MY HEART- Bleeding in pain

First I had pain in my heart,

Now I had pain of loosing it,

First I had never thought of,

Now i afraid to think of it,

First my breathe often stops,

Now I live stopped in it,

First I had some remembrance,

Now I live sinked in it.


Is it an essence of that Garden, or I am living within,

Is it happiness of that Glow, or I am smiling within.


First I had pain in my heart, Now I had pain of loosing it,

First my heart was empty often,

Now I am empty of it,

First was my mistake I did,

Now every take of life, I miss it,

First I use to see the picture,

Now I am a still picture of it,

First I could do some labour,

Now I bypass always trying it.


Is it the desire to see my love, or I am waiting within,

Is it the tears of that eye, or I am crying within.


First I had pain in my heart, Now I had pain of loosing it,

First I had asked for closeness,

Now every distance is close to it,

First I never addressed Love,

Now my address, I lost it,

First my condition got worst,

Now to every condition, I worsen it,

First my hearty rate hiked often,

Now I am alive only on it,


Am I the painful outcome of this Heart, or this world is making within,

Do people think me as mad, or I forget to follow the rules within.


First I had pain in my heart, Now I had pain of loosing it,

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anupma 5 years ago from India

Awesome......... very very beautiful and expressive poem. very beautifully elaborate the difference between when we fall in love and when the same heart breaks. I think that your words are the words of every broken heart. I do not know whether you experience it or just a spontaneous feeling of your heart. Whatever but it is too great... Usually if the same thing happens to a person, he or she starts desolating herself from everybody or go in depression. But only a few people are there who gives words to their voice.

I read so many poems and it is proved that a broken heart can write better poems or express himself in a better way. You know W.B. Yeats, a great poet of English literature, wrote if Maude Gonne (He proposed his beloved Maud Gonne so many times and she always rejected him)accepted my proposal, then I wont be what I am.

So, a broken heart can write more heart touching poems. Anyway keep it up.


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moneycop 5 years ago from JABALPUR Author

Yes anupma...first thanks! for ur valuable comment...and yes u r ryt.....i was also rejected..but now i enjoy this rejection as it made me a good thinker and writer. Not only this i now knew the deepness of love...when she lacked then. But i am sure that now if she accepts me she will gain a lot. But to her pity her ego will not allow, and God had chosen her bcoz he knew we both will never match, but i have no questions or guilty at it.Now i have learned the proper way and source of love.

I feel You too very close to these feelings. Actually broken heart cant write. This heart is broken and it accepts this brockage happily and so he become constructive.


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Mamadrama 5 years ago from Upstate NY

Do people think me as mad, or I forget to follow the rules within.

This line is brilliant! Love all of it.. but I REALLY connected with this line. The love game is maddening sometimes.. I know!


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moneycop 5 years ago from JABALPUR Author

HMMM...Mama...

great u have found a link..

that means u are also in love at any time of ur life followed be similar feelings..

when we are in love we must have the deep desire to love to the last extent...it makes us sound and strong in love irrespective of its achievement.

i am blessed to have and then poet it out ..

thanks for ur comment MAMA........


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ahorseback 5 years ago

Wow , there is something so intense here !I must follow you too!......:-}


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moneycop 5 years ago from JABALPUR Author

welcome ahorseback..that strongest seat driver

thanks for ur fan mail and comments

But i just request you to read all the philosophic hubs i had wrote and i am sure it will help u in finding the permanent happiness


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blaise25 5 years ago from close to you...

I love your style..it's as though I'm losing my breath on every line. :)

Just amazing. Pressing all the tabs ;)


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moneycop 5 years ago from JABALPUR Author

blaise you are very loving and heart touching that's why my poem made an effect in you.

thank you very much


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Astra Nomik 5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space

When we experience something beautiful, and we miss it, we feel a pain in that garden of Love, Want and Desire... we can never go back to our old selves after...


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moneycop 5 years ago from JABALPUR Author

Astra..... u are absolutely right that it happens that we fall here.but this can be altered by the same process as was being happened in innocence to our mind.

for more details of how to get ur mind back read my hub on mind, and you could be benefited out of it.


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jfay2011 5 years ago

very beautiful poem. I also love the picture of the angel. I've seen that picture by that artist before. Her work is gorgeous


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moneycop 5 years ago from JABALPUR Author

ah jfary..me to fond of that pic...who made it can u tell me..thanks for ur comment


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cleaner3 4 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

This one is very nice also. I really like your style. You must read my poetry you will like it .I will follow you and read more.

Michael


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moneycop 4 years ago from JABALPUR Author

michael i am looking forward to read ur poems...and thanks a lot to come to my page


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penofone 4 years ago

I don't think you know what kindles the heart and mind to venture towards the concept of love. Does it hurt to bleed altruisms in the factness of the poem?

I don't understand. Plz explain.


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moneycop 4 years ago from JABALPUR Author

PENOFONE THANKS AGAIN FOR COMMENTING...ITS LONG BACK WRITTEN POEM NOT OF MY SPIRITUAL DAYS... yet this pin is not bleeding th eblood its bleeding my dirt...plz do read my poem when i cried out you will get the answer


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vector7 4 years ago

This sounds like me...

I don't know what else to say.


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moneycop 4 years ago from JABALPUR Author

not only u every one of us who is a heartful person by pass this stage

the main thing is just not to stick to it..its only a lesson my a book


shmily03 4 years ago

~i am a bleeding heart myself, i don't know when i can recover, your poem it touches my body and soul,tears in my eyes,pain in my heart,life is so difficult, true and pure love are hard to find.

~i was so lost, i need comfort, i found your site accidentally....and this is the beginning, please allow me to follow you,to ease my bleeding heart, thank you.


Taron 22 months ago

It's a joy to find sooenme who can think like that


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moneycop 20 months ago from JABALPUR Author

thnx taron

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