My Life Living as Major Depression
Like knife pierce my heart
My world was getting dark
Life was worthless, affliction
Suicidal thoughts play in my mind
Lightning flashes storm my sky
Flood the heart of me inside
My soul deteriorate with my hope
With dreams, with strength
With love, with passion
Emptiness I felt
No longer hunger for adventure
I suffer major depression when I was 15 years old and I have thought about committing suicide many times. Because I suffer major depression, don’t treat me any different because I am human too. I am not crazy or weird; I just needed love and attention like everyone else. Sometime people that lives in your life doesn’t provide enough attention, it becomes an infection. When I'm stress out, I have cramps. The cramp would become very severe that I would fall to my knee and passed out. I was taken to the emergency room two time because of this problem. I learn to manage/control my stress/major depression by meditation. Sometime I have nightmare and wake up crying. From all the abused that I encounter in my personal life, it became an infection to my heart that I felt self hatred. It was complicated but with my fiance beside, he help me find my spirit. I grew out of my depression and became a soul free person. I now describe myself as a very daring and high spirit kind of person.
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