Maybe and What If


You give me the pleasure of feeling your lips

The feelings you give with your finger tips

Puzzled by the feelings you mask

Unable to read and fulfill my task


I want more than what is seen

Unavailable to thee mind obscene

When the time is spent with one another

Not wanting to pressure or smother


But if what I show is the way I feel

And nothing more the a feeling so real

Then maybe it isn’t what it should be

Maybe you aren’t the one for me


All these thoughts travel within

Wearing the mind to be very thin

Only wanting the same thing I give

Wanting that someone with I to live


Maybes and ifs is all I come to see

Only giving and allowing the time to be

Wondering if the time and work I should put

Standing on your side with just one foot


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writer20 5 years ago

bellawriter, this poem is beautifully told. up


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Writer, Thank you you know when you have that one person you can't read and you just keep question marks everytime you look at them and you cant determine if it is or isn't what they want?? Annoying...lol

bella


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Cardisa 5 years ago from Jamaica

The last line is a puzzle to me...."Standing on your side with just one foot". I love it, it seems like you are trying to make a decision to proceed with this love or how to handle it.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Car, The last line is Im only one foot in because Im afraid of doing both feet in. What if he doesnt feel the same what if I look stupid in trying what if he is just trying to get to know me what if what if what if??? See what Im sayin ....lol thank you for taking the time to read another one of my thoughts that travel through my mind!!

bella


Poetic Fool 5 years ago

I enjoyed this very much bella. The feelings of uncertainty and doubt you express seem all too familiar. The last line that Cardisa mentions reminds me of the lyrics in the Regina Spektor song 'Fidelity':

"I never loved nobody fully

Always one foot on the ground"

Well done. Thanks for sharing.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Poetic, thank you uncertainty is one of my many doubts. having doubt and not sure on which step to take next shows no stability which I hate to lack. but it is what it is....I will give nothing more or nothing less I will have to look into those lyrics....I just wrote some of my own..

bella


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Extinct Soul 5 years ago from 14°35'N 121°0'E

wow..I related intantly with your poem..Thanks for sharing!


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Extinct, I am happy that you were able to connect and understand the emotion and where I was traveling from :)

Thanks a mill!

smiles :)

bella


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b. Malin 5 years ago

Hey Bella is this really What YOU want? A Wonderfully written Poem on a subject so dear to a lot of Women in this predicament...Two Thumbs Up and my Vote!


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

It is NEVER what I want B., why is that?? I think to myself could it simply be that I am just not READY?? Only my higher source knows what is best for me and understands where I am. Maybe what im longing for in the flesh isn't whats right for me in spirit.... jus my thoughts.... thank you and I am sure of the feelings being mutual with several woman!! thank you my dear B.

smiles :)

bella


PenMePretty 5 years ago from Franklin

Constant decisions, life is. Yes or No. Good hub.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

I hate making decisions I really do. :/ thank you...

bella


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

Beautiful Bella, time will tell............


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Always, Time has failed me time and time agin I think I have gven up :( thanks for reading...

bella


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA

Awesome piece Bella ~ you are quite in tune with yourself. Really like your new pic too!

Sharyn

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