My Life in Soul Searching Honesty

I dedicate this to my beautiful dad, Stan. He was so special and a far cry from the man this song tells us about.

My son, only eight years old and full of wonder.

my son and I many years ago when his life was full of dreams, righting butterflies in the meadows and of years of happiness to come.
my son and I many years ago when his life was full of dreams, righting butterflies in the meadows and of years of happiness to come. | Source


I am what I am and nothing more,

you are what I see, I am in awe.

Standing before me, your aura shines,

your love and wisdom, so divine.

Loving hands, I gather to my heart

engaging feelings to the world, I impart.

For when I am with you all that I can see

are numbered days laid before me.

White light glows amongst flowers laid

tiny steps we waltz into the glade.

You hold me, willing my life to stay

your movement takes me further away.

As my life slips, in your heart I remain.

With trembling lips I seek to gain,

a glimmer of hope from wild open eyes,

a lifetime spent in awe and often in disguise.

Who is this person who before me stands,

whose shadow I once stood in that demands

a world of realisation dawns,

from a restrictive childhood where dark clouds storms?

Forgive my selfish lies and sad longing face,

to submit my form unto your grace.

A lifetime of tender moments I crave,

and I fear will sadly lead me to my grave.

Good times ahead I will leave for my children, true.

Memories of a fondness never to be replaced but grew

into a lifetime of happiness from when you were born

a moment of sadness resides in the early morn,

will never replace all my love I feel for you,

And nurtured in my garden, blue.

Life is for the living, and for the beautiful child,

I wish him to see marigolds to run, play and hide.

The man who I owe most of my upbringing too.

My best friend, my confidant, and my dad but never my father, but the best dad a girl could wish for.
My best friend, my confidant, and my dad but never my father, but the best dad a girl could wish for. | Source

To friends!

my best friend and my first born grandson, Callum. Thank you for the memories of a lovely 15 years and thank you still for being my support.
my best friend and my first born grandson, Callum. Thank you for the memories of a lovely 15 years and thank you still for being my support. | Source

Changes

To the wisest and most honest man I have had the fortune to meet in many years. Your trust and friendship are wonderful gifts and I am truly honoured to share my life with you.
To the wisest and most honest man I have had the fortune to meet in many years. Your trust and friendship are wonderful gifts and I am truly honoured to share my life with you. | Source

For David, enjoy my lovely man.

The future

I am the proudest parent in this world, because throughout all of our difficulties we are still friends. My beautiful daughter in law Rebecca, the flower in my heart and my son who I still live for.
I am the proudest parent in this world, because throughout all of our difficulties we are still friends. My beautiful daughter in law Rebecca, the flower in my heart and my son who I still live for. | Source

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thebluestar 3 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Thank you hunnie, he is the apple of my eye and I can't imagine life without him. My newest grandson is going to be a little handsome prince too, I am blessed with a lovely family. x


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Gypsy Rose Lee 3 years ago from Riga, Latvia

A wonderful tribute to a lovely family. Love the pics especially of your grandson Callum. He has the sunniest smile.


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thebluestar 3 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Wow this is a first time comment for me, a hub buddie from Belgium. Thank you so much for stopping by, I truly appreciate it. Nette


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Darrylmdavis 3 years ago from Brussels, Belgium

A very sweet write :-)


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thebluestar 3 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Hi Ruby, thank you for dropping over to comment. Always nice to see you. xx


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always exploring 3 years ago from Southern Illinois

Hi Annette, Good to see you writing again. Thank you for sharing your family, friends and thoughts with us. Take care...


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thebluestar 3 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Blossom, thank you so much for your lovely supportive comments. I adore my family, they are the world to me and I also love my friends unconditionally. I can tell from your comment that you are a lovely lady with a huge heart too. It is a pleasure to meet you x


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BlossomSB 3 years ago from Victoria, Australia

We have so much to be thankful for and you have written a beautiful, moving tribute to your lovely family. Great photos, too. God bless you.


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thebluestar 3 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Thank you so much. I have been very fortunate to know some awesome people, and I thank them every day for being in my life. x


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bravewarrior 3 years ago from Central Florida

What a beautiful tribute to the men who have influenced your life. I'm sure they are all very proud of you.


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thebluestar 3 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Hey baby, what a lovely surprise to receive your comment. You know me well Cheryl, and you are so familiar with my life and the things that I cherish the most. You are a star in the dark sky my friend and one day I hope you will feel the happiness that I feel with my family and friends. Love ya girlfriend.


Cheryl 3 years ago

Sweetest Annette, such poignant, haunting and memorable words that are so awe inspiring it shall leave an indelible imprint in my heart and soul. Such delicacy throughout. Such brilliance with your special gift. What a joy those pictures gave me. How beautiful you are with your son. And what a wonderful Mother and Grandma you are. Your Dad would be so proud of you. My dear talented friend, keep writing with your God given gift! Love Cheryl Woods


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thebluestar 3 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Maria, you know me well, and thank you for the lovely comments. Sometimes our minds just refuse to play ball and I haven't been writing for some time now. Thank you for the support. Love Nette xx


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thebluestar 3 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Faith Reaper, thank you so much for your lovely, supportive comments. I have struggled for months now to write anything of any worth at all, thankfully these words came to mind yesterday. Nette


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marcoujor 3 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

Nette,

How very lovely to see you writing again about those people that mean the world to you and make your world whole.

You are a gifted and sensitive writer. Thank you for sharing.

Have a peaceful and good day. Love, Maria


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Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

Very profound thoughts and reflection here!

Great photos of your beautiful family and friends.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts this day.

Voted up +++ and sharing

Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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