Mamma said there would be days like this

Mum the pain just won't go away,

before you died the sky was blue,

now it's constantly overcast and grey,

I’m left with unsaid things to say to you.

Memories torment me the most,

alone now in the world with no one to cuddle,

a chilled breeze passes through me like a ghost,

standing by your grave my tears form a puddle.

Nights draw in I hear the steely wind shudder,

ravens gather in groups of black I hear them shriek,

I’m adrift on the ocean of life without any rudder,

or if you like without a paddle up the creek.

Mum you were the only one who cared,

no one else really understands,

laughter and life we both duly shared,

alone now I’m left wringing my hands.

Things that remind me of you are all around,

echoes of your footsteps make me twist,

respite from this sadness I have not found,

as long as I breathe you'll be sorely missed.

I just cannot seem to relate to another,

my heart is crushed like a damp flower,

the agony of living without a mother,

makes the honey of life taste really sour.

Strangers pass without any notion,

just a constant moving blur,

I wish I had some fantastic magic potion,

to hide my grief and pretend I didn't care.

The dust of time slowly swirls about,

life around me just spins out of sight,

in the darkness of my dreams I just want to shout,

hoping my mother will tell me it'll be al-right.

Come unto me the reaper who sows my grief,

in the quiet when thoughts abound,

you've taken my mother like a thief,

she left this world without any sound.

Without my mother I no longer feel whole,

my life is a jigsaw cast aside,

return unto me my life my soul,

so in the shadows I no longer have to hide.

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Mark Psychedlic 4 years ago from Birmingham UK Author

Thankyou Ardie I'm still evolving through my grief my tears still blur the words I try to write but most of all I hate being alone with my memories at night .


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Ardie 4 years ago from Neverland

Your pain became my pain and my heart broke. I still have my mom and I appreciate that fact every day. I will never take it for granted, especially when I read a poem like yours. You're very strong for writing this and sharing it with all of us. Thank you.


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wearenotthesame00 4 years ago from My Own Fantasy World...

Nicely written...

Made me almost cry.


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Mark Psychedlic 4 years ago from Birmingham UK Author

Thankyou senoritaa made me cry writing it


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Senoritaa 4 years ago

This brought tears to my eyes. Beautifully written. Really sorry for your loss.


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snakeslane 4 years ago from Canada

Thanks Mark.


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Mark Psychedlic 4 years ago from Birmingham UK Author

Thankyou snakeslane I wrote another poem called you left without saying goodbye listed here in my hubpages its the only way I can talk to her now as I'm not religious so prayers are not practical I'm a pagan and I believe her soul is somewhere in cyberspace hope you find solice in what I say Namaste x


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snakeslane 4 years ago from Canada

Dear Mark Psychedlic, my mom died a year ago, and I can relate so much to this lament. I admire your courage to write about such a deep, sad sense of loss. I haven't, personally been able to find the words to express this. I'm hoping eventually to find comfort in memories of all the years we had together, and I wish the same for you. Regards, snakeslane

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