My Own Death Date

If I could write my own death date
For some reason I wish I could write this day
Depression strikes me once again
And my feeling is like a hurricane

My heart explode like dynamite
I sat alone and cried
I felt so tangled up
Struggling for breath and all I'm wishing was for death

It’s cold; yes chilly
But I feel colder than the weather
Loneliness strikes
And I wished for someone to hold me for a while

Here I am sitting behind the computer
Expressing my feeling as the wind gently hitting my window
And the sun kiss my eyes
But too soon the sun disappeared

I close my eyes and took a deep breath
Consuming enough hopes and dream
I wish that someday I can be like an eagle

Free from all pain and agony

I awoke from a gentle kiss upon my lip that my fiance steel from me
I never knew that this one kiss last longer
Than the others and never knew this kiss was so gentle
That it change my mood to pure romance.

My pain has vanished from a gentle kiss
And this kiss became so sensual
I rest my head against the our soft white rug
As my body sheltered upon his

He look into my eyes and tell me
"Honey, I love you!"
I laugh within shyness and kissed his lip
Our tongue dance freely and I can see the sun shine once again

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Vinaya Ghimire 5 years ago from Nepal

With this kind of writing, you die and become immortal. Your suicide note is beautifully written.

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Gypsy Rose Lee 5 years ago from Riga, Latvia

That was one wild ride your poem took me on. Love how it ended.

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Ghaelach 5 years ago

Hi Chanroth.

Hope the first half of your poem has disappeared for a long time and the second half stays with you always.

A great poem with sadness and beauty combined.


LOL Ghaelach

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Capedium 5 years ago from Texas.

You saw the light again...

Lol!.. unexplainable nice poem..

But I really like it..

When you kiss and there was light

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raciniwa 5 years ago from Naga City, Cebu

it's great to have your fiance affirms his love for you...i'm glad you're okay now...

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Laura Schneider 5 years ago from Minneapolis-St. Paul, Minnesota, USA

May your depression always be gone and your light remain shining brightly forevermore.

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Jspot 5 years ago from Flames of water and love

Express away the painful memories to find the beauty in the pain. I love and miss reading your words. Great to be back. Voted up

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Eiddwen 5 years ago from Wales

Very well written and so has an up up and away.

Take care ad enjoy your day.


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Deborah Brooks 5 years ago from Brownsville,TX

this is a wonderful beautiful written.. I love the ending you saw the light. the first is sad. but the end is wonderful..

I voted up and beautiful


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Iintertrans 5 years ago from New Delhi

hey young girl dont you dare to write suicide note. even though beautifully crafted i need to stay a afloat and entertain more people in your life with your writing.

write more.

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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

This is beautiful..You're getting better and better with your poetry..Thank you..

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chanroth 5 years ago from California, USA Author

Hi Everyone, thank you so much for commenting, voting, and reading. Its a bless to be back on HP after I caught a flu. Thank you so much! I will stay to write more! :)


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Neverletitgo 5 years ago from Minneapolis, MN

Hope you be happy the rest of your life and stay enjoying that light shone you. Thanks for the share.


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chanroth 5 years ago from California, USA Author

Hi Abdi, thank you! :)

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