Missed the Truth

Cats got my tongue tells nine lives just a tale

Caught skimming the surface for depth to inhale

Silenced in the wake of an avalanche's detail

Missed the truth in my search for the holy grail

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Youth vaporized in a frozen atmospheric trail

Exhaled warm fog lost to the frigid Fahrenheit scale

Meaningless moments cascade into porous shale

Missed the truth in my search for the holy grail

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Invisible ink drew a phantom friends thin veil

Ghostly silhouettes cast faint shadows on the pale

Should've seen the vampire in the absence of avail

Missed the truth in my search for the holy grail

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Runaway walk to reality went solo to ride the rail

Saw my father in a visit that transcended past frail

Beyond earthbound ties he crossed the unknown dale

Whispered the truth in my search for the holy grail

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Lost my way in the chaotic confound of aphasia's derail

Walked out of the forest reborn to know eternities hale

Each soul a prophet surrenders earth to human fail

Whispering truth to see the beauty in the holy grail

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AudreyHowitt 4 years ago from California

Each soul a prophet surrenders earth to human fail

Whispering truth to see the beauty in the holy grail

We all succeed and we all fail--I loved the last 2 lines especially Amy!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Beautiful, perfect synopsis, Audrey. Thank you so much.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

Leaves much to contemplate, Amy. . .


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I never gave it a lot of thought until I watched youth disappear in the rearview mirror. I am grateful I have been blessed with the time to indulge introspection. So many are not. Actually, that is a topic I'd like to write a poem about, too. I've known several friends that lost a child, who didn't have the chance to grow up, much less grow old. I have so much to be grateful for. Thank you, Nellieanna


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suzettenaples 4 years ago from Taos, NM

Beautiful poem, Amy. We all search for that holy grail. Sometimes we find it and sometimes we fail. Poignant words and thoughts. I enjoyed this.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

My dad, my mentor and the person I always tried to emulate, died nearly 10-years ago, suddenly. Long complicated story, Suzette, but I had been estranged from my family due to my mother's turmoil and wishes. One day, about 2 months before my father died, I decided I had to seem him and my mother. I was compelled, by what I didn't know other than I thought of them everyday and missed them terribly. So, I went. My father hugged me for the first time and told me he loved me as I was leaving. He asked me to not stay away. I saw him one more time and spoke with him the week he had a massive stroke. My brother called me from Cali to tell me the news, as my mother chose to call him instead of me though I live near them. My brother called my sister in Hawaii first and last, of course, me. I went to the hospital to find him alone in the ER as my mother had gotten a ride home with a neighbor. My ex, Paul, insisted on taking me to the hospital, as I was, needless to say, very upset. I knew already that dad was in grave condition. I wanted to stay the night with my father and Paul was in full agreement, which I will always love him for. My dad was in a coma for the remainder of the 24-hours he lived. He rallied to open his eyes and see me and I knew he knew I was with him. After he passed, I took my mom home (Paul had brought her back to the hospital that morning) and stayed in my mom's home for the night. About 2 hours later, I had just dosed off on the couch, when I heard a digital tune play a "happy" song. In the morning when we got up, I asked my mom if she'd set an alarm. She told me that no, she had heard it in the afternoon when she was looking for dad's insurance card in the kitchen. She proceeded to tell me dad had bought her a Casio watch many years ago that was broken by a jeweler trying to install a new battery. The watch had never worked again, but she loved it and kept it on top of the frig. The day of my dad's death it played twice, once for mom and once, later, for me. I know he was telling us he was o.k. I walked away from organized religion a long time ago, Suzette, but I believe in God. That was concrete proof for me, an epiphany, if you will. That is the truth behind this piece in the "visit from my father".

Thank you for allowing me to explain why I wrote this, Suzette, and thank you for honoring my space here with your visit.


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billybuc 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

Introspection, eh? I'll tell you what my beautiful friend (inner beauty is all that counts for me)....I am so thankful I have lived as long as I have, so I can reap the rewards of introspection. I may have been smart when I was younger but I was not wise. All that I thought had value was meaningless, and all that I ignored held the key to happiness. Yes, I am thankful I have lived this long.

My dad came to me a year after he died....only two people know that....it was never important for me to tell anyone...as long as I know it is true, that's all that matters.

You are, in the only way that counts, beautiful!

bill


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

That, my friend, is a profoundly beautiful comment. Thank you so much, Bill, for telling me that you got a visit from your dad, too. I've had several visits, always uplifting and without a doubt I know he watches over me. I thought of him when I lost MacGregor, as he suffered terribly when he lost his own MacGregor. Stupid as it sounds, I told Mac to look for my dad; that he will keep him with love until I meet up with both of them again.

Sharing this with you, Bill, makes me glad to be alive.


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breakfastpop 4 years ago

You always give me so much to think about. You are incredibly gifted. Up beautiful and awesome.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Pop, I'm so happy to see you. Thank you for taking the time to read my work and letting me know you find something of value in it. Love you, my friend.


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The Frog Prince 4 years ago from Arlington, TX

Deep, very deep...

The Frog


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you so much, Frog Prince. I really appreciate your time, visit and kindness. It means a lot to me.


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suzettenaples 4 years ago from Taos, NM

Amy; what a story! I have had similar experiences-I believe there is a God for the universe does come together at special times. I do believe loved one let us know they are okay from the other side. I'm so glad you saw and spoke to your father before he died. I was in Spainwhen my father passed away. He had been ill but we didn't think near death. Long story, but it was a shock nonetheless. It was so hard because he was a great dad. I miss him everyday as I bet you miss yours also. I'm so glad you found the " holy grail" in your father. He was there when you needed him most! I love to hear your life experiences!


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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Hi Dear Amy. This one is so introspective (I want to say 'deep,' I cannot, for the life of me, come up with the 'right' word that encompasses these two and more but...)...considering, thinking about...life, youth, mistakes...made/learned from/opportunities missed.

I love this one so much for so many reasons (because it underscores my belief system):

"Saw my father in a visit that transcended past frail

Beyond earthbound ties he crossed the unknown dale

Whispered the truth in my search for the holy grail"

Here, your father has 'whispered the truth.." now, you are no longer "missing the truth..." and you close, still with :

"...Each soul a prophet surrenders earth to human fail

Whispering truth to see the beauty in the holy grail."

'surrenders earth to human fail....to see the beauty in the holy grail."

The answer...the truth....and this, does, ideed...set us free.

We miss this in our daily trevails and triumphs; we are engrossed in these and/but, ultimately, we reach that point at which we DO wonder...search....seek to find the truth.

Well, this is how I read your beautiful words, Amy...this is what it say s to me or, maybe, this is what I am experiencing and I find it in the words you've written...projecting, maybe.

Exquisitely beautiful, Amy...the interpretation works for me; I hope I've understood . All ups , without saying; but funny. Your friend, Kathy


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Suzette. Sometimes, although I love leaving art to interpretation, I feel a need to let readers know where I'm coming from. I'm off on my own tangent, but no one else could possibly know what trip I'm on. LOL I'm so glad you understand my need to explain and acceptance when I don't. You are a wonderful friend, Suzette.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Kathy, I love delving into your interpretations. You honor me so completely with such a loving act. The message you take away from this piece is precisely, exactly, without a shadow of a doubt, perfect. You didn't just get the gist of it...you got the guts of it...every last detail. I can't tell you how happy it makes me, to not only write something you lay eyes on, but feel. Somewhere, somehow, we live in a parallel universe, because you feel like a sister to me, Kathy.


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always exploring 4 years ago from Southern Illinois

To feel the presence of a love one who has passed over is so wonderful. I've experienced this with my Sis Bea. I miss her so much, sometimes i feel her near. The poetic words you select for your poetry are amazing. You are so gifted my friend. I loved this..Cheers


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Oh, Ruby, I'm not surprised in the least that your sister Bea has visited. You are in tune with compassion and a very sensitive, spiritual person. I feel my dad near and MacGregor, too. Thank you for sharing your beautiful sis, Bea, here in my space. I think she knows.


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drbj 4 years ago from south Florida

I enjoyed reading your beautiful poetic words imbued with exquisite meaning, Amy. But I also enjoyed reading your comments about your father and how you were able to visit him before he died. You have a strong positive belief system, my dear, and that will sustain you throughout your life. Guaranteed. Voted up.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

My dad also let me know after he passed that he was fine. So like him, he was the one who did the worrying when my brother, sister and I were growing up. He protected mom and all of us and his parents, too. While he was living, he was my mentor, drbj. And even now, he guides the way, because every big decision I make, I think about what he'd think. Do you ever wonder, drbj, if our spirits continue on, and I believe they do, can they see their loved ones still down on earth? I don't believe, even if that's the case, they change what is to be, but I wonder. That would certainly influence some, I would hope in positive ways.

And, as always, I love the "guaranteed". I believe you, my friend.


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and beautiful. We all search for the truth. I've been in contact with my nearest and dearest even after they have passed on and it is an awesome feeling. Your poem brought on many images and thoughts. Loved it.


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Curiad 4 years ago from Lake Charles, LA.

Any, I missed this one yesterday, I have been very disoriented the last few days. This is such an awesome look in at the thoughts of your life.

I have frequently had "visions" like a movie playing my life back in slow motion. I too have a strong connection with my dad and my mother both whom have passed away. My dad on my birthday and my mom as I sat with her.

I love your mind and your words Amy, you have a rare ability to express life with your words.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Gypsy, I am so glad I wrote this, because I feel linked to you and others that have had similar experiences. The communication with my dad cemented my belief in an afterlife. I grew up educated in the Catholic school system and the concept of eternity felt scary, remote and surreal in the manner it was taught. Now, I feel it and know it is true. My dad would never lie to me. Thank you for reaffirming that connection, Gypsy, by sharing your thoughts with me.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Mark, My dad's first birthday after the anniversary of his death, he visited, again announced with a clock. He and my mom bought me a beautiful chiming pendelum clock many years ago that hung on my living room wall. The morning of his birthday, it stopped. Just like I was thinking of him and missing him, the absence of the sound of the chimes, got my attention and I knew he was with me and understood.

I love your spiritually intuitive nature, Mark. I feel we are kindred spirits. Love sent to you in Cali in the hopes that you are feeling better.


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epigramman 4 years ago

..well I fulfill my quest for the literary holy grail Amy everytime I arrive here at your 'happening' ..... it's a groovy thing Amy baby - lol - and what you have here is a 'hub happening' lol - and since when did Miss Amy ever miss the 'truth' - I don't think soooooooooooooooo - but the truth be told I have been learning a lot of new words from you lately - I google them and google says to me - "Did Amy send you here again?"

and a new word for this occasion -hubsplendid!

lake erie time 3:09pm


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thanks, I needed that, Mister C. I speak of the laugh out loud when I read "google says to me - 'Did Amy send you here again?" And, "hubsplendid" is metaphoricastically stupendous. Thank you, Colin, for being the "shine" I need exactly when I need it, you crazy diamond!


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CrazedNovelist 4 years ago from Hampton, GA

Really awesome Amy. I really liked this one a lot. You choose awesome themes. Good to read it! :) Always a pleasure,

-Aubrey


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Oh, dear Aubrey, You've made my whole week! A visit from you feels like a blessing. Thank you so much.


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