The Pain Body
I tried to rip this thing out of my being today
but it held on fast, determined to stay
I held it in the light, and it was clear to see
but this hideous thing, snapped back into me
It isn't I, yet speaks and acts through me
Stunting the growth of my personality
Some days it so full of pain; such agony
I'm caught in its grip; unable to break free
Swollen from hungers, rejections and loss
it gnawed away, at my chances at love
Exposed to the light, its clear to see
It feeds on self doubt and vulnerability
Its already eaten the child within
and all that's left is the outer skin
It tears away at will .... and swallows integrity
Even when I'm strong , it' will never leave me be
Its a cowardly thing, full of infantile greed
mushrooming in the darkness of unfullfilled need
An ugly monster, that robs me of a self
pushing away loved ones, and everything else
I tried to kill this thing in my being today...
I accepted it, and loved it, and it drifted away
Writers note: Written for anyone who can identify with the 'pain body' ~ whether they be in pain from an abusive childhood, a loss, or neglect. This is just artistic interpretation; there is always hope where there is life, and there is always the possibility for change.
As a therapist, I hope I can shed light on the agony that is oftentimes within us ~ anything dark we bring to the 'light' has a chance at metamorphosis .
I highly recommend reading Eckhart Tolle, The Power of Now, or A New Earth - the message in these books will set you free.
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