Mislaid By Choice

To which level have I surrendered?

Lost and confused to darkness rendered

I was again walking without any given direction

Beneath the ground a revival resurrection

Had I gone mad or simply insane

Taken an oath to the inferno domain

Held by the shackles and restraint metal links

Into the pit of fire watching me sink

Dragged along within the dirt

Hiding behind the flesh and earth’s skirt

Deeper and deeper I went into the quick sand

Extending and reaching for a better life hand

Lighter flicked flames exposed

Watching the smoke cloud as it grows

Caught by the shadow called paranoia

Whispering out in Spanish “Me llaman Goya”

Like the Spanish painter I painted my wall

But nothing of his sort titled romantic draw

Black on black a murder in paint painted

Until my outer shell felt weaker and fainted

Crawling from the ground up step by step

Making that come up and claiming that rep

From crawling, to walking to running I go

Will ever have a life meaning to show

Comments 24 comments

Lady T 5 years ago

Very gothic indeed mi amiga!

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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Thanks J. I appreciate the comment and fast reply on the hubs and FB.

jenubouka 5 years ago

Loved the intricate placement of the magnetic words!

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shanaya 5 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:)

Hey Bella! So Astonishing as always. Deep & Beautiful. Thanks for sharing. Love ya.:)

voted up, beautiful, interesting.

with lots of Love & Respect

from SHANAYA:)

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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Jenu, Thank you, your words very inspiring.

Shan, Thanks a bunch your always so sweet with your words. I appreciate you visiting and placing your thoughts :)


Phoebe Pike 5 years ago

You are a very talented writer! Your words are moving and beautiful.

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yusefblack 5 years ago

Beautiful... more sad though, but then sad is beautiful in its own way

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Cardisa 5 years ago from Jamaica

Another masterpiece Bella. I love how you pulled yourself up from the ruins of the earth to start walking again.

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b. Malin 5 years ago

Very Deep and Very Beautiful Bella, you are the Expert Poet in this Sad, Gothic, read.

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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

Beautiful Bella..This made me shiver..Bravo.

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Movie Master 5 years ago from United Kingdom

Hi Bella, perfect picure for these chilling words!

Voting up/awesome

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makusr 5 years ago from India


Greetings from MAKUSR. This is a very good piece. Confusion but a healthy resolve is there to rise once again.

Lots of Love,


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Genna East 5 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

Thoughtful with depth to the point of profound, Bella.

"To which level have I surrendered?"

Ohhhh...I think we have each asked ourselves that question in one way or another. This gave me chills as well as a moment to think in retrospect. Superb poetry, Bella.

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asmaiftikhar 5 years ago from Pakistan

Bella on words that is unique and beautiful images and above all the theme and main theme of the poem is awesome.Thanks for sharing.

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Johnny Darklight 5 years ago from Cody Wyoming

With a hint of shadows I find your words so lovely. Voted you up and beautiful.

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apache13 5 years ago from Belleville AR.

Just had to read a few of your works and I must say you're rolling right along, good, good, good job. I don't have time to write anymore :( got a real job running heavy equipment building a golf course.

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samiaali 5 years ago

I loved this bellawritter23! Very beautiful! I vote up! :)

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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Phoebe, Thank you I am pleased to know that you believe so. :)

Yu, Thank you it is sad. Why? Because at points in my life I really do feel like this and I am consumed by the way the world turns and I travel along with the woes of life but the show must continue either which way.

Card, Its always a hard stand from the ground to the sky but it must be done cant always soak in my dirty bath water ya know. Thank you!

B. I tend to believe so as well why is that does this constitute as me being miserable or just understanding and feeling what life is?

Always, Shiver can be good or bad. It possibly was a reaching out....

Movie, Thank you for thinking so and for stopping by as always. :)

Mak, Confusion I tend to set and not let go of, I find myself really confused and stuck in water at times...

Genna, I am very pleased to see you again. I know the question rests in a few minds and stays and will not leave it kind of haunts me. Thanks for stopping by!!

Asma, Awww you are truly sweet.

Johnny, Thank you and welcome to my thoughts its always great to see and greet a new reader :)

Apache, Wow great to see your still around. I am pleased to know that my poetry still peaks your interest.

Samia, Your too kind :))

smiles all


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ahorseback 5 years ago

Bella girl , You have a way with the written language , there a lot of meaning here.Awesome

Tracy 5 years ago

tell me what took place for you the write such a peace?

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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Horseback, It carries lots of meaning and a lot of bad energy i had to release it and set it to paper. thank you I appreciate the visit and opinion greatly. :)

Tracy, Life took place, obstacles, feeling worthless and not being able to provide for my family. I was feeling low and lifeless. And well being under the influence didnt help either.

smiles :)


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acaetnna 5 years ago from Guildford

Zabba dabba do - as awesome and amazing as ever!

girltalksshop 5 years ago

Intriguing and quite interesting spin on life...as that of a lost soul. Very picturesque...and sad. A bit like Poe? But great writing, none the less.

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cleaner3 5 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado


Your poetry is dark

but so full of soul and love

The picture of a girl

looking for something from above.

Now I will follow you and you will follow me

our poetry we'll enjoy together you will see

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