My One Regret

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For You Mum

It is coming close to the anniversary of my mother’s death. It is always a difficult time for me as her passing was by her own hand. She took her own life and I never got the chance to tell her simply, that I loved her, but didn't understand her pain. Now I do, suicide is never to be condoned; the one’s left behind have so many questions left to be answered. It has taken me 30 years to move on from my pain, and the scars are still there for everyone to see, depending on how hard they look.

My One Regret

Pull back the reigns, turn off the light,

Let that woman go off into the night.

What is for you, you will get,

Fate dealt a hand that I least expect.

Friendship comes and friendship goes,

whatever the reason, nobody knows.

Life is like an angel, fragile and true,

My soul lingers with the thoughts of you.

Mothers and daughters, love so entwined,

promises of light ever after of the glorious kind.

Soul searching reasons and still I haven’t learned

to let you go forth another love spurned

My mother my love, thoughts of the past

of good times and bad times that never last.

My love for you was never denied,

I am in my heart forever your child.

Anniversaries come and then they pass,

Memories never falter, just hidden by a mask.

Of tears and loneliness that cry to be heard,

sorrow and sadness in life that I shared.

Too late now to make amends,

Tomorrow is another day, where fear lends

an awesome reminder of things that should have been said

“I love you mum without any regrets.”

Copywrite @ Annette Donaldson.

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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Darling mar, forever there with your love and support dear friend. Have I told you recently how much I appreciate you? x


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Hi Bill, thank you so much for your comment. It is very hard to lose someone in the way that we both have done, but as you say "we should love them for their courage", and I surely do. x


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marcoujor 5 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

Net,

I am thinking of you and wanted to say how much I love Will's use of present tense. You "always will be" a wonderful daughter, my dear and this tribute is such a fine example. Please be gentle with yourself, mar.


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WillStarr 5 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

My mother reached a point where she was physically unable to live outside a hospital, so she decided to die. She refused all food and liquid, and a week later, she simply passed away.

I guess that qualifies as a suicide, but when life has been lived and it becomes a struggle to pointlessly live on, we should love them for their courage and just let them go.

You are a fine and loving daughter, Annette.


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Darling Mo, such a huge heart and I am so glad to know you. Thank you hunnie. xx


Motown2Chitown 5 years ago

Annette, my arms are always open, and hugs are always forthcoming, even across the many miles! :D


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Frog, thank you for the comment. A mother has a love so powerful, that once it is taken away we never forget. Thank you for the advice, I do tell all those that I hold so dear that I love them every day, and I will never stop.


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

My sweet friend mar, always there with loving support and never to judge. Love ya girl. xx


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Dardia, thank you for understanding my friend. A mother's love is the most precious in the world and I truly miss her.


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Cardisa my beautiful girl, thank you for taking time out to warm this old woman's heart. Bless you.


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

tndrhrt, how are you girlfriend? Thank you so much, your comment inspires me and I am in awe of you. x


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Sweet Nell, thank you for your comforting words, I am truly grateful for your support x


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Darling Mo, thank you girl for your support, I just want to put my arms around you as you always understand how I feel. A hug just now would be great. x


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Dear friend Mysterious One, thank you for stopping by. You and I share a lot in common, but when it comes to writing beautiful soul felt poetry, I am along way behind you. x


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The Frog Prince 5 years ago from Arlington, TX

I understand your anguish, part of it anyway. My mother, who was my best friend, died when she was 51 from a brain aneurism. I was stationed in Colorado at the time. By the time I was able to get to Florida, she has died about 2 hours before my plane landed.

Just to have been able to tell her one last time how I loved her, given her a hug and a kiss I will carry with me the rest of my life. Always remember that if you love someone to given them a hug, a kiss and tell them you love them. It might be the last chance your ever have.

Peace be with you.

The Frog Prince


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marcoujor 5 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

My dearest friend,

You ARE speaking to your Mom still today and helping all of us as you always do through the power of your pen. You have a gift and that is you express your heart in the purest manner possible. You ARE a Muse to me and I believe our Moms still hear us... I really do.

Voted UP & UABI-- all my love, Maria


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Dardia 5 years ago from Michigan

It is so hard for those left behind to understand. Maybe it is not for us to understand, but to continue loving. It sounds as though this is what you have done in your beautiful ode to your mother. Thank you for sharing your pain and your love.

+ Darlene


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Cardisa 5 years ago from Jamaica

Just beautiful. Tribute well written and I'm sure well deserved.


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tnderhrt23 5 years ago

star, this is such a beautiful, heart-felt piece! Your love and forgiveness is truly an example and inspiration in the face of such pain! Hugs to you!


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Nell Rose 5 years ago from England

Hi, what a beautiful poem and tribute, having to live with the memory of such an awful experience, I feel for you, I miss my mum too. She died 10 years ago, and there's never a day I forget her, nell


Motown2Chitown 5 years ago

Ah, Annette. This of course made me think of my own mother, and brought tears to my eyes. What a lovely tribute. I'm devastated for you - to endure the loss of your mother is such a horrific experience, but in that manner even more so. Your strength and forgiveness is an encouragement to ALL. Please don't ever stop writing from your soul, dear one.


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MysteriousOne 5 years ago

What a heart-felt,beautiful tribute,bluestar.I feel your pain and sorrow. Voted up/sad/awesome

Stay well,my friend!

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