4 years ago

You use your words very well. Voted up, beautiful, and followed.


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Astra Nomik 4 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Thank you Kyle for the warm words. People love reading this poem for some reason. LOL. I guess the feelings in it or the theme of loss or love is universal. Nice to have you come by. Feel free to check my love poems here.


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blaise25 3 years ago from close to you...

Hi, babe :) I read this again coz of Curly’s tweet. It’s so bold and beautiful. I can’t help but wonder, in Love should we always have to choose? That person you wrote this for, she had two choices. I think whoever she’d ended up with, still it’s not Love. True love would never make you feel you are a choice. But rather you are the one. You would always feel you belong...

Mwaaaaaaaaaaaah! I love you. -----/---(@


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Astra Nomik 3 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space Author

Hi Fehl, my honeybunny... :)

I replied twice to this but either my hub is sick and not posting my replies or the comment section is broken.

This is a good point you make here, Fehl. I so agree. She had two choices and perhaps it would not have been love, despite my loving feelings for her. The idea of being only a "choice" is depressing. Everyone wants to be that person's special One. Their One true Love.

And I thought it might have been possible for me to belong... but yes, I was not her only choice...

The special person in our life puts us first. That is how it works. I have learned that lesson. The special Angel who loves me so much... she puts me first... she told me, and I know it so much, Fehl. Mwaaaaaaaah. :)

Thank you for this beautiful love, Fehl. :)

I love you so much.

XOXOXOXOXOXO

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