End Days of my Father..........

How do we write of these things , as today's men , how do we put aside the father -son relationship issues and our sometimes extremely emotionally stunted growth ? Going back in time to a day when " boys will be boys" , when each and every young boy growing into "manhood " was so inclined to be strong , emotionless , made out of iron , if you will...........who knows . Today though, our culture has been evolving into a much more "touchy feely " society . That's all good now , don't get me wrong , but for us older guys ......it sure is and was different .

By the by .......This is inspired by my friend Vincent Moore, please check out his words.........they are magic !

This ones for Dad ......

He sat listing slightly to one side
as his pipe smoke swirled overhead
I could tell he was tired .... it being that
time of the day
We were just talking a little bit about the past
about "Mother "
she had died three years before
When he suddenly teared up
I remember watching him
What's with this ?

"You know ...I've always been proud of
you boys . " and on he went for a moment
"We always tried to do our best "
in a breaking voice he stopped .......
one small gutteral sound escaped
his lips between that one
trembling movement
And almost as quickly
it was gone

And I thought
That's okay Dad .........That's okay
Now you have to understand
or maybe I do
This man was an emotional
One made of the hardest stone for
the most part

And yet he was more apt to be
a bit emotional towards the end
More apt to say what was in
his heart
There were times when
a little bit of that stone
still shows though

Of course not in him
he's long gone now
But once in a while
my Father
I still pick a bit of stone from
my own lips
Just what is that ?
I love you dad!

Comments 14 comments

Daddysgirl 4 years ago

I think sometimes the pain we endure in life engulfs us, especially at a young age. As we age we look back in our lives and judge ourselves from our accomplishments in life! If we can not find peace, we seek it then. We all just need to learn that we are only here for a flicker of the moment. Nothing more important than doing this early in life. Just open your heart and your mouth! It's painful but fulfilling!

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xstatic 4 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

Touching and emotional tribute to your Dad. It made me think of my own, gone more than twenty years.

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always exploring 4 years ago from Southern Illinois

I don't understand. I commented on your hub a few hours ago. I will try again. This write reminded me of my two sisters who passed away and the sting still hurts. Take care...

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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and awesome. Such a wonderful and touching tribute to your dad. Your luck you could talk to him as an adult. I lost my dad at only 10 years of age and that was real tough. Anyway he is there with you and will be there to guide you along until you meet again and I'm sure he's proud of the fact that you remember and that you love.

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ImKarn23 4 years ago

Isn't it odd sometimes what time causes us to remember? Those little things that seemed so inconsequential at the time!

Your deep love and respect for your Dad is clearly evident in everything you write about him!

sharing my friend..

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Wayne Brown 4 years ago from Texas

We go through life with our emotions hidden away. My years and miles away from home in the military gave me a greater appreciation of my family back home. Coming back it was much easier to speak out loud and say, "I love you, Dad". Funny thing, each time I said it, it was a bit easier to get out. The great part is that soon he was saying it back to me. Sometimes we just have to pull the lid off to let the steam out. Very touching piece you have written here....sparked a lot of memories of my own dad. Thanks for sharing. ~WB

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BlossomSB 4 years ago from Victoria, Australia

You've explained your feelings so well and I can relate to that. It wasn't the 'thing' to wear our emotions on our sleeves, but so important to let each other know of our respect and love before it's too late. A good reminder.

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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Daddys girrl ! Is this my daughter ! wow ! To hear such wisdom from you is sooo awesome ! I should not be surprised though , you've always been so insightful !!oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo love Dad

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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

I can ask no more than that my friend ! No more !......:-}

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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Always , thank you , Im slow about approving comments , I've changed that in my profile ! Don't ever think Im ignoring you

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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Gypsy Rose , Thank you for this , we had trying times but now all is forgiven if not forgotten ......:-}

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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

IMKarn , We live , we learn , right ? "We came to terms " is about all there is to say about us , He is forgiven though for all of "it"......Thank you for the beautiful thoughts though , be well!

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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Wayne Brown , You are so right about that , it gets easier the more you say it . That "lid "has been off for years and good thing , we have all seen the bitterness carried on by others , no ? Nice to see you WB!

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ahorseback 4 years ago Author

Bloossom , Yes , and today we need that communication more than ever . Thanks for stopping !

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