Memories in the dark ( poem )

Dark memories

Old memories trickle into her pre-sleep mind and forbid the depths of slumber.

Trying to turn the images off, yet the constant slide show will not relent.

It forces the darkness that consumes her blocking out the light.




Wriggling under it’s gripping hold, the memories of the living are blurred.

All that is seen is the despair in the eyes of the one she has lost.




Pain and anguish, a voice garbled, distorted with fear whispers in her sleep.

Even now the cries she hears are undecipherable. She lies still straining for clarity,

Reliving over and over those final days.




Her own voice is the only one that is clearly audible, memories of screaming demands

in a dark damp room to a power she cannot see. Bargaining and begging that her plea

will be heard.



Her plight will be answered soon enough and with a finality she will feel

forever.


The slivers of light she seeks stalk in the shrouds of darkness, taunting her to remember.

straining her eyes to see all that is good.



Images of narrow streams of brightness tossed over the sea from the slow turn of a beacon,

her eyes following the crest of the waves from light to darkness over and over again.




The darkness wins this battle even as the will beckons for the light.




A lightness that never truly comes, never releasing the darkness that consumes her

sleepless nights.




St Augustine light house
St Augustine light house
The moon
The moon
St Augustine light house
St Augustine light house

Phil Collins, take a look at me now

Do you find yourself remembering the darker times more or less often after loosing someone?

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30 comments

JThomp42 3 years ago

Beautiful. I can so relate to these words.


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wildove5 3 years ago from Cumberland, R.I. Author

This isn't my usual style of writing so I was unsure if the reader would even be able to understand it, yet alone relate to it. So your words made me smile! Thank you!


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Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

Wow, what a profoundly haunting and reflective piece here!

Excellent write.

Voted up ++ and sharing

(will return to share, buttons not appearing at the moment

Blessings, Faith Reaper


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wildove5 3 years ago from Cumberland, R.I. Author

Thank you faith, I'm not sure where this came from, it's not my norm. But I'm glad it surfaced, even if it was out of the darkness.


DJ Anderson 3 years ago

There is no relationship that can compare to that of a mother and a daughter. My Mother was my best friend. When she died, my whole world changed.

You have a creative outlet, here, as you write about your grief.

Recognize that it is grief. And, while it seems to be never ending, times will get better.

Keep writing; it is good for airing out your mental status and we get to enjoy your talented writings.

DJ.


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mary615 3 years ago from Florida

I really enjoyed this poem. You have a talent for poetry, that's for sure . It was sad, but beautiful.


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kj force 3 years ago from Florida

wildove5....Beautiful and haunting words from your mind...and yes as we age, memories in the dark become almost second nature...kudos on this one.


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Cantuhearmescream 3 years ago from New York

wildover5,

This is just a beautiful reminder of how much I've missed you. Wow, this is so very deep... I actually read it twice to fully absorb it. Who can't understand at least moments like this in their life? Perfect song too!

So good to see you, hope all is well.

Voted many and sharing!

Hugs,

Cat


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truthfornow 3 years ago from New Orleans, LA

Enjoyable read. Everyone has these moments.


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Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

Came back to share : )


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CrisSp 3 years ago from Sky Is The Limit Adventure

Painstaking and so profound yet exquisitely penned. Sadly, I've been there...


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wildove5 3 years ago from Cumberland, R.I. Author

D J, it will be two years in February, hard to believe. I know I'll never get over it, but I a working my way through it! Some days are better than others and my writing definitely helps! Thanks for the encouragement!!


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wildove5 3 years ago from Cumberland, R.I. Author

Thank you Mary, While it's a little from my norm, I like the way it came out!


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wildove5 3 years ago from Cumberland, R.I. Author

Thank you Kj, I wish I could learn how to quiet the dark memories, especially as I'm drifting off to sleep. That seems to be the time they effect me most. Perhaps a little wine before bed will do the trick! lol


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wildove5 3 years ago from Cumberland, R.I. Author

Thank you Cat, I've missed you too, Hope the readers have been treating you well, LOL I've been reading more than writing lately, though I've felt the need to write as much as I crave chocolate. I just haven't had anything to say. It's weird, I have to be passionate about something to write otherwise it feels forced. When I force it, I can't seem to get the words to work properly. I'm sure I'm not the only one, although a lot of Authors on here seem to be able to create a master piece a day. lol Well, thanks for reading, sharing and liking my work!


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wildove5 3 years ago from Cumberland, R.I. Author

Thank you Truth, I'm sure glad I'm not alone in the darkness, although I'd be happier if no one, including myself, had to ever experience grief and loss!


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wildove5 3 years ago from Cumberland, R.I. Author

So sorry Crisp, I guess without darkness the light wouldn't be so beautiful! I'm still trying to figure out how to keep the lights on! Thank you for the read and compliments!


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Gypsy Rose Lee 3 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Beautiful and sad and emotional. Sometimes dark thoughts do come and it is hard to get away from them.


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DDE 3 years ago from Dubrovnik, Croatia

Mixed emotions here and you wrote a well described poem with many thoughts here.


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zanaworld 3 years ago from Bangalore

Very nice poetry - with thoughtful emotions!

I love reading poems and short stories. This one I am marking up! (also I am following you!)


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Cantuhearmescream 3 years ago from New York

wildove5,

Oh, trust me... I know exactly what you mean, I need at least some moment of inspiration to generate writing. I'm sure you've got plenty to say... it's probably just a matter of where to start and putting it into words. I will be anxious waiting your next moment of passion! :D

Cat


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wayne barrett 3 years ago from Clearwater Florida

We all search for our own light house. This was a beacon, beautifully written.


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wildove5 3 years ago from Cumberland, R.I. Author

I found my passion Cat! Now all I need is to find her!!! ;)


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wildove5 3 years ago from Cumberland, R.I. Author

My mother sent me the most beautiful rainbow today, it was actually featured on the weather channel! I'm glad everyone got to enjoy it, but really, it was sent from her just for me! The colors were magnificent and full of light!

Thank you all for your kind words here! My heart is warmed by everyone here who has touched it so tenderly!


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Cantuhearmescream 3 years ago from New York

Oh, you just really struck a chord with me girl! There is magic in a rainbow you know? I really believe your mother did send it to you; those who do not live where we are anymore will speak in rainbows. ... I could cry... she's telling you she's telling you she's here and you'll be okay; I'm sure!


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wildove5 3 years ago from Cumberland, R.I. Author

Cat, I believe with all my heart it was from my mother!!! I was next to her when she looked into heaven, I know what it felt like! Seeing that rainbow was a gift! She sent me another one today, I had a nice talk with my daughter! :)


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PHILLYDREAMER 3 years ago from Lodi, New Jersey

Ahhh! This makes me sad. Where is she so I can give her a hug, and a sleeping pill.


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James-wolve 3 years ago from Morocco

Superb piece of write!Your choice of words excellent and imagery so perfect.Thanks for this perspective.

The good write is the one that surprises us when we reread it.OUT OF NORM means your work is brilliant !Voted up


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wildove5 3 years ago from Cumberland, R.I. Author

Thanks Philly! I am feeling better, my mom sent me an amazing rainbow the day I wrote this!!


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wildove5 3 years ago from Cumberland, R.I. Author

James, thank you for the high praise, coming from someone of your caliber i am humbled!

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